Madi123, Big hugs for you, I know you will be feeling so confused right now and feel that you will never get your head around all of this but I can assure you that you will. I was diagnosed a few weeks ago then had various different tests, lots of waiting on results being told a game plan then it changing because the next set of results come back not as expected etc. I was a mess each day turning to a new obsession to focus my worry on, how long I was waiting for treatment, has it spread, what should I eat, what couldn't I eat, what lotions can I use, its the unknown, waiting and fear it all plays havoc on your mind. The point im getting at is earlier this week I finally had all results back and my treatment plan put in place with a date and it has helped so much, over night a weight was lifted and i feel now for the first time that I can and will get through this. I now realise the weeks of agonising waiting, tests and appointments had all been in my best interest and the more the doctors learn early on about your situation the better the treatment will be tailored for you so it is worth it although you can not appreciate it at the time - just hold in there and it will get easier. So me: 37 years old, Grade 2, ER+ PR+ Her2- lymph nodes tested positive with strong family history (this is why last minute my surgery and chemo was swapped and as suggested maybe for you. I will now have chemo first (starting 22nd MAy) this was decided only a few days ago so does not leave me time for egg preservation! I really think you need if possible to try and contact some younger people that you can speak with as they will understand from a younger perspective what you are going through. I wish you all the best and ill be thinking of you. xxxx
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