I was diagnosed with stage 1 in March 2015 - no lymph’s involved at the age of 45. In Dec 2019, 3 months before the 5 year, I was diagnosed with stage 4 - mets to vertebrae T-9. I am now 51 years old. First of all I am so sorry you are going through this. It was devastating for me, my husband and my children. The world fell apart. It took me a good 9 months to accept my diagnosis in the midst of COVID. THERE IS HOPE. Physical and emotional symptoms:I experienced depression, insomnia as a result of the news. On top of this I have been left with permanent tinnitus due to treatment. My thick long hair also suffered. I had a lot of loss/thinning last summer, this stopped aprox 8 months into treatment with normal loss now and volume coming through again. I also experience dryness especially affecting my intimate area causing cystitis. Treatment has taken me to a permanent state of neutropenia .I thought I would not be able to live/cope with a secondary cancer, however, I did and I am still doing it. Do not get me wrong, it is not easy. Some days are harder than others, yesterday was not a good day with regards to thinking. How far have I come: Jan 2020 I was given palliative radiotherapy to release spinal stenosis and started on Ibrance, Letrozole in February 2020 with the addition of Denusomab injections every 6 months. At my 6 month pet scan I was already in complete remission. My last scan March 2021 also showed complete remission. My next PET will be Sep 2021. I still work full-time and only a few of my close friends have recently found out I am a stage 4. What has helped me moving on: God is good all the time. He has gone before me and stands behind me in case I fall back. He has provided me with a husband who loves me and is understanding, with a daughter and a son who also support me. With friends and Church who love me and support me in prayer and care. With a good medical Oncology team who keep a close watch on me every month. I am learning to live a day at the time. When I fall I lift up my hands and ask almighty God to pick me up. When I am weak in spirit I raise up my voice and call out to God to help me. My prayer is that this treatment will continue keeping me in remission ‘forever’ and that I will seen the goodness of God in the land of the living, that I will grow old with my husband, enjoy my children and grandchild and to continue living a purpose filled life. You will need time to digest the news. I remember being told by my breast nurse that I was mourning, I ‘mourned’ the loss of my primary cancer. I lost my primary, I wanted to keep hold of it - I did not want the ‘secondary’ I hated it! It took me a good 9 months to accept, it might take less for you, but you will get there. If you know the God I am talking about, the great comforter, hold on to Him. If you do not and want to know about Him please message me privately. My hope is in Him and I do not know how I would be giving the next step without Him.
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