Hi Marion I too found it hard at first and kept on searching for something to help me. I have to listen to something to keep me on track. I downloaded a free meditation app Omvana, and from that I use the " meditation sound, dark night" I listen to it with headphones on so the sound resonates and I feel it as well as hear it. I listen to this in bed at night much to my husband's annoyance. I chant in my head "shrivel and die" and I now feel a lot of heat in the areas that I am concentrating on. I asked my Onc to show me the pictures of my scan so I know where to focus specifically. I then follow this up with a you tube video which I found via Google which is called 528 HZ Miracle Tone, harmonic Fibonacci spiral pulsing at the rate of Pi, having read about it in a couple of books. That one I use as a healing sound, again I let the pulsing sound travel through me. I found out what red blood cells look like and imagined them pouring out of my bone marrow, which not only was cancer ridden but had also been damaged in chemo. I now do the same with Natural Killer cells which are the things that can kill cancer cells, they pierce the cell. I read the other day that someone calls them the hugging cells as they surround the cancer cells and hug them until they burst. It's just finding something that you can latch onto. Some people recommend saying a chosen mantra whilst visualising. I tried lots of things before settling onto what I do. I still find that sometimes I fall asleep ha ha or just can't get into it and just think i'll do it properly tomorrow and don't beat myself up. Just remembered I also downloaded Hay house on my podcast app and they do loads of meditations on there to follow for free. Some are a bit American but there are some that are really good. Again if you work your way through you'll get to know the ones that work for you. There was one that I did that always made me cry, and that was such a good release for pent up emotions and fears .
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