Breast Cancer Now Forum

Happy birthday vanns. Hope you are feeling more like your usual positive self very soon. I honestly think the enormity of what we have all gone through with chemo (and some still going through) is completely mind shattering. Wobbly times are allowed and it is safe to wobble in our warren. Better times are on their way. Little chick, you will get there. Not long now and you will be in the chemo-done-and-dusted club. Cant flick back to previous page to see what other comments I wanted to answer, but I'm sending support and love to everyone. Very unfortunately there is more sad news from the margietee camp .... My oh's brother's wife died yesterday. She was diagnosed with lung and spine cancer since my bc dx. There was nothing the medics could do. We have to be thankful I suppose that she didn't drag on in pain for a long time! But it is so sad. She was late 60s. Another funeral. What else is going to happen in this extraordinary year? I've referred to 2012 as that before. For me it is proving to be such a year of highs and lows, but the biggest high has to be getting over bc. We are all doing that and as someone said on the previous page of our forum, that is one hell of an achievement. Smiles and laughter ahead at bunnyfest. Lots of love, hugs and bunny cuddles. Margiexxx ... View more

Hi everyone I'm so sorry to hear a few buns are back in hunker down mode after last chemo. it is unfair to have been so elated at reaching the last treatment and then to have a bite back a couple of weeks later, but it can only be up from here on in for all of us, once that last zapping is done. I am feeling better than I think I deserve to be (lucky me) - just very weak and my legs will hardly hold me up, but not too bad. and my head feels full of sloshing fluid though better since I took some paracetamol. Re nails, I think in extreme cases nails can come off but I think that is very rare. Mine have just lifted and feel tender. I believe they stay lifted more or less until they grow fully up the nailbed. In other words I think the new growth will be properly attached, but I think toe nails take quite a long time to grow so it could be some time. I love soaking in a bath rather than showering - is anyone with lifted toenails taking special care with things like bath products? For a while I was just using E45 bath products, but this weekend I've gone back to using my lovely Molton Brown stuff etc. Is this safe for lifted toe nails do you think? Elaine, I am so pleased your hair doesn't seem to have suffered from the brief cold cap failure on your last treatment. You have done brilliantly to keep going with it and I am so pleased it has worked well for you. BUT I am going to give you a big pep talk now ..... you MUST stop worrying about every little ache, pain, niggle. It wont do you any good to keep worrying at everything. Think positive. You are well on the way to having beaten bc completely and you are going to be around for a very lon g time yet to see your lovely girls groqw up and to have lots of grandchildren (maybe not for a few years yet as your girls are only 18!) It is very easy to imagine everything is sinister, but put these thoughts out of your mind. Maybe you should thin k about some counselling? There you go, pep talk over!!! Brilliant you are getting on with decorating etc. Well done you. Sara I am so sorry about your leg and hope it is soon better. I'm sure it can't split ike a sausage. Lee, can't wait to see some of your artwork .... Now, greatest achievement ... I fall into the real cheese zone with this too. I have no hestitation in saying my biggest achievement has been in producing my 3 beautiful sons. I am so enormously proud of them and their ahcievements. Two have birthdays coming up in the next few weeks when they will be 31 and 37 and the middle one is just 33. The older two are married and I am blessed with two fantastic daughters in law and we have three gorgeous grandsons. Who knows, perhaps one day there will be a girl in the mix but we seem to do better on boys in our family!!! A grandaughter would be lovely!!! I've achieved in my career but nothing can beat the satisfaction of having my family. So on that cheesey note, I'll close for now. A balmy hammock awaits me in Campo land. I can smell the aromatherapy oils and hear the lapping of the water. Bring on my punkawallah. Keep going everyone. Heaps of love. Oh yes, someone asked about Tracy - I bet she's having a great summr holiday with her lovely boy. Enjoy! marggggggggggggggggggggggggggggie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx ... View more

Just seen the emoticon that magicked out of no where in that last message. Don't know where it came from but it is quite sweet!!!! ... View more

