Hi Jinny Perhaps your breast care nurse can help and advise you about what support might be available in your area to help with the anxiety. Some people seem to get a lot of help and advice from the BC nurses though that has not been my experience though I am getting some support elsewhere. This forum is an invaluable source of advice for me and I have had a couple of really helpful discussions on the Helpline. I have attended a few sessions at the local McMilllan Centre eg relaxation classes, Pilates, complementary therapy such as hand and feet massages. They have all helped me stay a bit calmer than I would otherwise be, plus it is an opportunity to meet others - the ones I meet are all towards the end of their treatment and have passed through chemo and radiotherapy so I feel like a newbie but I found it helps to talk, having spent the first 2 months all bottled up and not wanting to tell anyone outside of close family what was happening. I still do not want to discuss it with others that I know but I somehow feel ok talking about it with the 'strangers' I meet passing through the McMillan Centre. That then has helped me take what was a huge step for me, to discuss with professionals who can help me such as my chiropodist, dentist and hairdresser, all of whom it turns out have dealt with loads of clients going through chemo and had lots of advice and tips for me and assured me I only had to ask if any concerns or worries. It changed the nature of the relation I had with them for many years, so it was scary and emotional. So through that I am gradually opening up a bit and realising that I can have a bit of control over part of what is happening to me, even if only a tiny part and that helps me cope a tiny bit better. The tranquilliser the hospital gave me half an hour before putting in the needle on my first chemo helped too! I was very reluctant to take it, as I had never taken one before. I will definitely want to have one the next time too. Jinny, I hope you begin to feel a better and brighter soon. I hope the forum helps you as you are helping others by posting your thoughts and queries eg your later posting about the Breast care nurses and the replies you got to that have helped me realise that maybe I can call them - I had originally thought they would be in touch with me and when they did not make contact I assumed they had a lot of new people to be supporting so I should not bother them. Stay in touch and let us know how you are getting on. Big hugs, Athens
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