tubular cancer stage 1 with low grade DCIS

[Jobey68]

Hi Katielou,

It's a total roller coaster of emotions and although on the outside I appear to be normal Im. A wreck with it all on the inside, my husband and a few close friends are the only ones who know how I truly feel and are being an amazing support to me, I just wish I could get to grips with it and carry on with life and deal with it, Im having a lumpectomy this Friday which Im terrified of and just want it all to be over and get the final results in and get on with my life,it's so hard to remain upbeat when you don't really know what's going to happen, life was going along so smoothly and then this bomb gets dropped in to the middle of it and I don't even know how to beging to deal with it but I know it has to be one step at a time, Im sure I feel better once I know what's hapoening for certain, you sound like you are dealimg with things far better than me and I wish you every luck with what's to come,please keep in touch, love Jo xx

[Katielou2]

Hi, I am also recently diagnosed and have found reading copies of letters sent to GP make me feel so sick/panicked/hyperventilate/terrified. I think I am still in denial and seeing it in print makes it all too real! I resolve not to read the next one until I'm feeling stronger but then it drops through the door and I open it. At this stage I just feel I need to do as advised by team - not looking for too much information, trust they know what they're doing. I have started treatment with Zoladex and letrozole to reduce tumour prior to surgery - I have not experienced any side effects which adds to the feeling of unreality, life is carrying on as usual on one level and yet everything has changed. Most days I feel fine but I have had several meltdowns in this past week. I am keen to get on with what I perceive to be more active treatment - feeling in limbo at the moment.
I hope your treatment plan will help you come to terms with your situation, just take it step by step.

[Jobey68]

Have received copy of letter sent to Dr today which describes what my biopsy has found, it all sounds so all awful when you see it in print and I'm really struggling to cope today, would really appreciate some much valued support from all you lovely ladies going through the same emotions right now xx