Hello Mrsmillie, I know, it’s hard to not feel negative, but please try to worry less about dragging your family down. Perhaps, asking them for some things they could do, even daft things like singing to you, to help YOU cope, or practical things, that some people find easier, like shopping for a little bit of your favourite treat, or hubby hanging out the washing.
i had my first diagnosis in 1994. Two days ago, on Monday, I had my post op check up for my mastectomy surgery late May. New primaries, 28mm grade 3 invasive and high level non invasive, totalling 97mm, mastectomy was the only choice. 6 lymph nodes removed, all clear, ER+, HER2-. Now waiting for referral to oncology to discuss chemo, RT, anastrazole and biphosphonates… and the genomics testing to gauge level of recurrence and benefits of chemo.
i wasn’t told about any CT scan, but do remember having a bone scan the last time. I think it’s to double check and should be a reassuring process, especially with clear lymph nodes. My surgeon told me that the clear lymph nodes were a really good indicator that it hadn’t spread, so I hope this can help you feel less negative. I feel that, if it hasn’t got past that sentinel node, then somehow, I couldn’t be riddled with it. Perhaps the scan is just to check your bone density. If post menopausal, could be biphosphonates prescribed, to help prevent spread to bones.
perhaps you could call your bcn, to have a chat about your worries. They would be happy just to talk with you, to reassure you, help you cope a bit.
wishing you all the best, sharlea, xx