Hello buns Almost 4pm and I'm still in bed. Oh brought me breakfast, then lunch, and now he is at the shops. He is such a star and I am so lucky to have him. Tax truck not hit yet since wed but I feel spaced out. I'm taking strength from the bunny who was told the third time is not as bad! Sorry names are not fully in my head at the mo. Some are, but forgive me if I don't mention everyone by name. I feel I've been a bit wrapped up in my own thoughts for the last couple of weeks and have perhaps notbeen as supportive on here as I like to be, but I've turned the corner now that we have successfully and very satisfactorily laid my mum to restyesterday. Again thanks to everyone for their words of support. Sara(h) I am so pleased the tumour has shrunk so well and I am sure you will have an excellent outcome from surgery. Thelwell pony I am sure you'll be ok with the rads. Will be thinking of you. I sometimes get claustrophobic and it is so horrid but I do feel the rads machine is not as closed in as some other equipment. You must voice your fears to them though. Campo, how amazing you have given your name to these machines!!!! Next comment - name gone and I can't scroll back to previous page without losing my message, but I am so pleased ? Has managed to delay rads. I think the planning 2 days after final tax should be ok cos it takes a few days for the truck to come .... So sorry my mind has gone blank on name , so rude. Put it down to age as well as chemo brain!! Spacehopper I have lots of numbness in fingers and toes and when I am tired it extends half way up the calves of my legs. I also have 'lifted' toenails and finger nails. The onc says it is peripheral neuropathy . She says in some cases it continues but in most it will gradually disappear. Because mine is quite bad she reduced the dosage level of my last tax. I'm thinking positive and am sure it will recede in time. Isnt it wonderful how many of us are now finished with chemo and everyone else is bringing up the rear quickly. Haven't we all done so well and hasn't it been tremendous to share this with one another. We have such a special bond. Such a diverse group but so close to one another. There are lots of bunny ears on amazon as well as other places people have suggested. What a hoot October 27 is going to be!!!! Thanks so much to pixie and south pool for their organisation and to nat and vanns for the earlier organisation stages. Can't wait. Oh is back from sainsbury's and will be up to see me in a min so I'll close. Enjoy the final stages of the Olympics. Hasn't team gb done so well. And the organisers. Brilliant. Life will not be the same when it closes tomorrow night!!! Lots of love to everyone - Libby, meant to ask, how is the hair????? Peace and calm to you all, despite strimmers, screaming kids etc!!!! Ooh, will respond tomorrow re achievement. Big m, love yours and I am sure the strong person you truly are will return in time. Love, margie xxxx ... View more

Yippee. That's me done, dusted and Final taxed too. I can't believe it. I feel so elated. I know we still have he dreaded SEs to come, but they will pass and then it is up up and away from there on in. Nothing can ever be so bad as chemo can it! What's more I had my favourite chemo nurse vampire who got the cannula in first time. I told him I love him! Southpool lucky you that your cannulas have always gone in first time. I echo what others have said in wanting to say a huge thank you to all the bunnies in our warren for helping us all through this. Can you believe how a bunch of women who have never met (yet) can have put so much energy and love into supporting one another. Bunny fest is going to be amazing. Going to go on line now and look for some ears and will now start to think about a suitable secret warren gift. is pixie going to dress up as Santa bunny and give the pressies out .... doubt it. Most of us would probably squash her if we sat on her knee. I know I would! sending lots of love and hugs to everyone. Pleased to hear my hammock is waiting for me. I think I'd like a champagne cocktail over the weekend' delivered by my punkawallah. A few canapés would be nice too. Specially designed to combat cotton wool mouth ... But of course everything tastes good in campo land. I will be back after my traumatic next few days .... Love, Margiexxxx ... View more

