Thanks for all your words of support. I had my appointment on Tuesday but because the lining of my womb is thicker than it should be I have to go in for more biopsies in addition to what they took on Tuesday. The doctor tried to be reassuring but I feel really worried now. I'm trying to put it to the back of my mind but its not easy. I should get the results of biopsies already taken in 2 weeks and the doctor hopes I'll have a date for the others by then.
I don't like housework either and often feel shamed into doing it! We're having some new windows in a few weeks so I'll have to go round the rooms and make them more presentable.
Our holiday was amazing; it was one of the most beautiful places I've been to; a little village called Altandhu north of Ullapool. We had a hot tub which we'd sit in at night and one night we saw 2 shooting stars; it was lovely. The pub down the road did beautiful food; we had langoustine and hand dived scallops which had been freshly caught on the day. Its strangely old fashioned too e.g. we visited a gift/tea shop run by a retired school teacher and for 2 cafetiere coffees and a slice of her home made millionaires shortbread she charged us only £1.95 for the lot! She also pulled over a chair and chatted to us for well over an hour. I did buy a little necklace from her to make up for the cheap drinks and cake.
Anyway, hope you are all keeping well; flutter gently
Well done janice youre a star! you made theceffort & youve done it! Congrats
jane hope youre doing ok and enjoying your break. Congrsts to your daughter- another star!
ann ive not told anybody at my new job ttying to make a new start I think - could be wrong could be right who knows! But know I can comd on here and have a moan & every body understands which helps a lot.
bit bothered about mynimplant at moment uncomfottabke so think will ring BC nurse.
take care all
Janice, well done! good to hear your news, and good race time
Jane hoep your hotel is lovely, whats going on with appointments, sorry to hear you are worried, but enjoy the fresh air up there.
as for doz and janice, cannot remember where you are but am in harrogate end of the month, so can you suggest places to eat etc, just mid week break.
am a little up and down, still got upset over old colleagues that havent bothered to be in touch, and i knew the beginning of term would perhpas make me like that. i know they are all busy but they are still together, and they didnt go through cancer. ihate being sensitive like this, and know that i should be gentler on myself, its like after acouple of years i should feel better. on the fb site and this one, we are so good at boosting each other, i forgot that i have moved on but the huge impact of cancer will still be there wont it.
im getting there,
still go to support group in woods and realise i can suggest help to others still in chemo etc but dont want to depress them that afterwards it is tough.
family seem to be coping better with me, but they moan that i am negative on the phone and never say im doing great. i find it hard to lie, its just up and down,
still need you guys so thank you.
lovely summer dont want autumn yet, evening here, but i am stuck on late surgery.
XXx lots of love
and must remember flutter gently.
WELL DONE JANICE
I,m also in awe I dont think i would have lasted I,m ok in short sharp bursts but staying power is,nt my forte :}
You must be very proud of yourself!!
Oh well back to work... short sharp bursts ha ha!!!
Love to all xxxhugxxx
I'm trying to stay positive. My appointment's come through for 23rd September so will go to Scotland today and try and forget about it until then. Some really good news this week - our daughter Em got a distinction in her Masters; so on our way back we're going to stop off at St Andrews for a night and take her and her boyfriend out for a slap up meal.
Janice - good luck in your walk/run/slide in the mud race! I'm not on any meds after BC. The bleeding stopped after 5 days so part of me is wondering if it was just a very late period and my body having one last clear out so to speak but because it happened over a year after my last period it's got to be investigated.
Doz - hope Vicki goes from strength to strength now; she's been through tough times with her health so let's hope she can put them behind her now and enjoy life more.
Anyway, I've woken really early today thinking about packing as I haven't done any yet. Best crack on. We're staying in a castle tonight - let's hope it's not haunted! Tomorrow should have been our very posh night which I had to cancel but we're now booked into a B&B by Loch Ness with the Dores Inn down the road so I've already booked us a table and we'll settle ourselves in there for the evening. Bliss
Take care flutterbys
Help - Next week we're going to Scotland for our 30th wedding anniversary celebration; starting the holiday with 2 much looked forward to nights at a posh hotel and restaurant. Well; I've had to cancel them because I've had a post-menopausal bleed and am now waiting for an appointment at the hospital; which should happen within 2 weeks of referral; which means next week. I feel absolutely gutted. I feel so panicky again to the point of having panic attacks. I just can't go through another cancer diagnosis. Rightly or wrongly although I've cancelled the first 2 nights of the holiday, we've decided to still go to the cottage; its only for a week and we don't go until next Saturday so hopefully will have been seen by then. One slight bit of good news was that my lovely GP phoned me on Friday evening to tell me my recent smear test was ok so that's one less thing to worry about.
good to catch up, Janice how are things for phil?
doz. what about your work? what happened with the ward, did it move or close/
Jane at the fringe, how cool. that was where i had my honeymoon 25 years ago, we went in april, but i still googled images at the shows to remember how mad it all was.
great place to stay etc
look forward to reading your posts
ive forgotten which way to read this thread, do we go up or down numbers, doz you said about photos, has someone addded their's.
sorry not to be have been here, ive been so up and down, had silver wedding anniversary and nice day in hotel, but since then problems at home, ungrateful teeneager and husband bit fed up with me, will catch up on your news,
lots of love
and still needing you all.
just needed a break from writing it down but perhaps i needed to,
love anne x
Janice- hope Phil's op goes well and will be thinking of you both. It's been a tough year for the two of you.
Doz - sometimes tough love is needed and unfortunately has to come from those closest to them. I had to give some tough love to my brother when he was going through the throes with his alcoholic wife but am so glad I did now. I hope your sister is feeling better now. Also hope that Vicky's procedure is successful. The NHS should be more flexible with you as like Janice says you will only end up going on long term sick leave and they'll be worse off in the end
My daughter and I had a lovely weekend at the Edinburgh Fringe last week and saw some cracking shows - Eric & Little Ern (gentle old fashioned humour); Frankenstein Unbolted (raucous and risque involving a silver thong!!) and Paul F Taylor (madcap & angry); next year will stay longer so that we can see more shows. We stayed in the student halls of residence as much cheaper to do so and they were perfectly fine but a 20 minute walk at least from the town centre.
Sunny today so going to make the most of it