sorry you are feeling rubbish, are you an artist? I am an artist( on a year out from my uni course)
i know about the urges to paint stones, also
i often have quirky thoughts about what to use in my art! I unfortunately have to inject myself, so on my last uni course, I got syringes and covered them in laytex and attached them to organic fibre and did a hanging thingy as part of my final exhibition! Of course now, I have to find a way of disposing of them legally.!
i used some to glue into crucifixes too. Glass syringes ( without needles) have an asthetic quality.if you know what i mean.
what do you paint on your stones? I think a coat of varnish under and on top would be good to stabilise the paint??( ps my car door is full of stones i need to ditch at some point)
sounds as if you are coping pretty well with the chemo and I hope you feel better soon..(I found the 'clicking nose' of my biopsies was the worst bit really.)
love and hugs,
Hi again Treeze,
Lol - that would be fun! As you are already on chemo 4 - you might also be suffering from the 'chemo blues', as for some of us the chemo drugs can have the effect of making us feel lower, than we usually woud feel - and it is more challenging to get out of it, too.
Lol, yes - the mind and the body - something I recognize so well - and yikes - it is soooooo frustrating.
Mind you - I gave up after a while - relaxed, let my body take over - and went with the flow, so to speak. It made quite a difference to how I felt, as I accepted that my inability to do certain things were not my fault - it was the treatment.
If you can - as and when - do try and get out for some walks. The fresh air and physical activity may help you to feel a little better, too. Boredom - yes - I did get quite bored, being tied to the sofa for a while. So I kept mentally very active - conceived and started my own little business! On better days started to experiment with baking bread, much fun! At least I get to eat the results! Also did some tray bakes, etc - and fed the neighbours, lol - too much for me on my own! I found it quite therapeutic - something I could achieve, whilst sitting on my kitchen chair!
Good to hear your biopsy went easier than expected and hoping your results will be the way you would like them to be.
I am not sure, whether you are already on chemo or not, but if you are due to start - here is the link to the September thread for chemo starters
And this is the beginning of the thread - which has some links to pages on the forum, which you may find of hel - just scroll to find the first post on the page - https://forum.breastcancercare.org.uk/t5/Chemotherapy-monthly-threads/September-2016-starters/td-p/1...
I live near the sea in the south - if stones were not so heavy - I would post some to you - we hae so many on the beaches down here.
how are thngs now? Hope your last day went ok. Do let us knw how things are...lots of lovely ladies here all here for you and ach other
Hi Treeze, Monday was my last day at work - until I go back all healed and fit of course. It felt very emotional as it was like an admission that this is something very serious happening. Work has always been really important to me and is part of my identity- I've worked full time for nearly twenty years, only taking maternity leave and adoption leave for my boys. But I decided to take some time off between my sentinel node biopsy and my mastectomy. Actually making a decision made me feel more in control of things. Be kind to yourself and do things that you want to do when you feel up to it. And it's OK to have down moments, you don't have to be super woman. Friendships may change but that's about them, not you and I am sure the people who care will be there for you. Don't be afraid to ask for help and for visitors- most people love to feel wanted and useful. Take care X
Im only just beginning my journey and so far I feel very lucky that my cancer is non invasive . I do have to have a mastectomy because of the size of the affected area and there are some cells which are suspicious too . Some of my friends and work colleagues have been very sympathetic ,but as you say some people either dont mention it at all or in my case just look at me . And as the guy I was seeing called time on our relationship I can only assume he ran for the hills in fright , possibly imagining that he was going to get lumbered with looking after me .. ha human nature is a strange thing .
But at this moment in time its only been a few weeks since the mammogram picked up a problem and I havnt been immobilised yet . I have however had other problems in the past where Iv been in a dark place and there were very few people who actually bothered to knock on my door and see if I was ok , and I had or so I thought had a large circle of friends and I was always out and about socialising . And when I was back to normal and out again I encountered some of my oldest and so called friends criticising and making judgements on how I should run my life . Needless to say I was not impressed and very quickly started to question why I had ever bothered with some of them , and others I remembered the times when I had always turned up on peoples door step when I heard they had problems or where unwell . And never in a million years would I have felt it was my business to comment on peoples personal choices . So I ditched some of them . , amazing myself as at that time I was 50 years of age and had been friends with some since I was in school .
I am now 54 and very happy with the choices I made . I do accept that everyone has their own life ( but I always did ) , and at my age most people have husbands , children, grandchildren , careers , parents still , hobbies etc .The reality is that everyone elses life continues to run normally . So I would say that yes friendships do change unfortunately , and at times I havnt always managed to support or keep in touch with people who have needed it because I too could not due to my own home , work commitments etc .We are prob all guilty at times . It does not mean you cannot feel sad , angry or lonely for feeling the change . You are human and going through a difficult journey so you rant on girl ! . And yes you will be ok soon ...but in the meantime kick and shout as much as you want ... youre having a bad moment so what ! and after reading what youre up against Im not surprised . Big hugs for you , hope youre feeling a bit better xx