Breast Cancer Now Forum

Hello everyone, just want to offer support to all those worried bunnies out there. We have to put so much trust in other people, and it's awful when things happen that make us question everything. Fingers are well and truly crossed that all worries are put to bed soon. It never ends, does it? Keep us informed, please, and feel free to rant as much as you want. Hilary, I also seem to have a downy covering on the sides of my face. It is pale, , fine, and not noticeable from a distance, obviously, but it catches in the mirror. A bit like a vey good quallity angora jumper. But on your face. Am tempted to slather hair removalcream all over, but will probably be horribly allergic. If it has grown unmanageably long by bunny fest time, at least you will all recognise me . Will be wearing a balaclava. Will check in tomorrow. Sleep well and try not to worry. Hello to long lost bunnies? Xxx ... View more

Hello Buns, Just popping in to say Gaynor, you are right about people not understanding unless they were with you while you went through it all, or have been through it themselves. We are off tomorrow to the south east coast to see my sister and brother and respective family members and we haven't actually seen them since before the mastectomy and the chemo, incredibly! They all live so far away and for various reasons visits just didn't happen; we kept in touch with phone calls. I know that I look fine now, and it will almost seem to them as if everything is as it has always been. Still, I guess that it might be good in some ways. Might be better just to let them think I have moved on. Have finally addressed the issue of a return to work and am meeting with my Head next week. I asked for an off-site meeting so as not to be distractd by other school stuff, but will need to think about what to say! I am hoping he is happy just to chat for the moment and is not expecting me to make any firm decisions as I certainly don't feel ready to do that yet. Apparently I might need to see an occupational health officer to ensure that I am ready to go back. I am honestly astonished by how little I have missed working. Maybe it's my age, but I am enjoying the lack of structure- it's great to be able to take my breakfast back to bed and linger over a coffee. I don't seem to get bored at all! There is always something to do, somewhere to go, or something to read. It is lovely; like being on holiday but without nice weather. Am really excited that I have managed to book a city break with my old chum from Drama school. We've recently done trips to Madrid and Amsterdam. This time we are off to Lisbon for a few nights, just before Bunnyfest, so that will be a really busy week. Am a bit worried that I won't have the stamina for all the walking and art gallery visits, but i'm sure we can fit in the odd cafe! Hope the Vitamin D i am now taking does the trick in relieving The Aches of Arimidex. Good luck those of you with the Lethargics of Letrozole......etc ( sorry, couldn't resist. ) Not time to mention everyone by name, but take care, and have a lovely pain-free weekend, all. Love Lee xxx ... View more

Many Happy Returns, Sara! Hope you had a lovley day. Lee x ... View more

Hi there, I have been looking for this type of thread for a while. I had my MX in Feb with an expander , and will have my implant fitted before the end of the year,hopefully. I have been mulling over prophylactic surgery on the other side, and still not sure. Had a long chat with my BC nurse and she did help me to unpick a few issues. I have a bad left shoulder with very restricted movement on my BCside and am worried that if I had BC in the other breast, I would be at risk from node removal, lymphoedema Etc. I also never ever want to go through chemo gain if I can help it, and know I will be dreading the yearly mammogram. The BC nurse said that yes, I willavoid the mammograms but reminded me that of course there are no guarantees about never having chemo again. If the cancer comes back as a secondary, then the second mx would have been pointless. It feels like a big decision, and I think I will go for the final recon on my left first, before I decide. ( my surgeon did say that if I were certain, he could do bothprocedures at the same time) I suppose I might regret this, especially if I do decide to go ahead and have towait for ages to get it done or have to have a different surgeon. I know how you feel LincB. it is a tough decision, and you don't want you to dosomething you might regret. I am glad I went for recon on my left side, however. I have a friend who opted not to, and she is regretting it now, as she finds the concave chest thing difficult. Will continue to follow other posts here..... Not sure I am any help at all, as am just as woolly about it all! sameelee3 X ... View more