Morning! Well, I'm in the big chair at 1pm for my last tax and I feel very stragely apprehensive today. I dont know why. Perhaps something to do with the fact that my lovely 'best cannula' chemo nurse said we only have a couple of week veins to try for in my right hand today. Hope I get him from the get-go today and don't have one of the others 'having a go' first. They usually end up calling the best vampire after about 4 attempts by others. Also I am so unbelievably tired today hving had very little sleep last night and washing machine head going round and round. No doubt due to x6 prednisolone and x8 dexamethason yesterday. Mega double-double up dose of steroids. I'm holding hands with all today's other bunnies in the big chair. Vanns, you have such a wonderful turn of ideas. I love the idea that we are just the same as Olympic athletes. Just different goals. Brilliant! Gadget--gal - welcome back. I have mentioned you in a n umber of posts saying I wondered what had happened to you. Little Chick, are you OK? Christine, pleased your Dad is OK. Hilary, pleased to hear rads have started OK. I will need my hammock in a quiet and peaceful spot for the next few days - mind you, all the pitches are perfect. I know I have lots lurking in my head that I intended to say. but my mind always goes blank once I've set up the laptop or the ipad. How I wish BCC would sort out posting direct from Android mobiles again. I like to respond in the moment when there is something to say. Ah well, cant have everything. Love, margiexxxx ... View more

Pixie, you are a star. That sounds brilliant to me and I'm happy to be paying upfront and soon - don't want you out of pocket for more than the shortest possible of times or better, not at all. Are you set up for Internet banking so some of us can do online transfers? Will post properly later. Too engrossed in Olympics right now .... marggggiexxxx ... View more

Hi bunnies I cannot believe 5 days have passed since I last posted. So much to say - but will my chemo brain remember it all? I doubt it! First, thanks to everyone for the lovely messages about my Mum. Her funeral is on Friday down in Hampshire. My lovely onc is giving me extra steroids to help me through it. It is a long drive and will be an emotionally very stressful time, but we must all remember the good times with her. After all, she was 91 and had enjoyed her life. I had my pre-chemo meeting with my onc last wednesday. She is fantastic. Aside from the extra steroids for the funeral, I also discussed with her the breathlessness, pain in my trachea and cough that I'd developed, and also the exertion of going to the Olympics. First she sent me to have a different kind of CT scan - this one to rule out the possibility of a blood clot .... apparently another possible side effect of tax. The most skilled chemo nurse - most skilled at getting cannulas in - did my cannula before I went down for the scan. The radiography team said they wanted a pink cannula - big - but the nurse refused and used a turquoise one. That led to a big debate among the radiographers who said it wasnt big enough .... I went into melt down, after all it was only 15 hours after hearing my mother had died. I was in no state for any of it. Anyway, in the end they used the turquoise cannula and it worked. Luckily, no blood clot. However there was a 'patch' on my lung of a 'non-sinister' nature. Probably inflammation. The upshot was a prescription for some antibiotics and a different kind of steroids, both to eliminate the cough etc and to help me through the journey to London. Cough has now pretty well gone, as has the pain in trachea. Still breathless, but that goes with the chemo. So, we made it to the Olympics on friday. Magic! The atmosphere was amazing, both in the stadium and in the park itself. We had tickets for both the morning and evening sessions so saw 4 of Jess Ennis's heptathlon disciplines. I slept on the grass by the river for an hour and a half in between the two sessions!!! It was totally exhausting but I wouldn't have missed it for anything. I slept on the train coming home on Saturday, then slept for 10 hours on Saturday night! I wonder if different steroids have different effects in terms of sleeping. The usual ones around chemo are dexamethasone, but the ones to help me with the chest and the Olympics are prednisolone. Like other bunnies, I am enjoying the Olympics SOOO much. So much choice of what to watch. I'm glued! I thought of Vanns over the weekend and hope she enjoyed it all as much as I did. Campo, I loved your post to Pixie telling her off for snoring. She's a terror, isn't she!!!! Christine, I hope your Dad is better now. I am so pleased for all the bunnies who have had their last chemo, even though we know there are still all the SEs to be got through. That will be me after this Wednesday. Yippee. Teeth - I've noticed a change in my gums through chemo. I am a serial tooth grinder and have to wear a tooth guard at night. I am aware that this is fitting differently now to how it was before chemo started. Also I have two side by side crowned molars which I know have moved apart because I get something stuck between them every single time I eat anything. I also lost a big, big filling from another molar right at the start of chemo but decided I had no option but to ignore it till after chemo. I'm pleased to say I've had no probs with it, but cannot wait to get it sorted out. My onc said to leave it 4 weeks after the last chemo. I also asked her about eye tests and she said to leave that for 4 months after last chemo to let things settle down. Hair - definitely growing, albeit sparsely, but the chemo nurse advised to shave it off once it reaches half an inch to get rid of what she called chemo hair. I'm a long way off the half inch right now. Can't wait for the LG hair to grow again. There is something so wrong in being totally smooth and hairless down there!!!! Have I said I have my rads planning on Aug 22? Wendy, I can't believe they are reckoning to start your rads so soon after final tax. That shows very little regard to your personal well being. I hope you are managing to change it. Pixie, hope portacath ooze is improving. Must end to watch GB's equestrian jump off for gold/silver ... love, margiexxxx ... View more

