Breast Cancer Care Forum

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Hi posden don't know if it helps but I had 2 nodes 1 underarm but 1 an interpectoral node. The oncologist at time just skimmed over it and said it goes there sometimes and of course after rushing home to Google what on earth this was I found the position to be near my lump so made sense .I  was very fortunate it was operable so they just said it was gone now and made no difference to my stage.  I did ask on Ask Nurses and they confirmed it was same chain as underarm nodes. I really worried about it though and googled so much but have never found much info. I was really upset at time but I'm grateful three years on to this node  . I hope you get more info and I'd be interested in this too if you do. Take care x ... View more

Thanks for this thread it's helped me realise I'm not the only one three years on I still struggle but don't want to seem ungrateful for my three years x ... View more

Hi Delly lovely to read your post you helped me before if you remember our chats. Hope you're ok. Don't know why I'm struggling again at the moment. My diagnosis was actually three years today so may be that's why. I keep randomly crying but I also have a bit of sadness  due to not working at moment bit complicated really . I  worry about being so happy again weird I know but I was so happy at diagnosis  it was so out of the blue and smashed my little world up  I think I'm scared of letting my guard down but there's no option really is there or you're left living a half life xx ... View more

Hi Rockstarchic I agree with your earlier comment that the only thing that will help is my oncologist telling me it's gone for good. I'm trying to change my mindset but it's hard. My hubby summed it up yesterday saying as I'm a worrier by nature I'm not going to suddenly change with this. Plus TBH our fears are sadly very valid. It's great we can speak so honestly here xx ... View more

Hi I wasn't part of your thread but used to read as had just finished my own chemo. Im so very sorry to read this and send love to you all and friends and family. It is all too cruel at times xxx ... View more

Hi Juliewulie I don't know how to hug on here but I'm sending you a HUG anyway . I also had a counsellor at my hospital who was also useless. Maybe I was too newly diagnosed to benefit and too traumatised. She upset me as she just kept saying i had no spread and shouldn't be acting like this  Then she suggested i play a board game as distraction from my fear !!!! So I only saw her twice. I find it sad that after all my treatment I'm still struggling and I have to accept the old carefree me has changed. This is where I struggle i miss that me so much. But I know I'm very blessed with my family and current health so I'm determined to find a way to live happier in myself  I'm going to commit to my self help book and really really try as I'm getting angry at myself  .Sending love to everyone and so grateful I'm not alone in this though wish I could solve it all  for us xxx   ... View more

Hi again x I think unless you've been through this you don't really get it. We seem similar at my diagnosis my oncologist was very grim i think he thought it had spread and was very reluctant to offer much hope. He mumbled they could  try to throw chemo at it if it had spread then said I might have only a few month  What the heck !! Cue severe trauma that's never left me  Thankfully all my scans were clear and I'm doing very well but I can't forget that first meeting  When I got clear scan results he was very positive but the fear he put in me is so hard it's nice to chat to someone who understands. I think we just have to go day by day sometimes and not beat ourselves up. I try to keep busy and be grateful but there are times when I just get overwhelmed  . I have a few coping after cancer books and I'm plodding through them again now for coping strategies but it's emotionally hard. Sending us all big hugs xxx ... View more

Sorry I can't help but Thank you for posting. I'm three years on and feel exactly the same. I had an aggressive Grade three cancer in nodes and also live with massive recurrence fears. It's a balancing act between gratitude of my current good health and sadness at what I've gone through and the possibility of letting my guard down too much. I think as I was so happy before the big C I just grieve my old life  I try to be positive and happy but some days i just feel broken inside  .I had a chest X-Ray and a nuclear bone scan recently for rib pain thankfully all clear but may be it's triggered my  trauma again I'm sorry I can't offer more but you definitely aren't alone here x ... View more

Hi thank you to the Nurse for answering my question just reposting in case any ladies on here can help me thanks.  ... View more

Oh Delly I hope so this is someone with massive recurrence fears I've only every got a grip on. I hope I'm not rocking the boat my BCN just kept going on about infection and my sister keeps texting so are you doing it as if to say why are you bothering.I'im 50 should i be bothering or just grateful I'm here  Sorry just had to get feelings out xxx ... View more

Hi again Thankyou for all the advice. I received a letter today for Pre Op on Tuesday bit odd as he said it was twelve week wait may be they're just being super organised but we shall see. Think I'm keen on Implant though so hope it's right choice xx ... View more

Evie Thank you for your answer you always seem so kind on here. I think Delly has addressed some of my concerns. Are you happy with the result ? I don't know how old you are I'm 50 so apparently would need small uplift on the other. I just hope it looks fairly natural  i have to be honest some of the Implant news scares me a bit  I asked about auto immune link as I have celiac and oncologist said he could swear with frustration when it's mentioned as there is no evidence and implants are perfectly safe but he can't blame me being concerned. Delly has again addressed some issues such as rupture . I'd heard silicone can  collect in lymph but as all mine are removed i wonder what would happen x ... View more

Hi all Thankyou for this thread it's nice to know I'm not alone. I had mastectomy and full lymph clearance November 2016 and was so traumatised at the time I just said no to reconstruction. I couldn't have immediate reconstruction at the time and as time went on i didn't want it. But now I've surprised myself by considering it  I saw my surgeon and BCN on Friday and breast surgeon kept smiling as I was so undecided  He eventually put me on list for Implant as it has a twelve week wait so he said I can still consider options.  I swing between worry of an Implant and telling myself to stop googling and worrying for once. I am only small busted and am happy with prosthesis but two years on its getting a bit annoying to find bras and clothes. I often don't wear it in the day but then with the warm weather realise I'm out in summer top with one bust . Thanks Delly for reassurance a bit about implants I'm still not sure but don't want tissue surgery really.I'm worried of messing things up and as I had radiotherapy worry about the skin. The breast surgeon said he's pushing things a bit but that my skin is healthy  I wish I had a Crystal ball to check i don't regret it xxx X ... View more

Thankyou for your answer Evie-S I've been to see doctor who gave me reassurance. She did say if it was very early met s it may not show but recent bloods were all fine and  a mammogram and lymph node check i recently had on that side under arm were also ok. All these are good signs still a bit worried but I've been referred for reconstruction and hope to see oncologist soon so will double check .It's kind of you to answer xxx ... View more

Just bumping up my post thanks xx ... View more

Hi just reposting for  any answers thanks . ... View more