Hi Ginny I was diagnosed with BC in Jan 2015 and have just finished treatment. I didn't have chemo thank goodness but had 3 ops, a life threatening illness and 25 sessions of rads. It was a hard year to be sure. I run my own business in the water treatment industry, which is very male dominated and it was an immense struggle to keep it going last year. It's a small company and it' just wasn't practical to bring in extra help, as the learning curve means it takes anyone a long time to add any 'value' to the business. Just had to keep going as best we could, as our income depended on it. However, when my treatment finished I felt totally mentally and physically exhausted, just didn't want to carry on with it, didn't want to speak to any customers and had no concentration. I felt I had become a different person and no longer had the desire to run the business, my whole perspective on life had changed. My husband said he no longer recognised me, where was the determined, feisty person he had known for 40 years? Of course I am much older than you, in my 60s and my daughter is older than you (!) and it is particularly sad that you were diagnosed as such a young age it must have been a profound shock for you and your loved ones. I have had to learn a new way of coping with my business and my attitude to it. Yes, I don't have the same drive and determination I had before but Other parts of my personality have developed and I don't get wound up about silly things now and the odd annoying customer! I have started to regain my interest in the business (hooray) but will be putting plans in place to sell it in a year or two. You have been through a horrible ordeal and however young you are, it will have taken a toll on you mentally and physically. Be kind to yourself And don't beat yourself up about how you are feeling at work. No one can predict what's ahead of them in life but you are still young, with plenty of career and life ahead of you. Can you express how you feel to your manager/boss? He/she will probably be very understanding and sympathetic and will want to help and support you, as you are a valuable member of staff. I have my HR hat on here (!) much better to support and keep a good member of staff than have to train someone knew up! Do you feel like a bit of time off would help or would you prefer to keep on working? Of course,it could be that this experience has made you question whether you actually want to carry on in this demanding job or whether you would like to do something different with the rest of your working life. You are still young enough to make a change. Please keep in touch and I send you lots of virtual hugs X Francine
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