starting rads on 10th nov

[Seabreeze]

Hi Wemblo,
In case this helps.....bra which I think helped me evade splitting below boob was a very soft Bravado silk seemless (maternity) bra (available at a number of big stores eg JL and online). V soft and wide underband too. I also used a layer of soft 100% cotton t shirt material on the skin side (chopped up old Tshirt) to reduce friction. I'm convinced it helped and radiologists said I could do no more. Confess I didn't escape completely, had nipple burn (lovely)...Flamazine was fantastic and burn just gentley flaked, the fabric layer helping keep the old skin on as long as possible to protect the new.
Hope the boosters go as well as pos.

I too escaped chemo....feel for Deelush, Forties, Sodastream and the other ladies on this strand re the hair, you should all be proud of yourselves with your hair colouring plans...the chestnut sounds good and the Pixie cut.
x Seabreeze

[Boa]

Sodastream
Lying down for half an hour on rads? Our appointments are at 10 minute intervals. I'm lying down for 5 minutes maximum!
Boa

[deelush]

Enjoy your four days off Wemblo,  😉 

X x 

[Sodastream]

Hi Wemblo I'm bet you're glad that parts over now and fingers crossed that your skin holds out for you.
Forties I did the cold cap which was really successful through chemo but I found after chemo had finished I found the long hair was thin and the new hair was growing fast but was short and spikey so I took the plunge and had it cut into a pixie cut. Funnily my 16 year old son doesn't like it but I think it's because my haircut looks like his and what teenage boy wants to look like their mum!!?
Deelush I've been bragging all the way through chemo that my nails were growing lie mad and were so strong and looked lovely up until 3 weeks ago when I took my gel polish off and realised they're yellow/black and coming away from the nailbed, I cut them short and painted them and am just praying they don't fall off for Christmas. Don't you just love chemo as it keeps on giving months after you've finished.
Good luck everyone having radiotherapy at the moment and just enjoy the half an hour you get to lie down for because I dare say when we're running around like madmen in the run up to Xmas we'll appreciate that half hour. X

[Wendyy]

Normal rads finished today. Now FOUR days without and appointment :-). My 5 boosters are next week. My skin is just showing signs of breaking down so I've collected 4 tubes of Flamazine from the pharmacy today in preparation for what the radiographer says is inevitably going to happen under my boob. 😞 was hoping to wear a bra to go out in this weekend but that is looking unlikely. Running out of baggy shapeless things to wear.

I'll stop moaning now because I've not had to have chemo so have hung on to my hair. You ladies discussing your eventual new colours, my heart goes out to you. xxxxx

[deelush]

My finger nails were actually in better condition whilst i was having chemo than they are now. They were strong and nice and white and grew quick, now they are breaking spliting and back to their old weak rubbish self, only time in my life prior to chemo that i had nice nails was during my two pregnancies, although on both occasions my nails all broke off one week prior to giving birth, yes i am weird lol . 

X x 

[Forties]

Hello

I'm really glad you are both able to laugh about your hair because I'm sure sometimes you'd rather cry.  You are amazingly positive.  I suffered the cold cap and managed to keep a thin covering throughout my chemo although I was hairless everywhere else. A driving force was my daughter, aged 9, who had a birthday inJune and had said to me that I wasn't allowed to her party if I was wearing a wig!  I've now got a double hair do (very weird) with one inch of short curly hair underneath and longer bobbed wispy strands over the top!  My finger and toes nails are shocking too but I can see those beginning to grow out so that's good news.

My rads were bearable today -one week down and 2 to go. I'll get there.

 Thanks for the support everyone.

[deelush]

Cheers sodastream,

mine is actually straight although i wad told it would come back all grey and curly lol, its actually quite dark with lots of grey mixed in, i usually dye it with the henna dyes ftom Lush, they make your hair so soft thick and just so healthy looking, but the henna has a weird smell and when you get warm its really notiaceable, hense the reason why im waiting till aftet rads is finished.  the smell does go after a couple of weeks , ive got a lot more grey in it now than prior to chemo 😞  so thats got to go lol, i finished chemo the begining of september my rads finish on 11th december so a bit more growing to do before then and i might look somewhere near decent for christmas day 😉 . . Take care

Deelush x x

[Sodastream]

