I am so sorry you are feeling this way. I am six years in to hormone therapy and came on to the forum to see if there were any threads related to Vaginal atrophy and lack of libido. I started Tamoxifen straight after radiotherapy, I was fortunate that I didn’t need chemotherapy. I had read lots of threads about the side effects so was really anxious about starting it but the side effects that I did experience were manageable and didn’t have a huge impact on my life. I was 52 when diagnosed so now 58, 2 years after diagnosis I had a full hysterectomy due to a large fibroid, 4.5 years in to treatment I saw my oncologist because the side effects affecting movement (bending down etc.) were increasing. Because I am classed as low risk, grade 2 with clear nodes he was happy for me to stop early with a review 3 months latter. About a week later it was all over the news that studies have shown 5 years of treatment is not long enough so at my 3 month review, although the stiffness has eased I opted to go back on treatment and was given Letrozol to see if it suited me better. I feel generally fine but I like you have low to no sex drive, I have lost the ability to orgasm so sex has become a problem and after a failed attempt while on holiday recently has stopped. I have a fairly understanding husband who has been through this before when he lost his first wife to breast cancer but he is frustrated and I know I need to do all I can to get help to try to improve the situation. I am planning to go back to my GP regarding the vaginal atrophy and plan to find out what help there is regarding the sexual problems so will post on here with anything positive. I wish I could help more and realise all I have done is share my problems but sometimes it’s just good to know you are not alone and that it’s not all in the mind so you have helped me. I won’t come off the tablets because my side effects are not having a major effect on my life and I am so lucky to have a lovely oncologist, I wonder if you could ask to see someone else? I can see you have hit a really low point and there is so much affecting your wellbeing. Lack of sleep will have a huge impact and will then have a knock on effect that will make everything hard to cope with. When I started having problems sleeping I found that just going with it, reading etc. rather than stressing about not sleeping was the answer for me. I work 34 hours a week and find that 6 hours a night suits me, I am home most days around 3.30 so can have a snooze to catch up if I need to but make sure it’s just a snooze by sitting in a comfy chair rather than laying down. I have suffered with anxiety for many years due to a phobia, 3 years ago I came across the Thrive Programme by Rob Kelly, it’s a book that can be purchased on Amazon for around £25, I struggled to work through it on my own so I then contacted a Thrive therapist and worked through with him via weekly Skype sessions. It has helped me so much, my phobia hasn’t completely gone but after suffering from it all my life I can honestly say I am 80% better and can really recommend it. I hope I have helped even if it’s hust sharing experiences. X
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