Thanks Mishy I really appreciate your message. Getting through any one of the things that has happened recently is an ordeal on its own but with chemo and shingles (and struggling with the chemo as well) makes it harder. We were also burgled the day my dad died too, you couldn’t write my life if you tried now. My next chemo is the day before my mums funeral, I have been so exhausted and short of breath and the gcsf injection pains make my legs want to crumble, I’m actually worried about how I’m even going to manage the walk behind her. I am strong and I will get through it all but right now I’m beginning to get emotional and that is what I have tried to avoid until this is all over. I don’t want to be in tears in front of everyone. I had this chat with my husband at the weekend, he has been amazing but it is clear everyone is waiting for me to go to pieces. Emotionally I don’t know what to deal with first. I am seeing a psychologist but I’m really bad at letting my guard down so not sure what I’m getting out of it. I’m so sorry for your loss too...you know they say god gives his biggest battles to his strongest soldiers...that must be us. I’m not religious but it’s very apt. Big hugs to you xxx
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