Hi Jojo and a warm welcome to you 😊
Its hard to feel anything other than fear and anxiety in the early weeks of diagnosis, it’s knowledge and time that is the key to getting through this stage. The more actual facts you get about your cancer and treatment going forward the better you will begin to feel. Endlessly speculating only makes anxiety worse!
Deal with one stage at a time, try not to think too much beyond surgery for now, Until the tumour is removed and tested fully you won’t know a definite treatment plan. It seems like endless waiting and tests at this stage but its all done to get the most accurate diagnosis and to give you the best treatment.
Things get easier and you will begin to feel calmer, I’m coming up to 4 years post diagnosis in March and if you had told me I would be feeling great and getting on with life again back then I would never have believed you! Give it time Xx Jo