Thank you for your message. I was fortunate that my results showed low risk of recurrence & so chemo would not be beneficial. Relieved to get a clear cut result but shattered now. Notched up a number of sleepless nights this past week.
I am sorry to hear you will go through chemo, but I would be thinking the same as you. If it is beneficial & recommended then I would do it too. I want to do everything I can to never have to go through breast cancer again.
Been ploughing through the radiotherapy & tamoxifen booklets (been prescribed that today). None of this is easy but all we can hope is to make it out the other side & carry on with life.
Fingers crossed your side effects from chemo will be manageable. Big hugs to you & all best wishes for your next stage of treatment. I am sure there will be plenty of people on the forum who can help you by sharing their experiences xx
How did your appointment go today? Hope results were good for you.
Had my appointment today, think I will be going ahead with chemo as preventative treatment. It’s a very individual choice but I know the way my mind works and if I didn’t do it I would blame myself if it did reoccur…..it would be once a week for up to 12 weeks, so the ball has been set in motion but I still have time to reconsider if I choose to….it’s certainly not an easy decision that’s for sure! The one thing we all want is to give ourselves the best possible outcome and if the oncologist thinks this is best for me then maybe it’s best to follow that advice.
hugs to you xx
Just wanted to say hi AnnieV, breast cancer can be a bit lonely at times but that’s where we come in and show you that you’re not alone. It’s hard to not look at everything through a cancer lens once you have cancer, I mean, why wouldn’t you? Those around you probably want to support you but often don’t know what to say or do and don’t really understand how much your life feels altered when, as you say, you still look so healthy. If you need chemo then just take it a step at a time. Chemo takes over your calendar quite a bit. I had 8 rounds in 2017 after stage 3 diagnosis and still here and doing well. Let us know how you’re getting on and feel free to ask any questions. X
I am sorry your day was not as hoped. From my experience I have found some people seem to think once the surgery is done the cancer is gone and life returns to normal. Some have no concept of the emotional trauma of a diagnosis and also the physical pain and discomfort of the surgery. TBH this is what I thought - and after hearing such success rates and getting the cancer when young and all the amazing medicine there is now, people cling onto this. Those who are close to me and my immediate support network I have been completely honest in my 'education' to them on what each step could mean, good and bad. This works for me - as the saying goes a pessimist is never disappointed. Also with them knowing so much they can support me better and know the pain I am feeling with each step - I really feel they are on this journey with me. We are completely open and honest with each other, but we always remain positive, we are not moaning minnies. They will ask questions about each step, which makes it so much easier for me to digest what I have been told. It is such a huge topic, and I am learning so much as I go-along, and certainly not a 'qualification any of us want to get a distinction in, but it helps me get my head around it all. This is a BIG deal, not everyone gets it, but those who are important to me do and that is all I need.
This is YOUR journey, don't let anyone else belittle how you feel or your handling of it, surround yourself with strength and as Frank would say 'do it your way'
thank you 🙏 I have my appointment on Wednesday also & will be wishing you all the best for yours. I hope clarity comes both our ways xx big hugs xx
I’m in the similar situation to you as regards the possibility of chemo, as you say it comes as a shock because everything after mastectomy was clear but because of high oncotype score chemo is suddenly thrown into the mix. I’m driving myself crazy trying to weigh up the pros and cons…..my thoughts change by the hour! I have appointment with oncologist on Wednesday to go through it all and try and get some clarity, but, because at the end of the day it will be my decision I feel totally lost and confused.
I think some people do look at you and can only see a person who looks fit and well so really can’t comprehend what you are dealing with. I must admit I think I have removed myself from having to deal with too many people, maybe becoming a bit antisocial, but I really can’t cope with ‘pretending’ that all’s fine when my mind is in total turmoil.
Fingers crossed you will not have to deal with chemo and the outcome of your appointment next week is not as bad as you are imagining.
Sending good wishes and hug x
@AnnieV I'm so sorry about how disappointing your day has been. I think many people have very little understanding of cancer and cancer treatments. I know I've had to educate some of my family about the different symptoms and drugs etc. People react differently to this.
Ive had people looking at me with pity, other people haven't text or rung me for weeks. Some people are totally wrapped up in their own lives too.
It's been nearly 5 weeks since my surgery and I am having my follow up appointment next week, so a long wait. A couple of weeks ago I was told that further testing was to be done on my tumour to work out if I would benefit from chemo (so that came as a bit of a shock). I have been on a real downer this week and scaring myself with worries about survival rates and stories of people whose cancer came back after many years. So I was looking forward to today to see my family for the first time since diagnosis and to lay flowers on my mum's grave, my first visit there since her funeral in Feb 2020. However during the day no one talked to me about what I was going through - like a big elephant in the room. Perhaps they don't know what to say? My sister-in-law looked at me in disbelief when I said I don't drink anymore and when I declined processed meat topping on my pizza. My brother asked if we had been on holiday and we reminded him that we had to cancel (small matter of surgery to deal with) and he thought at first it was because of Covid (he was surprised that we got insurance for a full refund) and I had to say it wasn't because of Covid we cancelled! The parting shot was when my sister-in-law said, that they could perhaps come to us next time and I had to say I might be clinically vulnerable so could be tricky to plan anything now. My husband then had to explain to her why that might be the case if I need chemo etc.
Am I being oversensitive because I am viewing everything through a cancer lens and others aren't? I look perfectly fit and healthy so maybe it is hard to believe what I am dealing with. I am sort of going out my mind as I am on brink of finding out if I need chemo or not and cannot begin to think of how to fit that in with everyday life. At least my kids were reasonably behaved today and that is unpredictable - my older one has OCD (for a number of years) and was diagnosed ASD a week after my diagnosis. It's all too much and I feel a little bit abandoned.