thank you Dizzy dee. I need to know that how I feel is normal and that I'm not alone. This forum is such a help - you're the only ones who understand and I'm encouraged by your experience. take care xxx
Isn t it annoying the way people say you re coping, you re strong, you are so brave. It makes me angry because I feel a fake. I m weak and on the edge but how would they
feel if they had cancer ? they wouldn't be putting quite such a spin on it if it were them. I look at them sitting there on the sofa all cancer free lucky them.
Feeling sad today and weary ,hard to keep smiling and so positive as everyone keeps telling me, I am sorry for moaning again just helps to say what I really feel instead of the mask I wear . Looking forward to being able to smile again and meaning it . Take care and good luck x
I completely sympathise with you, but please know that it is completely natural to feel like that, and it's something we all experience. I have only just finished all my treatment (hooray), but I have never known fear like the fear I had when first diagnosed. Like you, and others on this thread, I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, lost loads of weight with the stress, and was completely terrified. It's the fear of the unknown, the fear of what lies ahead, and the fear of being diagnosed with cancer. I do completely echo what dizzydee said, in that the light that shines out of us all when treatment is over is worth its weight in gold. Hang in there and stay strong, it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when you are first diagnosed, but it is there, and you will reach it. You will come out the other side a much stronger woman with so much more appreciation for life. Lots of love to you xx
went to the hospital today for pre surgery check ecg bloods etc i am having surgery 21st i have to go in on the 20th to have a guide wire inserted ,everything is going ahead but i still cannot believe this is about me, still in a bad dream , how are you x
I will I'm back at the hospital today to start this roller coaster ride part of me wants to stay in bed under my duvet good luck x
Hi I am the same the waiting is th worse. I also found a group on Facebook uk breast cancer support they are very helpful too. And there nearly always somebody there what ever time you post take care and good luck Barbara
Can empathise so much .... my gp issued me with atarax to help me sleep,,, an antihistamine as he knew i wanted / needed to keep working as the breadwinner in my household.
Sending big gentle hugs,
Firstly, so sorry to hear about your diagnosis, which is difficult enough to deal with, but with what you're also carrying on your shoulders in addition, really sucks. I completely get the, can't eat and sleep and racing heart etc, I'm sure most of us can relate to that. The waiting and wondering if just awful. I did go to my GP and got myself a prescription for a very low dose of Amitryptylene, which really helped. When you manage to get enough sleep, you feel you can cope better.
Also sounds like you need to get some counselling just to off load about everything you're having to deal with. Sounds like a visit to your GP to get this support is definitely required, along with something to help you sleep. I hope your daughter and your husband are also getting some help, although, right now, you're main worry should be yourself. There are various organisations that can help you and provide you with free support. There is the Breast Cancer Haven, which provides all sorts of services, to start with plus you should find a support group locally in your area which will help.
Sending you lots of gentle hugs and hope all goes well next week.
Firstly, welcome to the forums, I am sorry to read of your recent diagnosis and the tough time you are having at the moment, the first few days and weeks are always difficult when coming to terms with things and getting to grips with your treatment plans, etc.
May I suggest that whilst you are waiting for replies from the other user you give the BCC helpline a call on 0808 800 6000. Here you can share your feelings, worries and thoughts with someone who will offer you a listening ear as well as emotional support and practical information. The nmber to call is 0808 800 6000 and lines are open weekdays 9-5pm Saturday a0 to 2pm.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator
Diagnosed with lobular invasive 12mm, waiting for MRI next week.
I can't stand this waiting for test results, for treatment. I can't eat and I can't sleep. I am going out of my mind and my heart is racing - and I know how bad stress is for BC. It probably caused mine in the first place.
My husband has had a nervous breakdown and can't cope- he was already clinicaly depressed - so I have to support him too as well as my 2 girls. One of them has bulimia and self harms. I'm the breadwinner so if I go under we all do.
What is the point of carrying on?