Hello everyone, I have had number 9 and it all seems to be going quickly, unlike my bloody divorce which has slowed to snail's pace again, adding tremendous stress to the whole bitter cocktail. The BC seems the least of it right now, as if I don't have space in my head fully to think about it. I feel immensely sad and very lonely. My adult children prefer to listen to my reassurance than my requests for help. My son, 25, is positively hostile, reminding me sadly of his father's awful behaviour whenever I was sick. Sorry to have a moan, as in many ways it is going well, I just feel very sad just now. I worry about my poor 16 year old, the most empathetic of my children. He now knows as his GCSEs are over, and his attempts to comfort are so adorable that they make me cry too. He wants to give me a spa day, paid for out of his tiny allowance. The holidays are coming, and i have to put on a brave face for him, and can't just wallow like I do at the moment. Which would probably be a good thing. Anyway, if I didn't have here to expose my rawness, I think it would not be good. Thank you all.
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