No I don't think you are hogging the thread it is here for everyone.
I agree with a lot of what you and Reenee have said, especially the nosey parkers! I told the people whom I wanted to know, close family and close friends and immediate work colleagues, I didn't tell a lot of people before Xmas as I didn't want to spoil their Xmas.
I am a very private person and hate being the subject of gossip, you are just someone else's news of the day and they all have a tale to tell about someone who has had BC and survived etc. Then you get the comments "Don't know what I would do if it happened to me" "Did you lose your breast?" I know my confidentiality was broken at work and I was annoyed about that! I wasn't ashamed I had cancer, but I wanted to try and carry on as "normal" what ever that is, I didn't want to look like a cancer patient even though I was one!
Jane I know what you mean about being single and hating your body but wanting to meet someone, I too am single and not in a relationship and how do you drop the icebreaker by the way I have had cancer! I'm not suggesting it is any easier if you are in a relationship, but at least you have hopefully love on your side to start with.
I also live with my Mum, don't be too hard on her Jane it must be very difficult for her to see her little girl going through what you went through. Mine was ill the whole time I was having treatment and she ended up in hospital! I'ts a long story to tell. Someone said it's like an episode of ER in your house! Oh how funny!
I too am independent and strong but when your world comes crashing down around you, no matter how strong you are, eventually you will probably accept some form of support, be it counselling, anti depressants or a shoulder to cry on. You may well be grieving for what you have lost, because we have lost things, our health, a year in our lives, the security of it'll never happen to me!, the worry of what if...., to mention a few.
I wrote a couple of poems on here somewhere. Picking me up is one of them, I'll see if I can find them and bump them up, a lot of people said they helped them. Don't be hard on yourself Jane.
If you want to PM me Jane we can chat some more.
Anyway back to Corrie is it on tonight and are you watching it?....
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