Thanks to those bunnies who have sent best wishes regarding my mother. Sadly she died just after 10.30 last night. My sister and niece were with her and it was all very calm and peaceful. Her time was done. It is so sad, but that is really sadness for those of us still here. For her I truly feel it will have been a release. Love to all. Margie xx ... View more

Thanks winter socks and big m for comments about breathlessness. Thanks also to pixie for comments about my mum - you clearly understand the situation. My sister and I often wonder if this is what we have in store for us in the future. Best we don't know what is going to happen to us. Good luck to those having their last chemo is week and love to everyone going up or down!! Not long now. Margie xxx ... View more

Hi everyone. Thanks so much to those of you who have helped me to put things back into perspective. I promise to try not to have a little sulk again!!!! So childish, but this chemo stuff brings out all sorts of things in us. I've got a list as long as my arm of things to discuss with my onc tomorrow afternoon. Is anyone else feeling breathless? I find going up the two flights of stairs in our house leaves me breathless and the last week I have constantly had a feeling that I am not using my lungs properly. I keep feeling also as if I am going to forget to breathe. I have to keep reminding myself. I just hope and pray I have the energy to get around the Olympic park on Friday. We are going to London on Thursday and staying in a hotel for two nights - just one underground train to take - lots of stops but no changes which will be a blessing. Forgot to mention in my previous post that I like the idea of a £10 bunny gift for bunnyfest. Also, pixie you mentioned buffet rather than regular lunch - I think a buffet would be perfect as it is so much more social than a regular sit down meal. But at the end of the day it will be whatever can be arranged and it will be fun whether it is a buffet, a sit down meal or just a sarnie (iPad wanted to change sarnie for sardine!!!) I had some bad news yesterday. My 91 year old mum was admitted to hospital with a severe chest infection and they think she might also have had a small heart attack. She is very very poorly and we are just waiting to see how things go. The docs have said it could go either way and to 'prepare ourselves'. I've not been able to see her for 20 weeks since just before chemo started because she lives 180 miles away and of course can't visit her in a hospital ward full of people with all sorts of infections. It breaks my heart that I can't see her, but the saving grace is that as she has severe dementia she doesn't remember when she last saw me and certainly doesn't know now who is visiting or not. Awful to say that severe dementia is a saving grace. Hope you understand what I mean. We almost lost her at Christmas 2007 when she had a chest infection and no sooner had she recovered than she had forgotten she had ever been ill. I'll close at that except to send all buns love and best wishes for wherever they are in their cycles. And when will our first gold medal come????? Loving it all tho! Margggggie xxxxx ... View more

