I have just had a lumpectomy after being diagnosed on May 22. I wasnt one of the people who got cancer and like everyone else thought it couldn t happen to me. Li ke you I hated telling people and felt very angry and distressed. I exercise, eat well and a.m slim and there is no family history. It felt like I'd failed somehow and could have avoided it if I just knew what had gone wrong otherwise I could get it again. Friends said encouraging things but I felt like saying you wouldn't be so cheerful if it were you. The sorrow and shock of suddenly being pushed brutally into the world of a cancer patient is horrendous. It is so isolating and friends and family can only understand so far. I'm still coming to terms with it and now think of my breasts as unexploded bombs. I can t stand the idea of people pitying me so put on a cheerful face, so much so that friends say I'm brave. have no choice. This is not something I can hide from. But inside I'm in meltdown and feeling desperately alone. The surgery was t as bad as I feared and not that painful but I'm now waiting for the results of the test results ...the worst is the waiting and fearing the worst. It did get better when I got more information but I still need a treatment plan. Let me know how you get on. Like you I have a teenager doing exams though my parents are dead so I'm glad at least I don't t have to tell them.
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