Hi all.
Have wrote this post so many times, then deleted it, because its crap.
My grandma died, not unexpected, but sad. The usual family arguments, scarlett (with no prompting) wrote a letter and drew a picture, glued it and asked for it be placed in mo's coffin. Two of my mums sisters have over-ruled this, incase my scarletts letter is malicious. My mum said she didnt fight our corner because she has her own crap going on. Santa took the letter to mo's away with the kids present lists. Feel really let down and pushed out, and angry with my mum, which leads on the second thing. My mum is been investigated for an ulcer, caused she tells me by 'my cancer'. My mum rings me maybe once a week, see's us every school holiday. Thats all, she lives about 20 minutes away, but is busy with her dogs. She wasnt around when i was doing chemo, she didnt help, she didnt see me ill. She has been signed off work for a month to cope with the stress, and is seeing a counsellor to talk through her stress. Feel really bad for saying it, but how dare she discuss my illness with strangers. She has been told that when a child has cancer it really affects the parents, she told me i was selfish when i said that it affected my children more, because they saw me poorly, rubbed my back when i was sick and cuddled me in bed when it hurt to move. crying writing this, feel so upset. sorry if i have upset anyone, but no one else to talk too. Tried to talk to my aunty, but she didnt want to know. sorry
k x