Hi there everyone, Sitting here with my only shot of good coffee for the day, but enjoying it loads. Just thinking bout those awful days of chemo when everything tasted horrible. Good riddance to that time. Sorry I've been away for a while; I just caught up with posts and there is definitely a common theme of nasty aches and pains now. I' m on my fourth week on Arimidex and the SEs have hit me too. My feet are so so sensitive. Went for a walk into town yesterday in my comfy Ecco shoes and felt fine, but when I got home I could hardly stand up!My fingers are very stiff and sore, and i feel a bit like i have been in a fight. I am hoping that once my body gets used to the drugs the SEs will lessen, cos the thought of five years like this is a bit depRessing. I was shopping in the hope of finding a bunny fest prezzie, but not much luck i'm afraid. Loads of Halloween gifts, but not a lot of bunny inspiration to be had. Sarah, before I forget, I am also planning to go up by train, so am happy to share a taxi. I will check the train times and we can message before the day. Very Sorry that some of you won't be able to make it. Elaine, hope you get some answers about the trial; you need to do what is right for you, but they need to be totally honest with you about the risks. Southpool, enjoy the rest of yourholiday; sounds fabulously relaxing. Welcome back Tracy. Sympathies and supportive thoughts to all those with lymphoedema. Margietee, was very interested in your comments about the plantar syndrome. YoU are right- more information should be givenearlier if it's a real risk after FEC. Pixie, pointless to tell you to slow down, but ..... Slow down!!!! Just a bit? Admiring all of you who are back awork now. I was beginning to feel a bit of a fraud, but no longer. The most recent SEs have made me realise that I'm not there yet. Have an aromatherapy secession this afternoon, So am looking forward to it as I respond very well to nice smells! How is everyone's hair doing? Mine is taking its time, but is dark grey and I am getting used to it now. Want to be brave enough to keep it natural, ideally! we'll see. Anyway, buns, must go and do something. Coffee long gone, and jobs call. Be back soon, love to all, will be in the Campo Spa later if any of you fancy a stint in the sauna. Lee X ... View more

Little Chick,you are not alone- we have a water- rower at home and I thought that it might be time to get back on it again. I only managed five minutes. Pathetic, but good to know that this is normal for us!!! My feet are so stiff in the mornings it's ridiculous, but there seems to be no remedy to this one. Good to know you are feeling stronger Sara, and good luck with the final rads everyone who is on the last leg, so to speak.Thanks Pixie, for the message with all the arrangements for the 27th. Just out of interest how many of us are bringing partners? Have had an admin day today, catching up with emails and booking various things. Changed to Arimidex last night- no noticeable difference in SE"s yet! Is anyone else on this- how are you doing, if so? Love to all suffering with rads soreness, etc. Lee x Seriously, can someone tell me what NED is, please. Am I being stupid? I am guessing it is obvious, but not to me with my chemo brain!!!!! x ... View more

Hi All, Just checked out the October thread as Vanns suggested and it made me laugh- so many of us have posted with lovely words of wisdom that there are more of us than there are October Pumpkins (aka Pixie)! just made me giggle, not sure why!! We are all experts at chemo now- will put on my CV. Actually, not sure I have a CV any longer.... OH has been up to London to visit his mum and also drop all of our son's stuff off at Uni, as he is finally back in the throes of year 2. Went all maternal domestic goddessy and sent him a batch of coffee cakes, just in case there is a cake shortage in the Big Smoke. I think all this time off is having a strange effect on me....the coffee cakes were sublime, I am signing up for pottery classes, and throwing out all my sharp suits and heels. Am I condemned to wear jogging pants forever without ever actually jogging in them? Will I ever wear mascara again? Is it wrong to enjoy cleaning out the fridge? I am hoping that this split personality is only temporary and am relying on the Bunnyfest to release my old self. Bunny ears and a glass of champagne might do the trick, along with a touch of Gloria Gaynor. Take care all, much love ( Who is NED? ) Lee x ... View more

Big Big congrats to you, Campo. That is such good news! Have a great holiday, Southpool. xxxxx ... View more

