To all of you ladies wondering ‘what next?’ I hear you! I also have to wait for a genetics test and to see what they find when they remove both tumours before my treatment plan is finalised. More scared of that appointment than the surgery. Been told to expect chemo as my team don’t want to do radio in case I need further surgery and they think the chemo will be a way of ‘buying time’. Have wondered if I’m making the right decision to go for a therapeutic mammoplasty if I’ll ultimately need a mastectomy but surgeon thinks it’s initially worth giving it a go. Good luck for everyone undergoing surgery or waiting for results over the n3xt few days. Xxx
Glad surgery went well ktk. Hoping I’ll feel this way tomorrow evening! The v shaped pillow sounds like a great idea. Where did you purchase yours? Hope District nurse turns up soon. Sending big hugs back. Xx
Hi jazza, I had meltdown yesterday too and keep thinking... This time next week!!! I don't know what treatment is next, still waiting for Her,2 results, had to have my biopsy redone as not enough tissue, I do know I am ER,+ so hormones, the not knowing is dreadful isn't it. Initial biopsy showed 30,mm grade ,1 ductal tumour and a few spots so boob going as only A cup and not much left behind. I keep looking at the bad boob and either hating it or feeling sad. One step at a time is good advice but not easy to do all the time.
Good luck to surgery ladies for today,
Can I ask the size of your lump? I have been told they don't do plastic surgery after a lumpectomy my local hospital. Many thanks.
Im from the January Chemo thread and I finished my Chemo (thank god) 4 weeks ago. Im due for surgery on Monday 14th Double Mx with one side Lymph nodes and reconstruction...I keep think that these are the last days I will spend with my boobs!! Its so weird...I am nervous but more of the lenght of surgery and being under anathestic for 7 to 8 hours.
Kip...as Im 6 months diagnosis I can asure you that those feelings of jelousy are normal and do fade a bit as this crazy world becomes your new normal. I do still find when Im out and about that I look for people that look like theyre having Chemo to feel less alone...I also had some real anger feelings at the start too. I got my diagnosis two weeks before Christmas and it was like being shoved in a bubble where the whole world was carrying on and you could see it you just wasnt part of it..very strange times indeed.
It does get better as you get going and the monthly chemo threads are a life saver xxx
Hi Jazza, good luck with the appointment and so sorry to hear about your partner, you sound like you still have some lovely support around you though and we are all here, waiting to hear about your surgery and the next steps ahead. Sadly nobody really knows how this feels unless you dealing with it, my husband, kids family and friends are truly wonderful but unless you are on this road its hard to comprehend the wide range of emotions you feel and how quickly they change. Thinking of you...
Thanks to all of you for replying and for your support. Been out with friends this afternoon and was great to feel normal for a while, home now anxiety kicking in again. Telling myself to be strong ... we can do this.
Thanks for sharing your stories April ladies. It’s encouraging to hear. KTK thinking of you and hoping surgery goes well tomorrow. I am feeling sorry for myself having had to cut our last minute getaway to Italy short by a couple of days. We were supposed to be relaxing a bit before my treatment begins as I’ve been told I won’t be able to leave the country for a few months after that. Flight back to the UK was supposed to be this Tuesday but got a message on Friday night to say it was cancelled due to a strike by air crew. The only possible date to fly back in time for my surgery on Thursday was last night. I feel really angry today - b***dy cancer! Still I’m relieved to be back so that surgery can go ahead as it was a struggle to find a flight that wasn’t full. Having cancer is starting to feel horribly real now. I’ve had a couple of breakdowns now when the tears have come out of nowhere too. My daughter witnessed one and we ended up having a cry together which was cathartic in a way. Think she and I have been in a bit of denial to be honest as I haven’t wanted to worry her. It’s hard trying to be strong all the time. I Just want to get the surgery over with now and to find out what treatment will be next. Sending hugs to everyone.
Good luck for Wednesday Gill fingers and toes crossed for a good result, will be thinking of you.
I am back to work tomorrow even though I could have another week but need to get back to a routine of normal... hope to hear about rads and starting my Tamoxifen this week.
Take care xx
Oh my dear I can so relate to that feeling.
I remember after I was diagnosed and was waiting for my op I was shopping in a supermarket and decided to get myself some flowers to cheer myself up, I just burst into tears in the store. This lovely lady came over and asked if I was ok, I explained about my diagnosis, she just said I understand, she was going for her 5 year appointment that afternoon for ovarian cancer.
Yep it is hard, you do look around and everyone is carrying on with their lives and yours feels as it is totally on hold but it will get better I promise.
I am now 18 months post op, I had a WLE, SNB, radiotherapy and am on hormone blocking tablets for 10 years. I am about to celebrate my 60th birthday next month, something I could not have imagined would happen in September 2016 when I was diagnosed.
Sending you loads of Helena huggles. We are all here for you and we will help you get through this.
Hello May surgery ladies, hope you are bearing up. I'm starting to really panic as the enormity of what will happen next sets in. Feeling very teary despite the beautiful weather. I went into town in Saturday and had a real wobble, felt like everyone else was going about their lives and mine is upside down, . anyone else feel like that? Almost feel jealous of everyone else. My daughter asked me last night if I am going to be ok, broke my heart!!!
I am having a therapeutic mammoplasty on 10th May so I can really sympathise. I have Invasive ductal carcinoma - one tumour in each breast. I’m a full time Mum and volunteer for a dementia cafe so not currently in paid employment. I’ve also been supporting my Mum during her treatment for BC (as my Dad died 2 months before her diagnosis and I didn’t want her going to the hospital appointments etc.. alone). so I have some idea of the road ahead. We are both ER+. HER-. Apart from the anxiety of my diagnosis I have felt really wel so everything has felt very surreal. However, I had my pre-op on Tuesday and felt really drained afterwards. I think it’s reality sinking in. I do so hope your surgery goes well. I’ll be thinking of you and all of us other May surgeries! This forum has really helped so far so please let us know how you get on when you’re feeling up to it. Sending my very best wishes. XXX
Hi, I am due to have mastectomy on 16th may, no reconstruction and SNB removal. I was due to have surgery on .1 may but it got postponed as Her2 results not back. I know how you feel, I am looking forward to some thing finally happening. But really scared too. Do you know what treatment you are having, if any?
Hi, I am due to have mastectomy on 16th may, no reconstruction and SNB removal. I was due to have surgery on .1 may but it got postponed as Her2 results not back. I know how you feel, I am looking forward to some thing finally happening. But really scared too. Do you know what treatment you are having, if ant?
Thought I would start the thread for this month. I am due to have therapeutic mammoplast on the 8th after being diagnosed triple negative a couple of weeks ago. I went for my pre-op assessment yesterday, followed by some retail therapy! Since my diagnosis I found that I was unable to cope with work, so have been sorting the house out and cleaning everything in sight!! I am not looking forward to next Tuesday, but am pleased that smething is happening at last so I can concentrate on what happens next.
Looking forward to hearing everyones experiences, and providing mutual support. XXX