My lumpectomy surgery was 3 days ago and it went well. My mind is already "been there/don that" and Imoving to the next phase which is playing the waiting game.
Test results will come in a couple of weeks on my lymph nodes. Not happy to be in the waiting room again. I look up and see a "big C" cloud overhead, waiting for the right second to either pounce on me with a chemotherapy knock-out blow or allow me the less-awful temporary reprieve (rads only).
Trying to plan for either option is just not happening in my brain. So I will try to give it a rest and hopefully some combat strategies will make themselves known.
Dear Gemmasusann, please don't feel guilty; there is absolutely nothing to feel guilty about. It's so natural to have a great whirlwind of emotions, you will only make it worse for yourself if you try to fight them. Just let yourself feel whatever you want to feel and let the storm pass.
Cancer is still cancer, whatever the treatments are that are recommended; however simple and however complex. It's a horrible disease which no-one wants to have. Having to have surgery is quite bad enough.
Look after yourself, give yourself some treats and take things day by day.
And if any well-meaning friends say highly unsuitable and unhelpful things to you, come in here and have a rant.