Hello All, Sorry I haven't posted much lately, but I have been following all your tax and rads stories. Can't believe how far some of you have to travel for treatment... Hope those of us still suffering from fatigue and painful joints feel better soon. I've been on Arimidex for 2 weeks now and so far have been ok. I have to do strange finger dancing exercises when I wake up, and my feet belong to an eighty year old woman for the first ten minutes of the day, and ankles are twice their normal size, but hey, it's not chemo! Early days yet, my GP says, in that knowing, sympathetic but brisk way she has. Have been signed off work until January, and I know that I should be taking the time to plan amazingly brilliant lessons for when I go back, but seem to have no trouble filling the days with completely vacuous activity. Coffee with a friend today began at 11am and ended at 5.30! When I think about the amount I used to pack in to a typical day at work, I feel a bit embarrassed about how little I'm achieving. Just need to keep reminding myself that I probably have lots of chemicals lurking in my bod, so am not stressing too much. Am trying to walk a lot. Southpool, am impressed that your hair is long enough to say goodbye to Susie. Mine is coming back, but it's a bit freaky seeing my brother wearing my clothes in the mirror, so maybe another week to go yet. Still at least half a stone overweight ( might be fluid retention?) and not shifting, but less bothered now, except that none of my clothes fit. Am able to plan some good things, like many of us are able to do now: we have come such a long way. Regarding the risk- reduction surgery, had a long chat with a BC nurse who unpicked all my worries one by one. Will probably go for an implant in the BC side first, and see how it ends up. I thought i had calcium deposits in the other breast as well, but apparently I don't, so that was very useful to discover! Waiting to find out the stats for recurrence of BC in the other breast before I make a definite decision, though. i do feel happier about it now, despite being unable to talk to her without blubbing all the time. Was really strange and she observed that I was probably too emotional at the moment to make such a big decision. Am off to catch up on sleep now- bad night last night, so bye for now, Bunnies. Also looking forward to Bunnyfest- need to order bunny ears soon!! Love to all, keep posting as it's good to keep up with news. Lee x ... View more

Hi everyone, Good to hear that so many of us are on the up and busy! Just a quick post to ask 1. if anyone is considering risk reduction surgery on the other side ( had chat with bc nurse yesterday) and 2 to wonder whether it's normal to be developing a receding hairline (!) effect on the re-growth. OH and I have twin haircuts. Would love to be teling you that I am half way up Kilimanjaro or clubbing downtown like some of you energetic souls, but the sad truth is that I am really looking forward to watching the next episode of Parade's End on TV, albeit with a glass of wine and a bowl of chilli. love to all, Lee xxx ... View more

Morning all, Have to admit to being worried about some of us! Vanns, don't expect too much too soon. You were hit really very hard by the tax and it will take time to get back to how you were, but you will, I am convinced. Everyone i"ve seen a year on from their treatment is so, so much better and looking great. One damned day at a time is a cliche, but you have to abide by it. Pixie as well, I can only imagine how upsetting the thought of surgery to the jugular must be. Have my fingers crossed that the physio works and that you won't need it! Give us an update when you have a mo. Sara, haven't heard from you in a while, and there are other bunnies who have gone very quiet. I think this is a tricky time cos of variations in treatment and the ground has shifted. Having said that, maye the quiet bunnies are out partying and have not a minute to spend dwelling on boring old cancer!!! Let's hope that's so. I am just being really selfish. Learning Italian in bed, getting up late. Because I can, just for today. The exercise regime will happen when it's time. An Ikea story for you. A friend of mine has just had to hire a transit van to take her son back to university as he is now renting a flat and needs to kit it out. She travelled for three hours with her son and OH ( who loathes shopping and doesnt drive) and they made a pact to try to get through the shopping without any arguments and try to have a nice day. ( Like you do) On arrival at the car park, it wasnt obvious where they could park, so OH and son got out, went off in different directions and came back with different ideas on where to park. Friend decided that rather than upset either of them, she would go off in her own direction. half an hour later.....When they finally arrived inside, it was obvious that son wanted to go off and browse, loading a trolley with kitchen stuff for his new flat.... friend suggested very tactfully that OH go off and buy the double bed, giving him a bit of control and a clever bit of psychology, she thinks. She notices that the place is full of couples having arguments. Twenty minutes later friend is walking down one aisle and spots OH in the distance with a double mattress balanced sideways across a single trolley trying to negotiate the walkways, muttering under his breath like a madman, and knocking other customers from pillar to post. Friend is horrified. Thinks s***, s***, s***, that's my husband, and scoots into another aisle to hide from him until he's gone past. At the checkout, she says to OH " I see you found the bed then. "Son is mortified, tells him to put the mattress up the other way, they have a massive row and physical struggle with it in the queue, while friend is now pretending that she knows neither of them. Hey ho, family life eh? Good luck with the Yorkshire trip, Hilary, hope you find somewhere lovely. Love to all those lurking in the corners of the warren feeling miserable.... looking forward to hearing from you all soon. Keep posting. xxxxx ... View more

