Hello Cackles, Oh what a lovely reply - thankyou so much! Yes, the helpline were wonderful, so if there's any mods reading, please pass this onto the helpline staff if you can! Just can't believe how upset I've been today, and you're right, cos it just comes up again out of the blue. Still, at least I'm feeling more positive again now.
I've got some of the M&S bras that have the lace insert, but they dont seem to look right on me, but I think I'll try the Amoena ones because like you, I really like Amoena bras. They're really well made, and you feel really well supported and comfy in them dont you!
I spoke to my bcn about a stick on prosthesis a few weeks ago. I've had my existing Trulife prosthesis for a year ago now, so can't have another on NHS for two more years. But the bcn says they have the same Amoena prostheses in stock - but without the "sticky bit", so would be able to fit me with the right size, then I could just buy from Amoena online. I'm in a health scheme where I can get back 75% of the cost of it, but recently I've had a scar line biopsy, and it turned out to be something called telangiectasis (spelling?), and although the biopsy site is healed, the telangiectasis seems to be coming back again. I dont know whether a stick on prosthesis is a good idea - I'll find out a bit more about telangiectasis first, but I know it's a benign condition and is deformed blood vessels due to radiotherapy 10yrs ago.
I'd looked at the camisoles you mention, but had been doing so well at being able to look at myself in nightwear without a softie/prosthesis in place - but given that I could have some more weepy days from time to time, think I'll treat myself to a couple of camisoles and some nightwear.
Cackles, I do wish you well in your decision whether or not to have the radiotherapy over a longer period of time, in case you do decide to go for reconstruction eventually. I've always been so sure I didnt want it, but I must admit when I saw myself with the softie under the pj top last night, it did look nice to see two mounds down there, so perhaps in a year or two I might change my mind.
Decisions! I guess it's nice to have them, but it really is such a minefield like you say! Take care Cackles, and best wishes for your future too!
With much love!
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