I know it might not be anything serious.... but lots of people have had soft mobile ones that turned out to be cancerous. I don't think it's a lymph node like she said it *could* be, I noticed it over a month ago now, and it's still there. I am still sick, too, but the lymph nodes under my jawline have receeded back to normal.
Sigh. I know the only way to know is to get the ultrasound, but for now "ignorance is bliss." I just really don't have the mental capacity to deal with cancer right now. Too much **bleep** is befalling me, this is the last thing I need. I got my dog's remains today and I'm having a really hard time with it. he wasn't just a dog, he was my friend. I live in a very secluded area and I've spent the past 9 years with him, every day (work from home). This sucks.
I as the referring to spread or lack of spread by saying 'soft rubbery and mobile is encouraging', I as referring to benign as opposed to a BC. I was certainly told that the symptoms you are describing in the lump make is more likely to be benign.
Hi again woe is me.....
Ann is right, the reality is often easier to deal with than the fear of not knowing. This fear is going to play on your mind, and the likelihood is a benign cause. ( especially if you've had a temperature and enlarged glands that sound like they are infection fighting). I know the pain of losing pets dear to you, you grieve them as a family member, actually most people's pets are closer than family members! BUT you are 30 years old and talking about dying, or a lack of fear of it, but I'm sure there is nothing like that you are facing....even in the worse case scenario.
Ultrasound is simple, quick and to be frank with you, ( and I had a phobia of anything medical, including all medications, General anaesthetics and interventions....I kid you not you should see my posts from back then!) so is the removal surgically of a tumour. I strongly think you have built this up in your mind to be something far different from the reality. I'm sorry you find yourself in such a painful emotional place, but listen to your friend who asked you to check in the first place, she cares and wants the best for you.
Thank you both for the responses.
No i haven't had the ultrasound yet, I'm supposed to schedule one but just haven't yet... I'm not really in the emotional mindset to deal with it if it is cancer.. I just lost a very dear pet unexpectedly and I can't take anymore pain right now.
I know logically if it is cancer that since it's mobile it probably hasn't spread much and I know the treatment for early detection is almost an 100% cure rate. My medical anxiety/expecting the worst still floods my mind with the thought of sitting there and being told it's spread. The strange thing is I am not fearful of dying, I just don't want to go through it all.
But to answer your question, she didn't check my lymph nodes in my armpit region, although I did have a raised temperate of 99.9F and the lympth nodes under my jaw have been swollen on and off since the same time I found the lump under my nipple.
Im really glad you posted, as you will get loads of support on this forum from others who understand your fear and situation. We are all united here by understanding the emotional roller coaster, at your stage uncertainty being a key feature. As Ann said, you have 100 percent done the right thing, even if it IS BC ( and that is an IF) then quick testing and diagnosis is the way forward. Did the doctor feel your lymph nodes under your arm at all ? I genuinely hope that something benign is found, that relates to your hormone treatment (incidentally, soft rubbery and mobile sounds better than hard, thickened and immovable!) but if not then you need to understand that treatments for this cancer type are very effective nowadays...VERY....for the vast majority of people. I read your post twice, but can't see it now whilst typing this reply, did you say when your ultrasound appointment / clinic appointment had been made for ?
The other thing I wanted to say is that 'these tests' aren't just done to diagnose cancer, they are done as standard to rule out cancer and diagnose what benign condition is occurring. It would be wrong for them to NOT do them one you have a symptomatic observation. Once you have a lump of any sort you are having a mammogram, ultrasound etc. as no doctor would diagnose just based on a physical examination...that would be far too risky. Just because you need these done ....don't make a massive jump to it being spread all round your body and you are doomed. You won't be! This is a small lump found, that by the sound of it, even if it was cancer would be at a very early stage. You know what else, if it had spread out of control everywhere then you'd be getting other symptoms. My surgeon told me ' you feel well because the BC is contained within one area of your body' I.e. Not affecting anything else.
So glad you have felt able to post here, it's a timely reminder that men can be affected by this too.
This stage always feel scary & inevitably anxiety goes with territory, thankfully, you've done the right thing & you're now in the right place to get to the bottom of it.
I certainly understand that feeling of not wanting to make a big deal of it, but at the same time having dealing with the anxiety of it all. Mostly, all turns out to be well, but do get support if you need it, let us know what happens.
I'm a 30y/o male who has a hormonal issue, so I am taking testosterone injections. Along with that I developed gynecomastica, so I have some breast tissue. Anyway, I found a lump behind my left nipple. My friend, who is a RN, convinced me to get it checked out. I saw the doctor yesterday and she noted that I had a "Small, soft, rubbery, mobile lump" around the 5 o'clock position. (It changes positions based on my stance or location of arms, etc). She said with any lump they order an ultrasound and/or mammogram to rule out breast cancer. She comments that it could possible by a lymph node but we need to make sure it is not cancer.
Anyway, I've accepted that i'm "ok" with it being cancer, it has been a fear of mine for years, ever since i developed the g ynecomastica that people said was a "rare" side-effect of the hormone therapy. I think I just assumed if it was cancer it would be an early stage and I could have it removed and carry on with my life. But after finally visiting the doctor and knowing I need these tests, it's sort of scary. I imagine myself being told it's far progressed or something, I dunno. I know that no one can tell me whether it's cancer or not by feeling it, I know I need the tests, I just feel like I need to talk to someone. I haven't told anyone because I don't want people to worry or make a big deal of it.