Hi Tracy, You've come to the right place for support, I'm quite new to this, and have had so much support from Breast Cancer Care in the last couple of months. It's perfectly normal to be very scared and worried, we all are when going through this. And this time at the beginning, the waiting time, is the worst of all, it's all examinations, scans, biopsies, results, more scans etc, every test result seems to indicate the need for another test and it does seem like a very long road to be on. It's the most intense time but does settle down, and it's normal to be at your most anxious when going through this. Grade indicates how fast the cancer is growing. Grade 1 is the lowest grade so grade 1 is a good thing. I personally wouldn't worry about a 9 week wait from finding a lump until it being removed, and I'm sure others on here will say the same, so try to stop worrying about that. I had a mastectomy in June, and like you was terrified of the surgery, of not waking up. I can honestly say that it was ok - I did wake up! - in fact the worst part of it was the waking up feeling groggy. I didn't have too much pain at all afterwards, and watched the world cup in the evening! It was done in day surgery, so I was home for 3:30 in the afternoon. Facing surgery is worrying but it's a very routine thing, try not to worry too much about that. I am a single parent too, do you have anyone to support you at the moment, and to give some practical help around the house after surgery? The Breast Cancer Care helpline is marvellous - give them a call tomorrow, they have so much information and I always feel better when I've had a chat on there. I'm sorry you're going through this at the moment, but you're not on your own, you're part of quite a big club now, lots of people to support you along the way.
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