Hello beautiful bunnies. I'm back. Thank you to Southpool for asking after me. Not sure why I've not posted for more than a week. Partly it will be because I am so fed up with all this chemo lark. Every single bit of it. In the last six weeks since starting tax I have not had a single day when I have felt reasonable. Well, I feel ok ish providing I am sitting doing nothing, nothing whatsoever. But as soon as I move I'm out of breath, out of energy, out of everything. Moan moan moan. Bet you wish I hadn't come back. Truth to tell, I think I've probably been having a bit of a sulk under a fence just outside the warren, in a position where I could nibble on some nice dandelion leaves and where I could quietly observe what was going on in the warren! Reading all posts. The longer I stayed under my fence the quieter I felt, thinking no one was missing me and I might as well stay out there. But southpool made me feel better by asking after me!!! Anyway, time to grow up and stop moaning .... Think I'm a bit like Big Mary and like to be mentioned every so often!!! Hi Big M!!! Olympics: I should be having tax 3 on Wednesday but my onc agreed to delay for a week so I can go to the Olympics on Friday. We have tickets for athletics both morning and evening. Among other activities we will see Jessica Ennis doing four of her heptathlon events. How exciting. I know vanns has tickets for hockey .... Is anyone else actually going to the Olympics????? It is wonderful to watch it all on tv isn't it , and doesn't London look marvellous. I managed to watch all the opening ceremony as it didn't require moving off my ever increasing backside. I had a sleep in the afternoon to prepare. Wonderful. So clever and so quirky. Brilliant of the queen to join in with 007! Hair, eyes etc: Libby5posts, I reall felt for you with the mess up with your cold cap. I am not surprised you went into melt down. Hold on to the fact that tax is not so aggressive to the hair follicles as fec, after all, my hair is growing back since I swapped from fec to tax. I am sure all will be ok and have everything crossed for you, including my bunny ears. I do hope you make it to the LGFB session. I am amazed at all you bunnies who are able to wear makeup and false eye lashes etc. my eyes water so much and are so sensitive I can't wear any makeup. As soon as I put make up near them they start to run even more than they are doing 90% of the time. For info, the eye drops I have are Hypromellose, from my onc, completely unmedicated. They certainly do help. Celecoxib REACT trial: gaynor, let me know if you decide to go on this trial. I mentioned a while back that I have signed up for it. I couldn't see any downside. For anyone that's not heard of it, it is a trial in which you take one anti inflammatory per day (celecoxib) for two years because there is a line of thinking that some tumours thrive in inflammatory situations. Reducing inflammation in the body may reduce risk of recurrence of bc. Also on the upside, you get more checks and more closer monitoring for two years than you otherwise would do. Rads etc:. Answering pixie's question of a few days ago .... I have 25 rads to come, planning is on August 22 and I will start on September 17 after a holiday at the beginning of September. I then have 5 years of Arimidex and the two years of celecoxib, arimidex and celecoxib running concurrently. Pixie, your holiday location in Norfolk sounds great. Enjoy. Love and best wishes to everyone. I am off to find a magic carrot to fly on it to spa campo. Prepare a hammock for me please, I'm on my way!!!! Love to bunnies-all. Margggggie xxxx ... View more

Southpool, I've pm'd you too so let me know if you don't get a message from me. I meant to put usual xx at the end of my pm but hit send too quickly, so sending you hugs and things now. Hope everyoneis enjoying some better weather. We have been at a cricket match all day - youngest son is staying with us this weekend and he's very keen. His team was playing locally to us. It has been a lovely gentle undemanding day. So nice to be out in the open air too after being cooped up for so long. Campo, I think your visualisation just gets better and better. I have these wonderful images in my mind of lots of little cheeky bunnies on your beach. do bunnies remember the avatar of Sharon10w who hasn't posted for ages? It was a cheeky little girl bunny with blond hair and a short skirt. That is how I visualise us looking in campo land. I wonder what has happened to sharon10w .... I was going to say the same about Christine as we hadn't heardfrom you for ages, so it was lovely to see a new message from you. Well done on having your final chemo. Hope you do manage to get to the bunnyfest. Love to everyone. MarGie xxx ... View more

