I’m sorry to read that you are having a worrying time at the moment. I’m sure the users of this site will be along to support you soon.
In the meantime it might be helpful to talk this through with a member of our helpline staff who are there to offer emotional support as well as practical information. The free phone number is 0808 800 6000 and the lines are open Monday to Friday 9.00 to 5.00 and Saturday 10.00 to 2.00.
Best wishes Sam, BCC Facilitator