Hi Ladies. I'm making the most of my week before I start radiotherapy on Monday. I've started Cheistmas shopping and have most of it done now except the tricky ones. Thinking of playing the radiotherapy card on those ones and telling the family I'm to tired to finish so could they help out LOL.
Forties I'm 44 so understand what you're saying. I'll order that book as it sounds interesting.
Deelush I'm also on a mission to lose some weight. I've managed to lose just over half a stone and have another 10lbs to go but need to lose it before I go back to work in January as I can't do my work trousers up!!!
I finished chemo on 26/8 and couldn't wait to dye my hair as it was grey and curly on top and brown everywhere else. I took the plunge and used a Daniel Field vegetable dye 3 weeks ago (couldn't wait until the recommended 3 months post chemo) and you'll be pleased to hear it covered the grey and really improved the look and condition of it plus made me feel more like a 40 year old than in my 60's. x

[deelush]

Hi Forties,

sorry to hear that is all getting a bit too much for you and i can totally understand what your saying my last rads session will be exactly 10 months from when i had my first breast clinic apointment, i cant believe the year has gone already, but its nearly over now and we can look forward to a prod pock and examine free few months before we go back for check ups, so we'll have to make the most of that free time. Its not a very nice thing to have to go through and my male nurse was in rads again last night but i just keep telling myself if its no big deal to him (and he is quite young) then its no big deal to me, and i get over it that way, it helps that hes very polite and careing too,  i will be building myself and my dog back up to the three mile a day walk that we had just acomplished just prior to diagnosis, once all this treatment is over (we've missed out a lot due to surgery, and chemo etc) and i am really looking forward to that, just wish the hair would grow faster dont want to go out sweating like a pig in my wig, i welcome to cold weather i looovvveee going out walking in the cold weather as i have a tendancy to walk rather quickly and soon warm up. I think the walk to the hospital will do you the power of good and put you in control of your feelings and treatment get some fesh air into your lungs and take each stride with positive force. I am also setting my self a challenge to lose 3 to 3 1/2 stone once i start back out on my walks ( something else that went out the window with diagnosis) so maybe you could set yourself up a little challenge or treat or some kind of goal that you'll promise yourself once rads is over, something to focus on and look forward to.

please take care you can get through this your probably stronger than you think

deelush x x 

p.s. forgot to mention my first goal is to dye my hair once my rads is finished as its about an inch long now (still not long enough to go without wig as my hair was shoulder length before) but  with far too many grey hairs mixed in the with the darkish mousey brown, so thats getting covered a nice autumn chestnut brown. X

[Forties]

HELLO

I've been having really up and down days recently and felt especially low last Fri after lots of alcohol at Kylie!  I talked to my bcn who is great and puts everything into perspective and says its totally understandable to feel angry or anxious about the cancer and also cheesed off with treatments going on for 10 months.  I felt ready to pack in the rads this weekend as I found them impersonal, undignified and tough because you see no positive outcome its all just wait and see if it does't reoccur.  So I've decided to attack them each day by marching to them at top speed to get fresh air and fitness too.  The hos

pital is 3km on a steady downhill and its really helping with my emotions.  I feel that I can do the appts without crying afterwards!

I'm in my forties so wasn't sure where to seek support as I felt a bit past the young cancer groups but I found  a book brilliant as its written by a 39 year old with a young child so I clicked with her on bc.  Its called Silver

 Linings by Hollye Jacobs and although some of her treatments are specifically American, her advice has been great.

Hope you are having some better days this week.

[deelush]

Hi wemblo, yeah any benefit is a benefit worth having no matter how small, i was originally told 15 sessions of rads by a bcn, but when i saw dr she said yes 15 sessions and 8 boosters, i was qute shocked as i wasnt expecting it, and had just got my head around to the idea of travelling back and forth every day for three weeks so the idea of five weeks was a bit daunting, i questioned it and she said we'll do eight boosters because we dont want a reacurrance do we, i said no we dont so i'll take them thank you very much. My general gp who i saw when i was first diagnosed said his wife was 18 years out of breast cancer and doing just fine, and she was treated at the same breast cancer centre as i am under, and his wise words to me were                                                 

"Listen to and be quided by them and take everything they offer you"

something i kept close when treatment was being disgussed and offered,   his words  would pop into my head each time my treatment plan moved on to the next stage so i did as he suggested and accepted all treatments. i did as he advised and i am glad i did because i know that i have been given the best treatment and hope for a good outcome. ive had so far  wle, snb, chemo,  started on tamoxifen and now doing rads,

I'm kicking the pants out of my cancer . .

