Of course nobody minds you joining in! You are not alone. We have all felt like you are feeling at the moment. We all understand what a very scary time this is for you. Most people feel "dazed" and "in shock at the beginning of all this, it is understandable. I felt as though I must be having a bad dream and would soon wake up. I felt like crying and my heart was beating like a sledgehammer. It is nerve-wracking having to wait, I think it is mainly fear of the unknown. You wonder if you should tell people, how much to tell, who to tell, what to tell, when to tell etcetera. I expect your mind will be racing with a hundred different thoughts but I am sure you will feel calmer once you have discussed things with your medical team and you will receive lots of help both at the hospital and on this website. To answer your question yes I was shown my ultrasound. I am a year further down the 'cancer road'. I have had the whole works - a biopsy, a lumpectomy, chemotherapy and radiotherapy - and guess what, I am still here to tell the tale, still making a damn nuisance of myself and as you can see smiley happy . I am doing okay, in fact I am more than okay, in fact I feel flippin fantastic so you see there is hope! This website is such a blessing, as you will find. Best practical advice I can give you - take one step at a time. Love and best wishes xxx
Waiting for results is a really difficult time. The thread you've posted on hasn't been active for a while so I wondered if more people might see your post if you begin a new thread. I hope other members will then see it and come along to offer some support.
Very best wishes
Know what you mean - had my diagnosis today & actually feel much better! At least once you know what you're dealing with your mind stops working overtime about what it might be! Glad you're feeling ok x
I also went on my own, by choice. Husband wasn't happy at all, but I was stubborn & probably completely unreasonable! I just thought that I would cope better on my own, particularly if I needed a biopsy, and to be honest I think I did. I think I would have been more scared if he'd been there, because I could! I did say that I would take him in future and I will definitely need him there on results day. He's struggled to understand why I didn't want him there at the first appointment, but it wasn't that I didn't want him in particular, I just didn't want anyone to whom I was emotionally attached.
So sorry you find yourself on this site. The waiting is really the worst part. We have all been through it no matter our age or circumstances it feels the same. It is hard not to 'fill the gaps' or 'join the dots'. I was only recounting to my OH this evening that the worst, very worst, was when I attended the first appointment on my own which included examination, mammogram, US and biopsies on my own as I was confident that nothing was amiss to see clearly after mammogram and in US room that all was not OK... I cant change that appt or feeling but I can deal with all that has come since. I now feel, after bi lateral surgery, having also declined chemo (long story) and about to start radiotherapy and hormone treatment that I am in control at this very moment. And all we can do is live in the moment.
I so wish you all the best and please feel free to ask anything or PM if you wish.