Thanks Doz for lovely long post. I want to get good at these smileys too!! the icon doesnt want to open!
I feel like I need to explain myself so people dont just assume its all over and things are great. I find it hard to put into words as you say, they dont really know.
I've sat here this afternoon and worried about how I have been, but maybe it is because I had too much free time and overthought everything.
I know I am being hard on myself, and i so need the words and support on here.
I shall miss you while you are away.
Hope emmy, janice and jane are doing okay.
thanks for keeping me going.
(dont know what a spoiler tag is but its on here by accident.
Weymouth, i lliked it there. It was the same when i went down to sWanage, didnt think about august traffic and queueing in car parks.
HAve just been looking through some of your early post,s emmy, doz etc. I wrote before that i have had a bit of a patronizing email ready for when we go back to school from the head. she has been really caring but ultimately her life is that of the children.
I wondered when you think back, what was it that got through those annoying things that people say, of oh well its over you can get back to normal. i am wanting to accept that this normal isnt what i was. i have returned to the things i did before but its still like treading water some of the time.
i have been out and sociable with friends and there are easy times when i am distracted. I know there is no magic answer but to be gentle on myself.
Is there anything you can add to this?
I have thought about more counselling but just feel I would repeat whats been said before and there is no quick fix.
Cancer was a huge event and I cant explain how it has left me. I am enjoying my swimming, back to yoga, listening to mindful, relaxation tracks, even an anti anxiety download.
I appreciate you all and when talking to my oh i think this is a great help. Sorry if some of it is rambling or has been said before.
much love and hugs xxxx
At last ! Got my new avatar had to go to main puter but all done now! Thank you Doz it was a bit of a thing but advice was taken and YAY! It is a beautiful day here though it started very cloudy just resting after day out to Weymouth on a coach which took hours but had a nice go round the beach front which was teaming!! Bank holiday what did I expect? Well that done now for tea see you later flutterbys spoons for those that need them and of course group hug Em xxxxx
well done Janice! Welcome to our new home....
so glad Phil is back in YOUR care...
pouring here... so a big cook is coming on....
Doz - that's outrageous! Fight on Girl!
Not seen that we have to have pics approved - I loaded one no problem. I put it into Albums (somewhere on my preferences) and whatever pics are in your album can be your avatar...
Doz, hang on in there with the forum. It seems much, much better than the old one in many ways to me. I am also concerned about the friend you refer to, and I've contacted the team who are going to try and help....
Hugs and spoons to all who need them! I've sussed the font size... someone else did colour, but I haven't found that yet!
Have a good weekend.... I'm beginning to get ready for lots of celebrations for the big '0' next month.. starting with buying half a dozen bottles of half price champagne last night!
lots of love flutterbies
Has taken me ages to get back here again but have finally sorted my password out and I've been let in! Just a quick post firstly to share my good news this week that on Monday I passed my nurse prescribing course...yaroo...the news is still sinking in...I've finally got myself an ology as Maureen Lippman used to say.
Secondly, my sister in law is now home but under the care of a psychiatrist and social worker...they are being firm with her which is good. BUT she has already admitted that since being out of hospital that she has drunk for 2 of those days so not a good sign is it?
Thirdly, I am off to Arran and Mull early tomorrow morning and will be away for 3 weeks so just wanted to send spoons and hugs to those who need them; I think about you all when I'm away and how grateful I am for all the support that flows from this site when I have most needed it
you go into your profiley bit and to to albulms, and upload a picture into an album. when you've done that, you can make it your avatar! How's about that then?
I've made you my friend.... you can just click on the avatar, go to the persons page and click on the "friend whatever" bit (my words, not theirs!)
I thought it would be nice to have email remindiers again, but I only look at 2 threads, and I had about a dozen emails! Eeek! Turning that off NOW!
Hi everyone.... on another thread, I asked about spellchecker, and I've just seen it! Woo Hoo!
Emmy - so glad your lump is lymp and the rock is now soft! And thanks for the info about private lymph ladies through website - I have a colleague who's developed foot lymph and been told she needs a compression garment ( by private consultant) but GP won't refer her and she doesn't know which size to buy/where from etc etc.... I'll pass the information on.
Hope we don't lose anyone... some are having problems signing in.....
just done a ball pilates class.... oh my legs!
funny how things bite us (not insects)... last week I had a call to say my replacement prosthesis was ready. I was a bit surprised, then remembered the lovely BCN had said she would order me another "bean a boob" - when she finally had time, she ordered something "better". I went to collect it, opened it, and said to the lady "what do we do if it doesn't fit?" Your BCN ordered it, so it will. "I don't think so, it's not quite what I asked her for, look... " "why didn't she order you a silicone one like everyone else?" I have one of those, it's too heavy in a sports bra and I'm lopsided. "Why didn't she order you a light weight silicone one" I don't know.... Well, we can send it back for you... So I left a message on BCNs mobile and headed back to the office. My lovely girl colleagues have left, and there were two guys in the office - couldn't tell them... and I felt ridiculously upset... not logical. Pull yourself together time... so I called in to chat to the Macmillan lady, who was lovely... pointed out it wasn't a pair of shoes the wrong size, was it? She offered me a place on the HOPE course, so I said yes (for January)
HOPE you're all OK flutterbies...
lots of love
hi there ladies, dont seem to be able to find the end of our thread, but nice to be able to share agaim.
am trying to stay upbeat and am proud of daughter, with all b passes in her gsces.
had a bit of a patronizing email from boss re start of term. am trying not to think about it cos i dont want to go, but no new job yet. it was about how there would be more better days, im moving on and putting it behind me. i dont want to wallow and perhaps here is the only place i can be honest, but no things do feel the same, i am doing what i did before, but its hard. should we just start to say we are fine,
i know its that she cares ,but she doesnt know what the anxiety feels lke and i am learning to accept me as i am, not how i was before. she wants catch up chat when we return, dont know how to word anything with her,
sorry for moan, but found it not very understanding xxx