Hi pepihorse What you describe sounds exactly the same sort of SEs most of us get on tax. I described it like being invaded by an army of really nasty vicious little soldiers with spears stabbing me from theinside out and it was mostly focused around my thighs and groin, though was everywhere to an extent. Not heard of neurolasia. The injections people mention are neulasta to boost the neutrophils in the white blood count. My hospital doesn't give them as routine but I was prescribed filgrastiminjections when I wasn't making enough neutrophils on my own. Unfortunately I reacted and the filgrastim and tax created an excessive amount of the same pains so I was taken off filgrastim. Ask for co-codamol or tramadol for your next tax cycle. I'll pop back again over the weekend. Off to the campo spa now!!!! Love, margie xxx ... View more

Morning all, well, almost afternoon. Vanns I am wiling the tax truck to be as reasonable with you this time round as it was for me ... Though it did take a wrong turning and did a drive past my house again yesterday. I did a sorry-for-myself post at around 2pm then blow me down, I lost it before clicking on the magic word post. I went into melt down as a result, sobbing as if the world had come to an end, and there was no way I could re-do it in that frame of mind. In that lost post I was asking Hilary to come and stroke my ears, so yes please Hilary, I want a hammock with a punka wallah standing by and a lovely big glass of exotic fruit juice, gentle massage would be the order of the day!!! The side effects just keep in coming don't they, even when we think we are through them. Libby2posts, like you I am just so lacking in energy, but unlike you I am sleeping. I really feel for anyone not sleeping well - I have a long history of poor sleep patterns and knowhow dreadful it is when you can't switch everything off for a few hours. Libby aka Elaine, I've been meaning to ask how your hair is now you have almost finished your chemo. Has the cold cap continued to do the trick? I really take my wig off to you for persevering with it. Pixie, as far as I am concerned, October 27th is perfect for our meet up and a hotel at the NEC would be spot on. I am a definite for it. I was thinking, I wonder if they would give us a private room to meet in - I think we are going to be quite rowdy if we really do get into any singing etc. just a thought. Tracy, what a brilliant idea to hire the hummer. Bet your boy was the talk of the whole school. Not mentioning any others by name this time, but you all know I am thinking of you and trying to send good vibes. Love, margie xx ... View more

Sorted!!! I went wrong with my numbering on June 2nd. Today is day 8/99. Tomorrow is day 100. I'll have to celebrate the achievement all over again!!! Numbers never were a strong point with me !!!! ... View more

Happy anniversary Tracy! Lovely to hear about your nice day yesterday too. Xxx ... View more

