Breast Cancer Now Forum

Thanks so much ladies these posts really really help...it’s a rotten disease and you feel so alone until you come on here. I truly feel so much better reading your stories. Am I right that a new starter chemo thread begins each month? Thank you again your words have pushed me back to feeling stronger again....xxx   ... View more

Thank you Jay and Cassie... I’m not sure which one yet, I’ve got a senital node biopsy on 4th Jan and they said they will start as soon as that’s done. I’m so weary of it, I just hate not knowing what to expect. I think as soon as I got the plan and it started with Chemo the whole things become really real.  Jay it’s amazing that you’ve finished it all, have things gone well? Cassie how are you managing are you going to work still? Xxx ... View more

Hi BlueMoonday...  I’m 46 and grade 2 Lobular Invasive. I found out a week last Friday. MRI was today ( not fun but as they say totally doable) my plan day is Wednesday. So it’s all pretty quick!! I’m just trying really hard to carry on regardless but I do sometimes feel like I’m going to burst with pent up emotion. It’s all a bit rubbish but it is amazingly treatable and that’s the main thing xx ... View more

I find as soon as I tell anyone and there havent been that many I am instantly reassuring them I will be fine. Its a strange thing, like I feel a sense of responsibilty to make them feel better!! All of this is a very strange thing to deal with... ... View more

Hi Roseberry I know exactly how you feel, telling people this time of year is crazy hard. Im trying really hard to tell my closest friends face to face which is how id want to hear if someone I knew wasnt well. Unfortunately I keep seeing them at social occasions and putting it off because I dont want to put a dampner on their festivities. The problem is the brave face thing is exhausting (in fact Im typing this in my office at work and getting really upset) keeping the big smile on is such hard work. I litterally get home and just want to shut all the doors and just sleep. Its good you have got your Op date. It hard to know if thats daunting or positive, if you feel like me you just want the bloody cancer out and gone. My MRI is Monday and plan day next Friday!!  Thinking about all you other ladies in the same boat and grateful to this forum and being able to say how I really feel xxx ... View more

Thank you Helena  you are so lovely and poppyfields thank you too.  I went to work today and held it together. I work as a paramedic practitioner in a GP surgery so I have sensible colleagues  who know what to say and my patients they obviously have no idea so when I’m concentrating on them then I can’t dwell on me.  The worst bit is when I’m just doing something normal, mostly when I’m in public and I just think randomlyive got cancer.  I think I maybe in denial!!!! Again Helena as always Thank you xxx ... View more

Hi Jane im so sorry to hear but glad you got the diagnosis at last... so we are both Lobular!! What a strange word that is.  Im having an MRI next week to confirm exactly where mine is and then likely Masectomy after Xmas. I’m going to go with the reconstruction straight away too. Have you had time to decide what type you will have, my surgeon gave me an actual text book on the subject...what jolly reading that made. Do you know about chemo yet? i will be thinking about you in between the recurring words that I can’t get out of my head which are “I’ve got cancer” it’s like a stuck record...lots of Love and keep me updated xxx ... View more

Thank you ladies for your support it’s amazing how much it helps.  I feel a bit stronger this morning, mind you I did take a Sominex last night and slept well. Thank you Peggy the protein thing makes sense in my head. I’m pre menopause so I presume the meds and treatment will kick me into menopause? I currently take the combined pill to help with peri menopause symptoms, I have to stop that now. Guess I’m about to put my poor husband through a whole heap of crazy!!! Xxx ... View more

MGM just read your post....I’m so so so sorry you poor thing. I’m speechless. The problem is even if you waste precious energy screaming,shouting and complaining there is so little you can do. huge hug on its way to you xxx ... View more

Thank you Poppyfields...I am so numb, sad it’s strange. I’d like to say I hope you don’t come back but reading your posts it seems inevitable for you. Thank you for the support xxxxx ... View more

Thank you so much Sally ann..your reply just made me cry...22 is plan day for me. We are so scared, I don’t need to tell you. It’s so nice to hear you’re back to life. If you don’t mind I just wondered are you on Tamoxifen? Is there anything I can do to help myself? Health wise I mean. Xxx ... View more