Hi, I'm new to the forum so Hopefully I'm in the right place ... I had a lumpectomy in December 2016 and the surgeon was pretty sure he had all the margins. I was lucky it was found so early. What is complicating everything is that I have had M.E.and fibromyalgia for 35 yrs ( I'm now 66) I already have severely limited life and am in a lot of pain. I declined radiotherapy with my family's blessing as they understood I was simply too ill to travel 40 miles every day and that was before I even started the radiotherapy. I started on letrozole but after 3 months I had to come off as I barely slept - some nights, not at all. It was having a significant effect on my M.E. I felt so ill... After a 2 week break and speaking to the Breast Cancer nurse I started on tamoxifen. I slept slightly better but still not great. The worst problem up to recently was severe joint pains especially in hands and knees which crunch as I walk. I look and feel like an 80+ yr. old ... However the last few weeks and after 4 months on Tamoxifen I have really struggled with the darkest moods which seem totally outside of my control. Though I've been unwell a long time, I have never suffered from depression. There is nothing in my life that would be causing that and in general I don't suffer from anxiety...I really felt without hope. Last week I decided I needed a break to see if it made a difference - and already after 5 days it has, a huge difference! I am so tempted not to restart...am I being naive or pragmatic??
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