Deelush x x 

[Wendyy]

Deelush. Pleased you managed to talk to someone and hope it reassures you. I had a painful lump in my armpit last week and was told similar things as you were told. So many changes taking place in your body. Xx

[Wendyy]

Mel51. I couldn't agree more. When my doubts creep in I go back to a copy of a letter sent to my GP, saying this patient has an excellent prognosis. It doesn't always help particularly in the middle of a sleepless night. When discussing with my oncologist today whether or not to have boosters, when she said they would only be a small benefit to me. I therefore decided to go ahead, any benefit however small must be worth it. I want to give myself the best chance of no reoccurrence. We put ourselves in the hands of the professionals and I must say I trust their opinions. I think we a so lucky the advances in treatment from even say 10 years ago. A melt down every now and again is totally understandable, especially to fellow sufferers. Hope you find some way of bouncing back soon xxx

[deelush]

Mel51 i totally get what your saying and its something that i am sure we will all worry about all the time, but we can only hope that it never happens again and that the worry becomes less , its not easy but we have to try and be reassured by what we are told and just prey for the best.  noone can truely understand the thoughts than run amuck in our minds except those of us that are in the same boat so its good to come on here and voice your feelings because we do truely understand how your feeling and why your feeling like that.

I hope you feel a little better now youve vented how youve been feeling. Please take care.

deelush x x

[deelush]

Hi ladies thanks for all the replies,

the nurse had a feel of the lump and said she thinks its just lumpy breast tissue, and said that the radiotheraphy has a way of exaggerating all sorts of things like tissue and nerves and pains that we wouldn't probably notice as it does change the tissue of the breast inside. She  said to see how it goes tonight and tomorrow and if its still painful tomorrow to phone her up and she'll have a word with the dr and see if she wants me to pop in tomorrow as she will be in clinic tomorrow but if i feel ok she said to wait till friday but its my call, unfortunately the dr wasnt there tonight. So i'll see how it goes in the morning.  Thanks for listening and take care everyone. 

Deelush x x

[Mel51]

Deelush - I hope you managed to see someone about the lump and got some answers.
This weekend the uncertainty of the future really hit me. All the way through I've been really positive, but I had doubts this weekend and broke down on Saturday night. I know what the medical staff will tell me - your results were good, you've had the best course of treatment and are in tamoxifen etc but it just feels like at 33 it's bound to come back at some point.ni suppose I had to hit a wall at some point

[Boa]

Hi Deelush
I think that your daughter probably was looking after cigarettes for someone. If no one smokes on the house you would surely have noticed something.

How did you get on at hospital?

Boa

[SML1903]

Hideelush

Sorry to hear of your worry when you found the lump this morning I do hope you manage to see the dr at the hospital tonight.

My son son was caught with ciggerettes in his bag at school and said they were not his and that he was looking after them for someone else. To my horror it turned out that he was smoking but it was around the time my husband had a brain tumour and so I think it was probably stress. ( the tumour was sucessfully removed and turned out to be benign. A very stressful time as my husband was not aware anything was wrong but that 's another story) None of us smoke and eventually he did give up. I agree though there is nothing worse than being in close proximity to someone who has been smoking and their clothes smell and their breath. Like you say the hospital needs to be more strict. I always remember when I was training being told not to wear certain perfumes as they made patients feel sick but no mention of cigerettes so may be it should be mentioned when nurses and other medical staff are training.

Good luck with your appointment today. SML xx

[deelush]

Her explanation was, they have been in there for months someone asked me to put them in my bag for them last time i went out and theyve been in there since,  i must admit i have never smelt smoke on her or her clothes and as no one in this house smokes im prerty sure it woild be noticable, i have given her the benefit of doubt on this occassion.

i think i would have to say something if the person treating me stank of smoke, its not very nice and quite insensitive, if people want to smoke thats their choice, but they should be a bit more strict about it when it comes to dealing in close contact with cancer patients. Im afraid i would have made a very polite complaint.

deelush x x 

[Forties]

Hello

You are taking positive action about your pain straightaway so that should make you feel better about yourself.  I hope the hospital are able to give you direct and helpful answers to your queries.  Also hope your daughter doesn't disappoint you with her explanation.  She might be having them as a stress buster over what you are going through.

I was treated and drawn on today by a male radiographer reeking of smoke and I was thinking " Why hasn't it put him off when he sees all these patients with cancers etc?"