Hello everyone, back from Scotland and chilling in bed before doing all the washing that has built up! Fantastic news that LittLe Chick and Pepihorse have finished treatment now: THE END of this horrible stage of treatment has actually arrived. Yes, there might be other stuff in store for us, but not much can be worse than chemo, surely? Sorry to hear that you need an mx, gadget girl, I know you were hoping that it wouldn't come to that. It is amazing how quickly everything heals, though. I had an expander fitted, and it has helped to have a shape on the BC side, but don't know if that is an option for you? Dear Pixie, I feel so angry that the portocath drama continues. The treatment is bad enough without having to cope with surgery caused by ineptitude! Let's hope that they get it sorted now. Glad to hear that you are becoming recognisable again, Vanns! Good to have you back Nat! And hope the Bath weekend was a nice treat, Gaynor. Hi Hilary! Mary and everyone else. Margie, bonjour, took my first anastrazole last night, so await any SE's. Am hoping to use mind over matter, but glad to hear that you are feeling no ill effects! Enjoy the festival, Southpool, let me know if you find the book useful: there was only one section that wasn't so relevant because the writer is American, but it definitely helped me. Scotland was beautiful; sister and brother in law live in a gorgeous house on the banks of the Clyde, and we did lots of driving together. Weather good apart from the glen Coe day, when it was wet, wild and windy. No visibility, which was a shame. Had a brilliant day on my own in Glasgow with a friend from way back. I love the way we see each other so rarely, yet when we do meet up, we pick up as if we lived next door to each other. She's a real tonic. Tidying up today, and planning a bit. Enjoying having the house to myself for a few hours as OH is working this morning. Toast and coffee in bed! Reading Parade's End. Might never work again! ( if only) Would spend my time taking mini breaks to all the places I've not seen yet. Love the feeling of coming home after being away- sleeping in my own bed is bliss. Am rambling now bunnies, and can't face editing. Love to everyone, and so so glad that many of us are feeling better every day. Take care and enjoy the day, Lee Xxx ... View more

HI 1J, I am part of the April Chemo thread so have posted my diagnosis info on there. Although the reason why I'm not having rads is due to a serious shoulder issue on my bc side, my surgeon seemed to imply that rads on top of chemo might be unnecessary. To be honest, I was relieved not to be having them, as it felt like the MX and the chemo was traumatic enough and i was very worried about the damage they might do to an already messed up shoulder. Time will tell for me...... one of my nodes was slightly affected, but the other 3 were clear. It all depends on your own attitude to risk- if you want to be completely sure you have done everything in your power, then you might feel that you should have the rads just in case. if you feel that the mx is pretty radical already, alongside chemo (?) then you will be prepared to take the risk and live with the decision you have made. No-one can decide for you, and I am sure you will feel much better about everything once you have decided. Hope this helps in a small way!! Sameelee3 x ... View more

Other way round- HER negative ER positive 8/8 Whoops. ... View more

`hi Everyone, just did a long post then scolled back to previous page and lost it all! This one will be shorter, so you can all breathe sighs of relief! In terms of diagnosis etc- I was ER negative but HER positive 8/8. Had 4 nodes removed in SN biopsy and only one had tiny metastasis, so they didnt do a node clearance. Had an MX though, with expander fitted at same time, then an Oncotype DX test. The stats confirmed the oncs view that Chemo would indeed be a good idea for me. She also said originally that I would have rads as well ( belt and braces being her favourite phrase) but because I have very restricted movement in my BC side shoulder already, she thought that the Rads might cause too much damage to the soft tissue and restrict my shoulder even more. My surgeon seemed unconvinced about the need for rads, given the fact that I had a MX. As am post -menopausal, will have 5 years on Anastrazole. That's me in summary. Not sure how useful it is to anyone, ( 1J ?) but it is interesting to see how different we all are, and how treatment varies. Chilling today with papers and coffee, using up food in the fridge. Pretending I am in a TV show and have to create something delicious out of a couple of organic carrots, a turkey breast, some spring onions, a tub of raspberries and half a jar of pesto. No roast lunch today! Elaine- try not to project too much about your girls leaving home- they will be texting, messaging, Facebooking, phoning, all the time! And you will have some precious "ME" time to be completely selfish. Sorry to hear about the nasty swelling Vanns- must be really unpleasant and frustrating for you. Pixie, hope you and OH have made up. What is the verdict for Bertie? Good luck for your busy couple of weeks Margie. Enjoy the rest in France. Am very glad not to be going back to work tomorrow- it's the first time for about 20 years that I have missed the first day of a new school term. And I can honestly say that I am not going to miss all the exam results analyis! They always say that the results are brilliant etc, then spend the next few days devising strategies for improving on them! It's never quite good enough. We are off to spend a night in the Lake District then off to Loch Lomond area. Looking forward to long walks and stunning scenery. Hope all the chemo/ RADs SE's lessen for everyone.. have decided not to take the hormone tablets till i get back from our trip....so am SE free for a few days. Hair growing slowly, strange mix of colours: fuzzy halo now. Love to all, Lee xxx ... View more

