Glad to hear things are now moving in the right direction.
I'm desperate for a reconstruction, though I must say I have a very lovely and thoughtful GP who referred me as soon as I mentioned that I felt I needed to get on with it asap - he's German, very jolly and does his best to be reassuring. When I was first diagnosed he urged me to avoid a mastectomy as he was concerned about the impact it has on women. Unfortunately, after the WLE I got a bad histology report and the mastectomy was then necessary.
I spoke to another GP at my practice recently, about a non-cancer issue, and he commented there was something in my notes about a referral, so I said yes it was for a reconstruction. He'd seen in the notes it was because of discomfort etc and I said, also partly vanity. He was very understanding and said I wasn't being vain trying to get some normality back and was 100% behind my decision as he has a friend who recently had a recon which had transformed things for her.
Until someone has had our experiences and lived a life where they've been (unavoidably) mutilated then they should accept your/our feelings about it and, particularly as part of the caring profession, should support whatever you want to make you feel better about yourself.
I hate looking in the mirror and seeing this complete stranger. I can put on a front so people don't realise my true feelings, I laugh and smile and behave quite outwardly 'normal' but I think they'd be upset if they knew my real thoughts about myself.
Some former friends told me a couple of days before my MX that their friend wasn't at all bothered about it when she had her mx. Well, that's really nice but she was a lady in her mid 70s and I'm in my 40s and currently on my own. I tend to think there's a bit of a difference there. It bothers the hell out of me and the sooner I can gain some sort of normality the better.
Good luck with the surgery.