Dear jonik
Welcome to the forum. I'm so sorry to hear of your worries. I'm sure other members will soon come on to offer you some support.
You could also call our helpline to talk things over. They will be able to offer you practical information and emotional support. They are open from 9-5 on weekdays and 10-2 on Saturdays. The number is 0808 800 6000
Very best wishes
Janet
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