Morning all, Good to see so many posts in the last day or so. Lots of love to you Sara after your op. glad you have someone to look after you for a while. Take it easy. Thanks for the lovely long post Hilary; you are a gem, and I will definitely be there for that beach walk. Rachel, think I agree with you that daily injections sound a bit unpleasant. It all depends on which drug is the most effective for your tumour , but if they have given you a choice, there can't be much in it, I am guessing. Take care with thAt gooGling. Sarabee, am also loving Great British Bake Off after my son told me to watCh. I love all cookery programmes too. Never been to Chichester, but I have heard it's a great place to retire to! GMT, fully empathise with the treadmill feeling. Saw my onc yesterday to get first prescription of Arimidex, or Anastrazole. Also very worried about joint pains and hobbling about like an old woman for the next five years, after which I will be an old wOman. I have always felt and looked younger than my years, but am beginning to feel and look my age now! I spoke to someone yesterday who's been on the hormone tablets for about two weeks. Her fingers are swollen and painful already. I am hoping that any SE 's settle down after a while. And who knows, we might be lucky! Strongly recommend the book I mentioned in my last post. There is a useful chapter on hormone treatments in which the last thought is that cancer is a powerful enemy and that the hormone therapy is very effective, so we need to be as positive as possible. Warm thoughts go to anyone feeling fed up, anxious, or in pain, at the moment. Hair growth disappointingly slow. Till a bald bunnie with delusions. Much love Lee X ... View more

Dear all, I just need to share this with you. I ordered a book called After Breast Cancer, by Hester Hil Schnipper, and it arrived earlier today. I have only just picked it up and am very impressed. It is completely brilliant, in that it describes everything that I have felt and am feeling.... she even ( p 45) likens some responses to the end of treatment to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder- which is exactly what I remember feeling, and even posting, here. She says that we shouldn't expect to be back to normal too soon- eg " count the weeks from diagnosis until the day of your final treatment.... That is how long it is likely to take to feel really well. Maybe this is a bit worrying for those of us on Herceptin for a while yet, but it certainly helps to get things in perspective. Anyway, Bunnies, just wanted to enthuse a bit, because the first couple of chapters have been spot on and I would ideally like my OH and my son to read it. Will keep going and post any more gems if you are interested. Much love Lee xxx ... View more

Good luck Sara, hope everything goes well. Great Mac 3stories, pixie. Trust you had a goOd shopping trip, Christine, and I am sure you will look fab at the wedding. Enjoy the cruise, Ambarose; I have never been on one myself, but friends have and they had a wonderful time. Sarabee, would love to have a teashop with vintage china, selling home- made maccarons, and my arty stuff on the wall. Maybe a Vintage clothes rail as well. Let's do it. Good luck Wendy with last chemo. You are nearly there. Elaine, hope you perk up soon. Southpool, would enjoy working on a piece for you mum. Can talk at bunny fest. I hope to have some decent pictures and even an live website by then. OH and I planning a short trip to Glasgow next week, to see family. Looking forward to it so much- will be lovely to get away, especially at the start of a new term, when I would usually be trying to remind myself that i can stand in front of a class of 17 year olds and sound as if I know what I'm talking about. Hilary, could do with a head massage- stimulating oils, please. Am now half a stone overweight, so a long exercise session would help too. Need to lose it fast as suspect hormone tablet's will make me wantto eat for England. Little Chick, love your short, forgetful posts. See you all later, have a good day, everyone. Lee X ... View more

