Breast Cancer Now Forum

Hi all Michelle hopefully you will soon have a positive conclusion to your cysts. It's so stressful when things are picked up and no one can reassure you until you get the results concluded. I didn't have cysts but I know they pick up all sorts on ct probably would never of known about and live with . So hopefully it will be a good outcome. Fel....well done nearly there! Starfire...its relentless for you and this medication and allergies.Hope it works out better for you with the new med! Had lovely weekend away no tears! Until back home ....back come the tears! hot weather itchy sore skin from rads and lymphedema to arm worse....feeling very sorry for self sat inside next to fan with no motivation for anything!...so when do we get better? I'm so impatient....though 8 months long so far...must be thankful as I'm still here....reminder to self must stop moaning !....but isn't it relentless! Xxx ... View more

Thanks for comments and support as ever xx feeling better today scan done promptly and off on weekend break to celebrate end of treatment . Sun is shining today ! Xx ... View more

Hi there been busy having meltdowns last few days ....yes I'm emotional too because finished rads and started tamoxifen too. Still sinking in finished active treatment....what a slog it's been and like you have all said it's kind of sad because you realise there's a long way to go before we will feel fully physically and emotionally well ......kind of sadness amongst the happiness. Crying on and off all time ( changing antidepressants because clash with tamoxifen too)Though today has been a good day and feeling more positive as have just realised how much better I am walking round park compared to a month ago when I really struggled with breathlessness and back pain post chemo. So there is light at the end of this tunnel! And we will get there when we are ready! ( for those on rads my skins just bit sore and was bit tired bit it all went fine its easy after chemo!)Scan tomorrow to follow up something from previous scan...hopefuly will be ok! Trying not to think had all treatment even if it isn't! You have all reassured me I'm normal in view of how you all feeling too. I think everyone gets fed up of me and my cancer issues at home....so it's nice to get it off chest( forgive the pun) on here xx Paloma glad your lump is ok Amy good luck tomorrow. And shocked weight loss that's fantastic.ive put almost 2 stone on! ....will be on that weight loss mission too.....after my weekend off first ... xx ... View more

Shocked and Rosie with you on that roller coaster seem to be bursting into tears all the time ! And hot flushes 24/7 had zoladex this week and starting tamoxifen wednesday but can't see how I can get anymore tears or flushes in ! So surely can only plateau and get better. Big hugs to you both and all those feeling crappy xx keep swimming xx ... View more

aliand so sorry to hear about your long wait.like you say you just want to get it out now very frustrating. Tell you what though having a mastectomy was easier than chemo so youve done the hard part. I'm sure you will make a good recovery and they will get all that nasty cancer out and you will feel so much better before long ! Xx ... View more

Thanks Rosie yes hormone check sounds wise x ... View more

Thanks aliand and paloma I'm 47 I am menopausal from chemo at the moment but want to make sure it stays that way as oestrogen positive. I will discuss it at rad review next week x personally I'd rather they just remove my ovaries! Rather than even more drugs but would rather have zoladex than nothing x ... View more

Hi aliand Do you mind me asking how old you are ? I'm thinking of asking about zoladex as I was still having heavy periods pre chemo and want to do all I can to prevent this cancer from coming back. They seem to do it different here I've not got any tamoxifen yet on 2nd out of 3 week radiotherapy. So good to hear everyone positive news ....the nice weather helps pick us up after all that horrid Che. So good to finally start feeling better ! X ... View more

Oh wow starfire you look amazing and your daughter is so cute. You have done brilliant x and gel don't worry I meant I'll be ready for g and t soon But not yet i was just dreaming of it as dosed up on chemo at mo but looking forward to it as you will too in couple of weeks when that poor mouth is better and mine will of done the chores we shall have a toast together! Xx ... View more

I can't wait for a G an T feeling giddy must be steroids x ... View more

Wow shocked you have been through it I can see why you've made that decision. How exciting with your new start and new house....its seems like the best decision and the right time for some good times ahead! ... get the cocktails back in on that raft! X ... View more

Aww shocked this is such a big step retiring. I have been ignoring all work and extra responsibilities like Guides and Rangers I run and have head in cloud just head down focused on getting through.its like preservation for survival blocking it all out....bit as I've just had last tax today Yeah! ...im getting closer to having to examine my priorities in life too and what I should cut back to survive. I must admit I'd love to retire and I'm 47 but done 30 years nhs service and was running on low prior to this. I could be convinced if wasn't for money as need to get mine through uni yet...but then again there is also some sanity and normality in getting back to work and even support! But such a big decision for you x I hope it's the right decision for you.they should help with a return to work and look at lower hours and work adaption in role if you have looked at it all. All I'm saying is don't rush while you feel as rubbish as you are but at the same time I don't blame you more to life than work xx ... View more

Meant to say rosie i think id feel the same too about the symmetry now you've explained both being rejigged. Don't belittle the importance of that or compare to others as important to get it right for you as you are the one who has to feel comfortable with it and if you like me once you have something in your head you will not get it out your head ! Xx ... View more

Oh shocked I can't imagine having to undertake moving at this point you poor love! You could do with stealing some steroids for moving day to give e a boost I think ! Xx ... View more

Rosie good advise from starfire you got to do what's right for you though so many options out there to get the nipple look back. Having had mastectomy I've got a silicone prosthesis that fits in bra and has a nipple shape to it and under the bra and a top no one would know any different. Theres also smaller prosthesis you can put in bras for partial bits gone .But it's about how you feel I had no choice and it's harder when you have a choice but go with your gut x ... View more

Oh fel that's horrible I hope you are soon feeling better and on the way back home x ... View more

Thanks aliand...maybe that s a factor too I did think that too at one point....never without my toilet wipes now...oh and nappy cream ! Like you say the things we talk about! Reassuring not the only one x ... View more

He he it's not incontinence I can hold it in just can't wee straight.....random hey. ....cant bring myself to mention it ! X just making sure I'm doing pelvic floor exercises to see if helps!x ... View more

Starfire I agree I think it's to do with the menopausal changes .mines not quite the same either and I have developed a problem with urinating it's not an infection but I now don't seem to wee straight and it goes everywhere! The number of times I've wet my trousers when out ( as don't sit direct on seat when out) is getting very embarrassing! It really is a problem! .....dont quite know what to do either ! Embarrassed.com x ... View more

Thanks for advice on holidays....nearly convinced husband x ... View more