Hope todays appts went well.

[deelush]

Thanks ladies ,

my hubby is finishing early today so he's going to come with me and we are going a little earlier, i know the dr has evening surgeries on a monday and tuesday because thats when she sees patients for the first time to do consent forms etc so i beleive she will be there until half six, i dont mind waiting if she can fit me in, unless the treating nursese can offer any reassurance before hand.

and my day went from bad to worse as ive found cigarettes in my daughters work bag, to say im devastated is an under statement, i was looking for her name badge for work because she couldnt find it this morning thinking id do a good deed and take it in for her (its a big deal if they dont wear them) and thats when i found the cigarettes now obviuosly i am going to give her the benefit of doubt first and i am totally shocked but i cant beleive after all ive been going through these last nine months that ive discovered them in her bag, please let there be an acceptable excuse. . . . 😞

Deelush

[Wendyy]

Hi Deelush

Just back from no 14 of 15 and an appt with my oncologist. I always come away from seeing her so much more relaxed. Why not give the department a call and tell them of your worries they might be able to fit you in for a chat. Derby where I go seem very accommodating. Hope you get some reassurance. This disease certainly plays tricks on the brain.

[Boa]

Hi Deelush

Hope the day begins to go a bit better for you. I am off in a moment for my treatment. 

Hope everyone has a good day.

Boa

[Forties]

Hello

Sorry to hear you are having a rubbish morning.  The wait for your appt and the chance to ask some advice will feel a long one too with a 5pm appt.  I'd go in a bit earlier to see if they can give advice or perhaps ring the dept and ask if you could see the Dr.  I have some stinging in the breast being treated now, I asked about it and was told that it was normal and to take paracetamol for pain.  Its not that bad yet......

Hope all appts go on time today.

[deelush]

Not having a very good start to the day so far....

Woke up with pain in my chest this morning. 😞

Its the side i am having treatment on but not in the area where my tumour was , its the opposite side near to the middle towards the bottom of my boob, top of my ribs so to speak, and i can feel a lump, not sure whats going on there but i dont like it. My appointment today is at 5.05 pm, so there might be a chance that the dr will still be there so going to ask the staff about it and maybe they will get the dr to come round and check it, or at least be able to explain to me whats going on. Not a happy bunny this morning, took my daughter to work and had a run in with a lorry driver because apparently i shouldnt have gone across the lights on green, lol long story but i told him ever so nicely (not) where to go, and then nearly had the fromt of my car took off by some bloke who was in the lane to go straight across the island but decided to turn left across the front of me i was in the other lane to go straight across, he wanted to turn left, what an idiot, needless to say i woke everyone up wih my car horn and sign language if you catch my drift, anyways I'm home again now having a nice cup of tea.  rant over and breath . . . . 

Hope your all doing ok

deelush x x 

[Boa]

Back into the routine today. Team was running a bit late but no problem. Just gave extra time to talk to the others waiting.

[Daltocat74]

Hi all. I hope today's been kind to you. I had session 9 today and tomorrow I'll be just over the halfway mark. Hurrah! Skin a little pink and feels warm in the evening but so far so good. I'd expected something more severe at this stage just because I burn easily so I'm happily surprised. One of the radiotherapy team said that effects often start to build at the end of week two so time will tell but so far so good! X

[deelush]

Morning ladies,

hope you all had a good weekend, and managed to recharge your batteries

Ive got evening appoitments again this week earliest one is friday at three, then apparently straight round to see the dr after that one so she can check see how im doing, 

 hope that isnt going to be a long wait especially on a friday, traffic will be crazy.hope your all doing ok

take care deelush x x 

[Forties]

Hello

Thanks for the baby wipe advice - I got some over the weekend to remove the felt tip scribble straight after each rads treatment.  I hope to feel less like a whiteboard today on leaving the hospital!

Take care everyone.

[Wendyy]

Hi Positive thinker and ladies.

Your comment about no chemo struck a chord with me. I'm loosing count of the number of people who've told me how lucky I am to have avoided chemo which I can't help but agree with. But seriously I can't say I feel lucky getting this dreadful disease. I'm sure people just really don't know what to say and are well meaning. It's nice to come on here to share with like minded people.

