Hi smclaire Sorry you find yourself here but as you do, it's good to have you 'onboard'. I'm with you about feeling like this will never end. I've had a full on treatment plan from the get-go. 6 FEC-T, 12 months herceptin/pertuzumab, surgery, radio, then 10 years hormone tablets. PositiveLou has a plan to have climbed to the top of the UK's 4 highest peaks by next xmas, and then to conquer an international peak in 2021. But, on low days I worry that this will never end, more things will be found, and i will be constantly on treatment until it finally spreads. It is a rollercoaster indeed. Yesterday morning I could hardly raise a smile, nothing felt worth it. But today I'm off to the park for a coffee and leg stretch. @Kath that's a lovely way of putting it about the warm feelings. It's so true, the out pouring of love and kindness has really touched me too. Although sometimes I find it overwhelming because I'm like '**bleep**, this must be serious', or the realisation hits that I'm THAT person, the one with cancer that everyone rallies round! But, I totally agree with you that the beauty in this nightmare is feeling the warmth of humankind. Even though, cocooned in love as I am, I do feel desperately lonely too at times. As much as they care they can all go 'home' and I cant. @smclaire, are you on the younger womens breast cancer board thing on facebook? There are lots of positive stories shared from women who are in similar positions to yours. Much love to you all, PositiveLou ( LowLou has done one today 😊 )
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