Helena - You're used to us on the "Progesterone and Fluffy" thread of recent. The gals on here are equally as wonderful, I assure you. We've shared so much nasty nitty gritty but oh, also so much joy and laffs as well.
Much love to all my buds here
DellyDingDong xxxxxxxx Have a fab Christmas everyone xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yey, Peggy, Jill and Clair,
What a loooong slog you've all had. I sincerely hope that's the end of any further treatments and may you forever remain "CLEAR".
Doc, very sympathetic this morning and sending me to see a "Head" Doctor, in other words Psychiatric Evaluation. Thinks, like myself, I'm Bi-Polar. I think my brother was also. Anyway, at least I've got the ball rolling. Off to a Bi-P support group tonight here in Macc, just to see / suss it out, and in case it is as thought.
Have also to go for cataract op in the New Year - no wonder I was struggling to read posts on here !! Falling to bits ladies.
Enjoy yourselves and take care,
Hi Ruth, Delly, Jill and everyone else who was on this thread,
Well, what a a difference a year makes! This time last year I had just had mx number two and chemo was starting in Jsnuary. It was one hell f a challenging time. Now, we've just moved house, I'm back at work, I have a lovely new horse and life is good.
I still find it hard to think about it all and I hope to god that's it and I can get on with living agsin.This forum really helped me get through it and was a huge source of support.
A happy (and healthy) Christmas to all!!
Hello all you Lovelies from me too,
Good to see and hear you Peggycat.
Hope everyone is well and doing ok.
I'm off to the Docs in the morning. Something happened recently that finally made me decide to seek some help for my head, depression etc. I've been resisting, kicking and screaming against, thinking I can sort it myself. Don't want to get into Antidepressants as they tend to make me a bit vacant/vacuous, but I've spent faaar too many days under the duvet, unable to function and wasting/wishing my life and time away. See what it brings. Am going armed with a list so that I can remember all points. Plus also ask to be rereferred back to get back on the recon horse - at least get that finished off.
Just wanted to send my Happy Christmas and Good Wishes for a Happier and Healthy New Year to you all.
I've been a bit absent from this site recently due to family issues but thought it was about time this thread was reignited for Christmas and wanted to wish you all well. Sending everyone best wishes and the hope that 2017 is going to be a very happy one for us all.
My dear Clairebee
Yeh, I so get what you mean. It's a massive physical and mental trauma to go through for anyone, that's bound to resurface at times. We just have to learn to try to put it to the back of our minds and move on as best we can, but be aware and vigilant should anything untoward/abnormal crop up and then deal with that THEN. Easier said than done.
Thanks ref my loss of Chloe. Being a single person, without any family, she was all I had left, and that much more of a loss. 21yrs. Desperately miss her, but I'm not in a good state mentally to take another on, as much as I'd love to. Don't feel it would be fair. Altho I also wonder if I did, it might boost me up a bit. Chloe was easy being an elderly lady, didn't want to venture very far and slept for most of the day. But was still company tho' she was sleeping in her bed in front of me. See how it goes.
Love to everybody xxxx
So nice to see some old friends popping up on here. I did wonder if anyone would post when I revived the thread!
Ruth, Amanda, Delly and Tina, lovely to hear from you. I'm so sorry to hear about your cat Delly. Pets are so important aren't they and its so hard when they die. Will you get another cat?
Tina, I'm just so sorry to hear you are off work and struggling. Haven't you been through enough without people making things difficult for you. I hope you rest up and get stronger. Cancer is about so much more than surgery and treatment and the long term psychological effects should not be underestimated. I feel pretty good right now, but there are days when the fear of recurrence and realization of what I've been through hit me hard.
i hope everyone else is doing well. Thank goodness we have this forum to dip into when we need it.
lots of love,
'Ello dear friend
I didn't know you had issues with your ovaries. What have they been injecting you wit?. So are you saying you would prefer to just get rid of them?? If so, tell them that at your apptment.
With ref the other matter. I don't ever use Facebook. I avoid it like the plague, as I've heard so many people have personal probs/upsets with. I'm so sorry YOU have had personal probs with. Suggest you gather everyone together (is this at school?) and make your explanations and/or apologies for any misunderstandings. Literally kick it in the Goolies, i.e. sort. Or if you can't get them together, print a letter out to give to them, also explaining you're still recovering from the vagaries of your BC trauma and treatment during the last year Then don't use Facebook again. There really is no need for it? At least with emails they're "private". Faaar too much personal stuff gets put on-line these days for all and sundry to see/view. My attitude is, the less personal info/details I have on-line - the better.
You do not want this on top when you're desperately trying to get back in the saddle on track again.
Hope you somehow get it sorted soon.
Loadsa love Dellywellydingdong xxx
Oh Delly I have missed you! ☺️
No hun, no complications just the dates doing round and trying not to think...... this time last year......blah blah....... I've apt to discuss removal of ovaries as being at higher risk as mine was hormone receptive! I'm having monthly injections to suppress them so asked why aren't they being whipped out? I'm 50, baby days are done and figure while they're still in me I'm at risk regardless if they're working it not!?!?
