Hi Marie
i just swapped chemo (paclitaxel to Eribulin) because the first didn't work. I was quite surprised about how it has effected me emotionally, as I have been Mrs positive.
Feeling a bit better now actually on the new one, like mentally I am back on track and determined. I did feel gutted I'd spend 4 months suffering SEs for no benefit but, let's face it, the biggest effect of this is re-igniting the fear. I'm scared. In between scans most of us manage to keep our chins up, most of the time and hope things good are happening from the treatment we are on.
But I felt like I was hit again, a smaller bang, but still a whack, like when I found out I had secondaries. It took me back there. I'm managing but still rather blubby, very unlike me. It's been about 3 weeks now. Think I am actually coming to terms with the disease and reality, as I may have put it in a box and buried it in the bottom of the diy cupboard 😉
Up down up down.. Life is a Rollercoaster as Ronan sang. Hope you keep busy and distracted as poss. It's times like this that friends are really important. Make sure you tell them how you are feeling and you need some extra TLC.
let us us know how it goes on the new one.
Helen X <<<< Huggles >>>>
