Hi all Cycle 6 of fec-t is next week so in prep of seeing the surgeon I had a mammogram and ultrascan yesterday. The results were full response to chemotherapy and they couldn't see anything left but the marker coil... obviously awesome news that the chem has done its thing. Family are ecstatic and saying things like "get the champagne out" but I don't feel like that! Yes of course I'm amazingly grateful that I'm going to live and it's worked but i just feel flat, it's like yes it's worked but none of the horrible stuff will stop. I still have to have 1 more chemo, surgery, radiotherapy. Then they want to remove my ovaries before the 5 years of medication. People keep saying it will be over soon and things like this time next year, but with BC I don't think it's ever truly over. It feels wrong not to be joyous given not all are as lucky as me ( I also lost my Dad to cancer) Can you all understand what I'm trying to say? X
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