Sainsbury's is obviously a dangerous place Francine as one of our other ladies was saying she had a meltdown there when someone took the last packet of chocolate biscuits that she had wanted for herself!
Supermarkets I can do - just have a meltdown every time I get anywhere near a surgeon as I can't rid myself of the notion that they are intelligent sadists who would otherwise be doing unspeakable things to people in dark alleyways; I can't see any other reason for someone to want to spend their life chopping people up! Pretty sure the consultant surgeons in my hospital now draw straws to see who has to put up with me at my visits as I turn into a whingy, sulky teenager-ey brat who questions their every word (one of the consultants very patiently reminded me that he was the cavalry and not the enemy but I'm still not convinced!)
Alison, yes of course it is normal. We have all been there and done that. Then have very positive moments too. I am sure we will continue to feel up and down like this for some time to come. Val x
I'd like to join that club Fuffs, can we get badges made and have regular meetings over cocktails? I'm sick and tired of being told to 'stay strong', 'be positive' 'be glad that you're alive'. I am all of those things of course but feel I should be allowed to be grumpy and miserable occasionally about some of the less than wonderful stuff without feeling I'm letting the side down. I've yet to hear a convincing reason for feeling 'glad' to have a mangled boob, desiccated skin from radiotherapy and the possibility of yet more surgery that may or may not correct my lop-sidedness.
Sorry, rant over *slinks away feeling guilty for being so shallow*
Hi Rita welcome to this awful bur very supportive forum. You are in a similar state to me except 2 lumps so mastectomy, and lymph node clearance (the bit I am dreading). You are being operated on quick thats good. I was diagnosed 9th Feb not operating until 10th March - however I did have CT and bone scan first- which is I suppose how my hospital does it - they were all clear thank god. Apart from a small amount of back deterioration - I am 56 - and have had problems with it on occasion but nothing major - and they said nothing to worry about - no big C anyway anywhere else.
Your op is now only a coupl of days away - lucky you - would like to get mine out of the way tbh.
Still using time to get sorted for afterwards. Even got a wig appointment for when I have chemo - I dont want to wait till afterwards when I might be feeling low or unwell. While I am fit and healthy (lol) I am getting organised.
I havent had any mention of Radiotherapy at all, just op, chemo and hormone as I am ER+. Rest of results after surgery (2 weeks) so maybe know more then I suppose.
Take care, good luck for Tuesday and keep in touch - we need all the friends, support, help and advice we can get at a time like this.
Firstly, welcome to the forums, I am sure you will find it a great source of information and support. I'm sorry to read of your diagnosis, the first few days and weeks are always difficult when coming to terms with things and getting to grips with your treatment plans, etc.
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Oh dear - yes well at the time I am sure it seemed a good idea to fund your business with your house and with hindsight we would have all maybe acted differently. I certainly wouldnt have given up work!!! We were going to do another room this year (we have two) which would have brought in more income that I was earning so it seemed like a good idea. Now that room (my bedroom) will be put aside, as Iwill need my sanctuary to retire to at times and I cant expect the OH to do that much on his own.So we will be limited to the income of 2rooms - hopefully it will be a busy year - .
Sorry to hear about your husband too, but he is on the mend now at least.
Good for you there is no lymph node involvement as I believe that is the worst part of the surgery - will soon find that out.
I do try to lay off the reading - but find I always go back to it - even to the point of how long am I going to live lol - stupid.
Trying now to just read about the stage I am at now - its all too much to take in at once. Thats why the forum is so good, we are all in the same boat in different ways - but it is good to share our experiences.
keep in touch and take care - Val
surely you can request a mastectomy if you would prefer? awful to have a delay but at least just one day. I am trying to keep away from infections so I can have min on 10th march - havent seen grandsons (5) cos they have scarlet fever at mo. Take carex Val x
We all felt exactly the same as you dont worry. It is all the not knowing that is SO hard. It drags on, people ask you whats happening...... I had my op booked so told people, but then wasnt sure if they would do that first or chemo so couldnt say anything for deffo. This was very hard on me (us) but also everyone else. Once you know exactly whats happening you will feel much better. I havent cried again since I was told it hadnt spread to any organs. This was such a relief. So although its breast, mastctomy and lymph node clearance, it could be so much worse.
I can now concentrate on whats going to happen, when and deal with it. It is now doable, the what ifs have mostly gone. It is curable and I can deal with it. You will feel much the same when you get your final results. It is just a list of practical steps to go through and get done.
Good luck for Monday - keep us up to date
your op is the day after mine. I am having left mastectomy and lymph node clearance, which apparently is worse than the boob op. Toyed with the idea of a flap reconstruction, but would be in a hospital nearly 100 miles away and much moremajor surgery. So opted for simple reconstruction. Which will probably leave me lop sided, one pert boob and one droopy one lol. Still can do more about that in the future if I so wished. Cross that bridge when I come to it. Just want to get rid at the moment and get well. Lymphnode clearance Can cause all sorts of problems now and in future. But no choice it has to be done. Told that I will have chemo and probably hormone therapy as min is ER +.
Keep strong and occasional wobbles is fine. Instead of all the what ifs, and has it spreadm I am now just trying to deal with the practicalities of it all. Got wig appointment next weds - they dont tell you about that till after the op but I might not be up to it then. I want everything ready and in place before the op. List of purchases to make too, eye drops, creams, etc etc
Ever practical and organised me.
I know where youa are coming from. I too run a small b and b business with my fiance. Gave up other paid work just before xmas, should have stayed then I would have been on full pay through this......
You have to keep going to pay the bills, and we have to be happy in front of guests to keep them happy. Was hard before I had the full picture i.e. has it spread. But now we know the extent, 2 lumps and lymph nodes I can deal with it better. Not crying all the time now. Just need to be practical and get all theis out of the way, step by step. Trying to keep myself informed, I have never read so much, just so I am aware of all eventualities.
and YES we are stronger than we think - well we dont really have a choice.
Hi judith, sorry you have had to join us all. I wasnt given a choice, two lumps and "petite" boobs apparently no good for lumpectomy lol, never realised 38b was petite lol. So full Mastectomy and reconstruction on left on 10th March. I have been much more positive since I have been given nearly the whole story. Its just practicalities now, I am not going to die......... Operation, healing, chemo and Hormone therapy. Not sure if anything else yet. Very anxious to get it all happening now. Take Care Val