Oh guys, it's a long stupid story. But, I returned to work beginning of term 5 was ago. All going well then BAM! A colleague has stirred the **bleep** accusing me of posting an inappropriate post on my private FB page....... Long story short, she's not a friend of mine on FB, however it's come to light that a so called mutual friend has been showing her my posts for the past year! And 'she's angry and upset by them'....... but clearly couldn't confront me as SHE SHOULDNT HAVE SEEN THEM!!!
Few weeks ago, on my way to work, I went via garage for petrol and had a near miss with another car! bloody idiot who nearly hit me at a roundabout.... my right of way!! That same day a friend posted a funny pic and i shared it!
It was a picture of BooBoo bear saying, 'Every day I arrive at work with good intentions and a great attitude......... then idiots happen.' It was meant as a joke, trying to chill about incident and about me arriving/driving to work encountering idiots on road!!!! This colleague took offence, and for over a week has nipped at me, glared, ignored me in conversations or in passing and has bad mouthed me to rest of staff about my thinking they're idiots.
All this unrest and bad feeling (as I was under confident returning to work facing new members of staff that started as I went off sick) has taken its toll on my emotional state. I collapsed Tuesday, passed out. Dr said due to anxiety and mind and body now dealing with everything that I've been through on reflection now treatment finished.
So....,.. off again till after the tattie hols. Angry that 'they' will think it's a sign of my guilt? Weakness etc...... but I refuse to be bullied! Xxx
Oh Tina darlin,
What the flip is all that about - you collapsing etc. And WHY couldn't you face you're yearly diag?? Are you saying you've had further complications? as you mentioned ovaries?? And what's all this about being "Victimised" by another member of staff?? What's goin on? Please do let us know if you feel able to.
Hey - We'll gang up and come sort her or him out if you like flower. Won't we girls??!
Thats fandabidozee news ClaireCs66.
How lovely to hear from you and everyone else again.
Peggycat Ruth and I had recent contact through email, when I was desperately sad to have to have had my cat put to sleep. Needed some contact with and support from a fellow cat woman/lover.Thanks Ruthy - meant a great deal.
A-Faed - Glad you've been doing so well and good luck with the op in November. Let us know how you do.
Lovely to see you again Marydan. Your 1/2 way through. Keep kicking at it
Lotsa of love to all Dellywelly xxx
Hi everyone!!!! Yeah good to hear from all the 2015'ers!!
I'm afraid I've been away from the posts though have read some through notifications. Finished active treatment in June and I thank you all from the bottom if my heart for the support and love I've received through this thread and forum. But I had to take a step back as I neared the yearly anniversary of diagnosis in August I couldn't face it.
Im coping on my medication and have apt next week with gynae consultant. My plastics consultant says to let him know when I want to go for reduction non surgical side but need decide on ovaries first.
Sadly im signed off again through anxiety and stress. Encountered a nasty member of staff who's knocked me off my feet and I'm feeling victimised by her and another. Collapsed Tuesday morning in work and GP without hesitation signed me off straight away. On plus side I've just come in from a nice tea out with group of girls I'm close to from my McMillan group. Xx
aside from this blip, I'm doing well...... be relieved to get first mammogram check up done end next month!! Xxx
Hooray, great to see this thread revived. So nice to see people diagnosed in 2015 doing so well. Who would have thought this time last year we'd be this positive!
Sending hugs to all.
Hi Claire, glad you're feeling so positive, we have all been through a lot in the last year or so! Life is almost back to normal for me too, got a hysterectomy due in late November, so not quite done with hospitals yet!
It it would be nice to hear how everyone is doing now xx
Hello everyone, I thought I would resurrect Jill's thread as it a year tomorrow since I was first diagnosed and all the lovely people here really helped me get through those first hideous days when I was coming to terms with all that I would have to face.
i am pleased to say that I am really well now. I am keeping everything crossed it stays that way! I am back at work, my family are happy and I Hav just bought a new horse. A year ago I could never have Imagined getting to where I am now!
It was a long hard journey with lots of bumps in the road, two mxs, chemo, cold cap rads and tamoxifen but life is good!! I appreciate every single day now! Out of bad comes good and I think I am a nicer person now who will never take anything for granted again!
thank you everyone on this thread who gave me such support during te early days.
I hope everyone us doing well and enjoying life,
Hi Rosebud, I understand how you feel. My daughter is 14 and was really sweet with me during the weeks I was awaiting results and surgery but now I am 'better', life goes on as normal for teenagers! I also sometimes feel like you, in that I have often felt the urge since my mastectomy and immediate reconstruction to hide away on isolation island! x
Thanks Sue. I am having awful mood swings. I have just ranted at my 15 year old as she wouldn't go into the shop to get bread so I could avoid a nosy work colleague who was just going in. I know it's not her fault but it doesn't bode well as she is a typical selfish teen so I think we have more rows to come. I should be on a high as I have just been told my LNB was negative but I seem to be having the opposite reaction. My daughter has her prom tomorrow and we go on a long planned holiday the following day but I just feel like crawling into bed and hibernating x
Hi Claire. Thank you for your welcome. I am booked for mastectomy and reconstruction with expander on 29th July. I was told that I could probably have had a lumpectomy but due to the size and position I would probably lose the nipple and have to have some jigging about of the breast tissue to fill the gap. Either way I need a mastoplexy on the other side as I have marked ptosis (droop) as my surgeon pointed out.