[Boa]

Hi Positive Thinker

My appointment is at 12.40. I have found out by chatting to others who are waiting that the appointments in the middle of the day are given to those who have to travel a bit further so they dont get caught up in early morning traffic or the going home rush hour. I am a little tired and had to leave an evening function early on Friday as I was so tired but it might have been that I was up at 5.30am and the room in the evening was very, very hot.

I sterted taking letrozole in July and was bombarded with hot flushes but I'm please to say it has settled down!

Boa

[positivethinker]

Hello ladies

Isn't it lovely to have a couple of days off all the travelling and being zapped. I've just finished week 1 of 3.

We have all got to the radiotherapy treatment via different routes - I'm lucky I've avoided the chemo but my friends do seem to think that because I've avoided it the radiotherapy will be easy.  Well it's not is it!!!!  Hours of travelling for ten minutes' zapping.  And the knowledge that whatever you have planned for the day you still have to add the extra travelling time to get to your appointment.  Then there's the tiredness that is starting to creep in.  I purposely booked my zapping for the end of the day so I could come home and put on my PJ's and flop and that's what I'm finding I need to do.  The left boob is getting a bit prickly and my armpit feels a bit tighter and I do find myself looking to see if there's any physical difference - so far none. 

I hope you all have a safe week and are gentle on yourselves.

Hot flush coming so must sign off quick

xxx

[Forties]

HELLO

Hope you all enjoy your weekends away from hospital!  I'm so glad I'm not there for a couple of days as I 'm finding the treatment psychologically tough. I get different male and female staff everyday and the treatment room changes too.  I also want my body to be free of intervention.  

I am trying to take my mind off it all by heading to the gym and focussing on getting back my fitness and losing all the extra kilos piled on with chemo.  I have to remember that swimming is not allowed though.

Hope everyone's skin stays calm into next week.

Take care everyone.

[deelush]

4 down 🙂   19 to go 😞     

have a lovely weekend everyone 

deelush x x 

[Boa]

Hi Deelush and everyone. That's five down and 10 to go. The male student is going back to his uni course next week. Yes, I get drawn on as well. Hope everyone has a good weekend.
Boa

[deelush]

Fantastic news. X x

[SML1903]

Hi deelush, forties and everyone.

Good news. My bcn got it slightly wrong or as she said she didn't express it very well in her text. I never did have cancer in the nodes in my clavicle area just the nodes under my arm which were all removed. The oncologist just wanted to give me the best chance by giving me radiotherapy in my clavicle area as a preventive. I feel so much better about it all now. Thank you everyone for your support.

SML xx

[Wendyy]

Rads done first thing today. Now time for our weekend off for good behaviour. I don't intend to be good!! I'm going to abandon the ibuprofen,it's not helping, and try a glass of wine or 3. Might help lift the mood as well. Son who lives away, it's his birthday tomorrow so he's coming over to stay for the week and we are going out for a meal. Might try wearing a bra! The best news for me this week.....I've got tickets for Take That next year. I'll grow up one day. The oldest Thatter in town. Hope we can all recharge our batteries ready for another week. Thank you for reading my ramblings xxx

[deelush]

Hi ladies,

glad you both had a good time last night with the lovely Kylie. Glad your zaps are going well. And yes  Forties i get a new set of bright purple ink marks on me every day, i have a packet of wipes in my hand bag and as soon as i get back into the changing room i wipe it off , well as much as i can manage, stubborn stuff, it does come off in the shower though with the simple soap. off for my fourth zap at 16.15 today then we all get the weekend off for good behaviour.

oh and Boa i had a young male nurse in for my session yestersay, he was very pleasent , i just lay down and let them do their stuff not worth getting flustered or embarrassed about, bet he has seen plenty over the day and i was the last one in last night so didnt let it bother me, thats not to say that i wouldnt rather have just ladies because beleive me i would, but i reckon there are more men that have seen my boobs over the last 9 months than in my entire life lol .

take care

deelush x x 

[Mel51]

Well ladies,
Kylie was her fabulous self and I thoroughly enjoyed the evening! Forties - I too wore a bra and had a couple of drinks! Well, it's Kylie isn't it?!
On day 10 today and skin seems fine apart from a breakout of red spots which is apparently due to the Diprobase blocking my pores. I need to put a thinner layer on - easier said than done! It's like trying to spread treacle!
Well, it's another miserable day here so at least I'm not missing out on the beautiful weather! Off to the gym now to try and fight the chemo bulge.
Have a good day,
Mel51

[Forties]

Hello

Its great to hear from more rads patients and hear everyones experiences and be able to support each other.    I'm finding that although friends and family were very sympathetic with chemo and its side effects and they could understand surgery and the recovery time, I think they too have become tired of it all.  They also have the perception that rads is a breeze but they forget its coming at the end of a very long time as a patient and that being in hospital environments all this time is tough.  I'm feeling happier today after the brilliant Kylie concert last night.  I forgot all about my cancer for the evening and just had fun.

