Hi girls, just had a break to tell you all about Veronica's 3rd cycle today. She had an IV cannula, her usual and very painful Zoladex, FEC going in, when the C started she felt a strong pressure in her sinus and forehead. She has her left arm a bit impaired due to the mastectomy and has to avoid pressure because it can lead to a lymphodema, they had to use it to draw blood and she has acgigantic bruise, her right arm is all bruised due to the IV, her right hand had collapsed veins so really painful, cannot sleep on her back because she cannot breathe and she started with sleep apnea because of the C. Now, she is feeling so bad that she is terrified of being left alone, most of the times I cannot understand what she is saying, because she is mumbling a lot, I made her carrot soup and peanut butter cookies, trying to get her to eat something. She falls a sleep for like 10 minutes and then everything starts again, twisting and turning, asking me what did she do wrong to have this, mumbling again... and it goes on. This, since 2pm, after returning from the hospital. I am so sad to see her like this, all the pain from the treatment, and then feeling like this. Since February that she can hardly walk, she cannot do anything, sometimes it is hard just to get a glass of water. She is afraid of being left alone, she says she cannot stand it, she needs loads of hugs and pampering. I am so defeated today! Now for the ladies speaking about hair. Mine, of course, is growing after I shaved it all, but is growing upwards, making me look like a crazy cockatiel. And it doesn't go down! OK, for a few laughts, V trying to eat a cookie, but she had to lie down, and her crazy dog made a beeline for the cookie, with me following her desperate to grab the dog or the cookie!
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