Apparently my breasts are dense and it has taken mammogram, mri, ultrasound, biopsy, another ultrasound with markers and another mammogram to determine what is going on so follow up would be tricky. I am just thankful that I found the lump as otherwise it would have been missed x
Welcome to this most amazing forum, where we can rant, rave, cry, laugh and support each other.
How far have you got with your diagnosis - biopsy results yet?
We are all here to help and support, as and when you need it.
I'm glad you've fond us rosebud! There's a huge amount of support here and it will help you through.
its a tough ride but you will get through it and will find strength and reserves you never thought you had. Have you got a treatment plan yet?
love and hugs
Thank you all so much for the reassurance, it has helped me to calm down. I've found these forums so helpful right from when I waiting for my initial referral to the breast clinic.
a friend has just been round to bring me chocolate which always helps!
I really do appreciate the support on here from people who obviously have their own struggles that they are dealing with and yet take the time to respond to help others.
i just wanted to add to the words of reassurance. I had one hell of a waiting game before my final diagnosis. What started as one small tumour ended up as three 12mm, 16mm and 23mm. The third and biggest one had not shown up in any scans, mammogram or ultrasound as I has such dense breast tissue. I think even the doctors were surprised! I was devasated as the full picture emerged, but it didn't change my prognosis and I wouldn't even have had to have chemo if my lymph nodes had been clear. It was all grade 2 er+ her-.
I finished chemo 8 weeks ago and rads last Friday. I'm back at work and go on holiday to Italy next week. When I was at your stage in the journey I couldn't imagine feeling as I do now. I feel well and positive.
hang on in there, it will get easier and there are lots of lovely ladies here to hold your virtual hand.
love and hugs
Your thoughts and worries are so understandable. I had the same ones - I could not even feel my lump, they discovered it on a routine mammogram. Even the surgeon had real problems feeling it - as the acual 'lump' was about 20mm and right behind my nipple.
I hope you regain your confidence in the many people involved in your treatment plan. You may be working with different teams. The only 'constant' I have is my Breast Cancer Care nurse. First the surgeon's team, then the oncologist team, then the chemo team and eventually the radiology team.
Once you have had your operation and the pathology results - a treatment plan will be put into place - and you are very much part of that. No decision will be made without you. So you will be in more control, as you move through the relevant processes.
The NHS really is absolutely fabulous in ensuring we have the best treatment for our individual diagnosis possible.They work to strict guidelines, to ensure we all have the best possible outcome. I am so sorry that you have not been able to experience this in your early stages of diagnosis. My guess is that the strains and stresses vary in different NHS areas.
Enjoy your next two weeks - it is good to take your mind of it all.
Thank you for all the helpful replies. It's just set my brain off again on a 'how long as it been there before I noticed' and 'where else has it spread to in the meantime'. Am trying to organise lots of things for the next 2 weeks to try and keep myself busy and occupied with other/nice things.
thinks it's knocked my confidence in the staff too as its changed from 2.1 to 3.8 depending on which bit of paperwork you're looking at it even though all relates to the same tests!
I so agree with you - I also think the waiting is the worst thing. When results change, as they do for some of us - it is especially stressful. Everytime, when we have just come to terms with one blow - another follows.
I started with 20mm, which increased to 30mm and after op 110mm - from Grade 2 to Grade 3.
Rolling with the punches - knowing it was out was fabulous! No more there - and now the adjuvant treatment to ensure the b.. does not come back.
Although it appears to be frighteningti have such an increase in size (was due to the type of cancer it was - lobular invasive) it did not make much difference to my prognosis - it is good. So I put all my worries aside and am concentrating on 'sailing' through chemo and the following rads.
Thankfully I have work to keep me focussed, which is absolutely great.
Try not to stress yourself too much. My lump started at 9mm on ultrasound, became 1.3cm on mri and was actually 2cm when removed. As Charys says, until it is removed they can't acurately predict the size. For some people it does turn out to be smaller than predicted. And be reassured that bigger lumps are not worse than smaller ones. One things for sure though, you will feel better once it's been whipped out! Good luck for the 12th! Michelle x
Thanks charys, think I'd just got my head round the diagnosis and was struggling with the 3 week wait till surgery anyway then this has just thrown me.
You know the old phrase here rs123.... ' it's not the size that counts'....well it's relevant lol It doesn't necessarily mean the lump has been there longer than someone who has one at 1.5 cms, the cells may have just replicated more quickly. Your dr. Knows what they are talking about, it also doesn't mean it has spread to lymph nodes, it can be a very discreet contained area no matter the size. I know at this stage of uncertainty it only takes minor changes in facts to make us very jittery and upset, it is entirely understandable.....but to be honest until the thing is removed the exact size won't be know. People have had smaller sizes after biopsy and larger. The main point is in a matter of days it will be gone and you can get on with your active treatment. 😊
Sorry, I wish I could help more