Ready for my 3rd rads today and another round of felt tip pens!  Anyone else get redrawn on each day?

Take care everyone.

[deelush]

Hi Wemblo, welcome to the november rads club.

sorry to hear your suffering but hopefully youll get that sorted soon. Dont apologise its what we are all here for. Good to hear that your skin is holding up well at least thars one massive plus, but If things do get you down too much maybe you could phone the number on this site and have a chat with them, it may help.

take care

deelush x x 

[Wendyy]

Hi Ladies
Can I gate crash the party? I've had 11 of my 15 planned treatments. Nearly there. Skin fine but fatigue and mood beginning to take it's toll. Hubby has been a wonderful support but I think his patience is wearing thin just as I need it most. I have a very painful lump under my arm which seems to be dividing opinion from take ibuprofen to it could be an infection. I think this is not helping my mood. Also I've been pencilled in for 5 boosters but will not find out defiantly if I'm having them until day 14. I think the uncertainty is playing on my mind too. Sorry to introduce myself with such a negative post. I'm sure I'll bounce back again soon.

[deelush]

3 down 20 to go x x

[deelush]

Hi positivethinker,

oops about the missed zap, but altleast they are putting it right. I actually find the waiting area in the hospital that hot, that I'm glad to get into the actually treatment room to cool dowm, i wouldn't say it was cold in there though just cooler,. I was advised no deodorant at all under that arm during treatment and for three weeks after and then to use none perfumed after that for a while, and although i can see what you mean about being a bit whiffy i have actually found that iI'm not really sweaty under my arm as i thought i would be, i did tell my family that they wouldnt want to be my friend for the for coming weeks lol but all seems well, could be the simple soap im using ? ?  Who knows. As each hospital seems to have their own guidelines though i think you should ask your treating staff about this. I tend to use a lot of simple products anyway as i am allergic to most fragrances and so it was no biggy for me to do so.

take care 

deelush x x 

[positivethinker]

Hi ladies,

Firstly thank you for welcoming me into the November Rads Group.

I think the common nuisance for all of us (apart from the obvious) is the travel and waiting time for a relatively short period of time to be zapped.  My team at Guildford Royal Surrey Hospital are lovely and all the radiographers are incredibly kind and helpful.  That said, they omitted to give me the booster zap on Monday so I had to meet with the Dr on Tuesday to have that explained.  This meant a long appointment time, but they are back on track and will have to give me a single booster on 1st December.  I'm on a trial for both doses to be administered at the same time, so they have to refer back to those in charge of the trial to see what to do. 

The treatment room is cold so I do take a small fleecy blanket with me and this has proved to be a very good idea - thanks to whoever suggested it.  I can be covered up almost to under by breasts and it just keeps me warm and I have something familiar with me - literally my "comfort blanket".  

The whole process of lying there on the bed and being measured and lined up then having the machines whirring round and doing their stuff does bring it home that I have to have this treatment to get rid of the chance of recurrence so I take this as a positive. 

Does anyone have a good aluminium free deodorant to recommend as I hate the idea of smelly armpits!!

Keep positive ladies - and keep in touch

Gentle hugs,   Diane xx

[deelush]

Enjoy Kylie ladies , , ,
deelush x x

[Forties]

Hello

You must live somewhere near me as I'm going to see Kylie tonight too!  When I booked the tickets back in April I thought I'd be all finished with treatments and celebrating the end with friends but delays post surgery have happened along the way to change this!  However I probably feel more energetic now than I will in 3 weeks time anyhow so I'm digging out the sparkle, wearing a bra for tonight only and having a few drinks!

I hope our rads today go smoothly so we can enjoy the concert.  Apart from a sore arm and shoulder I've had no effects from my first treatment.

[deelush]

Ha ha i drove straight into a parking space yesterday, literally though the barrier and directly into a space, couldnt believe my luck, today will probably prove otherwise lol.
good luck to all today with rads,
deelush x x