Hello bunnies. I am really pleased to report that the tax truck is well and truly on its way outta my drive. I'm also pleased to report that it has not been anything as bad this time as it was last. I feel so fortunate and also a bit guilty about that because I know a lot of people find the second worse than the first. In retrospect I think I probably should have been delayed in my tax1. I wasn't well going into it, though discussed it with the onc before hand and agreed together that we would risk it so I was party to the decision. Also it really is now quite clear that I definitely did have an adverse reactiion between the neut boost injections and thetax, as my onc suspected. So pleased not to be having that this time. You all have my permission to say yah-boo-sucks to me and tell me to stand in the corner for feeling ok. Mind you, I do feel very lacking in energy. I don't know how some of you manage to work for a few days and as for Elaine going out to buy paint ...... Well done to all of you. I think we are doing brilliantly. By the way, yesterday was day 100 for me since I started chemo. What a milestone. I keep a diary so I can always check back on SEs etc and each day I write down where I am in the current cycle and where I am in the overall chemo. What I can't work out is how I am on day 8/101 as surely the 101 should be divisible by 7 (days of the week), plus one for the fact that I'm on day 8. Eh?????????? Well, if I'm puzzling over such things my brain must be truly addled. Perhaps I've made a mistake along the way in my diary numbering. I'll have to go back and check. Enough of that. I'm rabbiting on (ooooh, excuse me, I am not being rude to rabbits or even to bunnies ......) Pixie I am so pleased you are going ahead today. Iexpect you are still there noW, being juiced Holding paws with you and all others in the big chair right now. Gay or, spulp leased ...... iPchemo rejection there .... What is going on here???? It is the iPad making changes of its own. You couldn't make it up could you. I'll try again .... Gaynor, so pleased you can have a few days of your much needed holiday. The next few words were cup posed to read "iPad correction there". Humour - if I am the one making the humour Ialso tend towards a dry humour, laced with a touch of satire. But the things that make me laugh tend to be things that come at you unexpectedly or sideways. For that reason, I rolled abouttwitch laughter at vanns' comment about her having to deal with the fallout of her OH having her period. Sorry vanns, it probably isn't funny for you if shes going all hormonal but it was such an unexpected comment it really made me laugh out loud. Not an aspect of life I had evethought about before. Good on ya gal!!! Right, think I'll have a bath now. Off to my comp therapy session at the hosp this afternoon. Lovely friend giving me a lift and Oh picking me up. I don't trust myself to drive at the moment, even though I am feeling so much better than I thought I would be on day8/101. Off the check my tally in my diary first .... Love to everyone. Bunnyoke not long away!!!! MarGie xxxx ... View more

Hi again Just a quickie before I bed down for the night (been in bed all day so bedding down for the night is not that much different!) I just wanted to say to Nat that I think Lemsip is ok. At least, I hope it is because I'm taking it. You just have to remember that one sachet is the equivalent of two paracetamol (or it is in the version i have - double check the package) so whatever thedosage, it should replace that quantity of paracetamol or cocodamol and not be in addition. Don't want any bunnies overdosing. I'm taking it because my throat is threatening soreness again - if you remember I was sent off to ENT at hospital after tax 1 and got a diagnosis of tonsillitis. My onc said I may get a throat after each tax. Tonight's the equivalent night of when I went down with it last time .... Watch this space and keep your fingers crossed I'm ok. Tracy, so sorry you are bleeding again. Gaynor, hope your neuts are getting there. Pixie, hope oozing is continuing to abate. Fingers crossed for Wednesday. Big M and everyone else not mentioned, hi!! Nightnight bunnies. Don't let the bugs bite!! Love, Margie xxx ... View more

Good morning my lovelies. I was so emotional when I caught up on posts last night. What an amazing bunch of caring bunnies you all are. The support for each and every one of us is phenomenal. Gaynor I am so so sorry you are still in hospital. It is a complete bummer. And pixie, so sorry you are oooooozing. Vanns, sorry to hear about your feet - mine were Very tender undneath for a few days, a week or so after tax 1, and they are sore and tender again now. Also my legs are weak and wobbly with all the same stabbing pains - as last time. The tax truck forgot it was supposed to be an lgv but it hasn't been ajuggernaut (yet!). Everyone else, so sorry about the SEs. They just keep on coming don't they. This stuff keeps circulating round our bodies continuing to poison us right the way through from one treatment to the next. I've just looked in the mirror and I reckon the skin on my face has aged at least 15 years since I started chemo and I noticed yesterday I have horrid lumpy cellulite thighs that look like an old woman's thighs. Will we ever get back to how we used to be? Tax trots - no way. I have never been as constipated as I was yesterday. I felt I had a football stuck. I think the cocodamol constipation effect counteracts the tax trots in me. Prunes to the fore. Good job I like them. Vanns I look forward to hearing more about you working your dog. Do you shoot or are you a beater/picker-upper? Nat, I think your idea of a new tattoo for Noah when all this is over is a beautiful one. Thanks for sharing that. What a fabulous name you chose for your little one. I'm not up to a chirpier, bouncier post right now. OH has gone to work having bought me Weetabix and a cup of tea in bed. A quiet day ahead again. Will check in later. Margie xxx ... View more