Hi Everyone, Yes, there is definitely light at the end of the blooming long tunnel that we have all been through or are still stuck in.... feeling more human as the days go by, but sometimes my tongue is still white in the morning or late at night ( sorry, probably too much information?) which tells me that my liver is not back to normal yet. I guess it takes quite a while to regenerate all those cells that have been damaged! Good luck to everyone on the last stages of chemo- I'm not sure I feel that I was brave, I just hung on in there and put up with it all, but being able to post all my grumpiness here certainly helped, and I think I was lucky compared to some of us here. Many congrats on raising so much cash, Pixie; it is fantastic that the Happy Bags have been so successful and a real credit to you. You needn't worry that we will desert the warren despite the variations in treatment. I'm betting that lots of us fully intend to keep going posting, and will still want to know how everyone is doing. FOR EVER! It is funny that you should mention the jewellery you have stashed and don't use, because that is the source of my recent art work. I have always collected bits of antique jewellery ( since I was about 10 ) and love anything vintage, especially art deco, even old buttons. I found that I wasn't wearing any of it though: what suited me in my 20's doesn't now, etc.... so, I decided that it was a waste just hoarding it in a drawer, (and as I dont have a daughter, have no-one to pass it on to ) and perhaps I could create art pieces out of my vintage jewellery and other lovely bits and bobs. I love it because it is effectively recycling, but creates beautiful pieces that can be family heirlooms if the jewellery has sentimental value. Am experimenting with simple frames at the moment and some of them work well, but might go on to other stuff if I don't go back to work too soon. Eventually, I want to offer a personal service to anyone who has lovely jewellery or other unusual items that they don't or can't wear ( even broken stuff, single earrings etc, ) , but can't bear to throw away- perhaps even inherited when someone has died...`i even have a business name all sorted. Anyway, Bunnies, that's my latest project. I'm not really doing it to make money as such, and havent actually sold anything yet- that's my next hurdle, as am a bit scared that someone will say its rubbish and I'm not good at handling rejection! It is just something I can spend hours doing and lose myself... i guess it's occupational therapy really. it also is very different from the day job, which is great. Doesn't need any real talent as such, just an eye for colour and texture I suppose, and a willingness to rummage in car boot sales or charity shops. Getting back to BC, I rang the local bc nurse about a date for my implant surgery and she said it is unlikely to be before November, so at least now I can plan things for Sept and Oct....was a bit worried that they might want to do the op on the bunnyfest weekend. No way. Seems really strange not to be posting moans and groans about SE's at the moment. I have an onc appointment next week and I'll start taking the hormone tablets, I expect. i met someone who has been taking them for a couple of weeks and she has noticed stiff fingers and knees. So, definitely looking forward to all that! Enough of me for now, nice to see you back, Little Chick, Margietee Vanns and Chrisp1E and anyone else who's been away. it's always a bit of a worry when someone goes quiet for too long! Hope everyone is having a good weekend, and not being swept away by flash floods. Summer? Just off to massage my scalp in an effort to speed up the growth of more white fluff. I lead such an exciting life! Much love, take care all, Lee x ... View more

Hey Everyone, Am also ready for a lovely warm swim! Have been rowing gently round the edges lately, reading posts and feeling for those suffering those SE's in their multituides: just didnt feel that I had much to offer.... Tomorrow would be FEC 7 for me, were I to be having any more... but I am done, thank goodness. I am puzzeld by the fine downy hair on my head that has never been there this soon before. How does my body know that it isnt having any more chemo? Is it mind over matter, or am I just more relaxed and therefore things have started to regenerate. Not sure, but its lovely to feel some tiny hairs on my scalp. Scarily white, though in places and darker in others. I will look like a badger. Good to see you back Vanns. I dont think I am going in for the results tomorrow, but will obviously check the website. I am a bit worried, to be honest... results are a massive thing where I work and if they aren't good, I will feel guilty I know, even though I have not been teaching them! Do you have a return to work plan yet? Just wondering...Very envious of a trip to Barbados. Silver linings? Being away from the stress of work and realising that I dont miss it, time to do arty stuff, meeting people for coffee on a week day, time to read, time to chill with OH. Appreciating the wonders of the digestive system when it is working properly. Feeling better and being grateful. Being less bothered that I ever imagined I would be about being bald, so getting vanity in perspective. Not needing or wanting to go shopping! Appreciating ordinary things. Living in the moment more often and not fretting about stupid things. Nice phone calls and texts from those that really care about me. This Forum. Re-disovering Green Wing. It might be Arimidex, Mary; I will probably be on it too, so we will compare notes. Not looking forward to hot flushes again or joint pains or thinning hair!!!!!. Not everyone suffers all these SE's so have everything crossed for us all. Not sure I am ready to let this thread go yet.... Will pop back again soon. Much love to you all, Lee xxx ... View more