I can't believe the amount of hair I have lost in just a few months. I can't even look at myself in pictues anymore and do not even like taking pictures anymore. My hair is so straggly and looks terrible. Even the texture has changed to a very dry burnt looking texture and I do not even wash my hair every day. I can't go mor than 2 days without washing it because it becomes very flat and nothing can be done with it at all. I had lost my hair to chemo when I was 44 because I had leukemia and I beat that, but my haor came back so so nice. Now this crappy cruel disease hasd me on letrozole and I am losing my hair again. Excpet it's in a different way and I can't even cut it really short because first I wouold look teririble and secondly it's comdition would become worse. Seems like whatever weight there is is halping to weight it down. Yes, I am extremely mad about this diagnosis and the fact that this is now for life, Let's face it, if your haior grows back after treastment..................that is not the case since this treastment is for life, hiowever long that is. I am sorry to vent but am totally alone this time around and am very depressed over all this. The pills are suppose to give me some kind of quality of life but I feel like I am becoming more of a prisoner so how am I having any quality of lfe. My oncologist wants to put me on anti-depressant meds but I refuse. I was on I brtance also and weas taken off of it since it was doing a very bad number on my mouth and throat and tongue. He wants to put me on something valled Everlomus ( something like that) I am afraid, I do not want to have any swelling or weright gain. I will not deal with that. It took me too many years to get myself to a place where I liked how I was and now this disgusting thing is tearing me apart. It actually makes me think about all the treatents. If they hurt you so bad and the side effects are terible then really are they doing more harm in the end, Sorry but I am in a bad way with all this. I know I am not dealing with this in a positive way.
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