I didn't have a lump but something felt not right. It was found almost immediately in January last year, and was tiny. Luckily, it hadn't spread and i had a lumpectomy and radiotherapy. I'm now taking Exemestane after 10 months on Letrozole, which just about crippled me.
It all happened so quickly for me that i naievely thought once i'd had the radiotherapy it was done and dusted. Then i discovered the joys of hormone therapy! And then the likelihood of recurrence. I've only had a couple of visits back to my oncologist and it's always so rushed, so i often don't get around to talking about my concerns. I was told my prognosis was good - but when i asked what that meant exactly, i was just told to 'stay positive' so i never really understood it, and i'm still not sure what it meant.
My concern - on down days like lately, is that i'm 66 and have four years of treatment left to do. I've found the hormone treatment both physically and mentally drastic, and on bad days I wonder if it's worth the treatment at 66 - if what might be my last 4 years! feel this awful, and the prospect of recurrence beyond it.
Sorry - i doubt this will reassure you about your situation, but i just wanted you to know that I don't think it's unusual to feel this way, when all the major work has been done and we're out of hospital hands. You aren't alone!
My bc was was smaller than yours - 7mms, but otherwise similar, stats can seem scary at times, but it's only a general indicator based on past recovery data that can be quite old. Mine is 95% at 10 years & I tell myself, it was caught early, clear margins & nodes, so I'll take that. I'm sure we'll both be knocking around for many more years yet!