Thanks for all the lovely, helpful responses ladies! It's been a whirlwind couple of days and my partner and I were given 24 hours to decide whether we wanted to freeze eggs/embryos or not (quite a lot to take in for someone who has really never thought about kids until now!). Currently looks like lumpectomy plus some lymph nodes on 1st August, followed by a cycle of IVF (freezing the embryo for future use), then radiotherapy, then chemo and/or hormone treatment, OR possibly chemo before radiotherapy, the doctors don't know yet if I'm ER positive or negative... argh! I'm struggling more with the impact on others than with how I feel myself at the moment, and my partner seems to be taking this much harder than me. I've also eaten way more cake than I should as a coping mechanism! I've had more letters in the post already for various appointments etc than I can shake a stick at, including a request to take part in some research, which is all just a bit much 4 days into my diagnosis! I'm not used to not being in control of things, and feel a bit like I'm on a really fast train than won't stop. Aside from all of that, I just want this thing out of my body now as I hate being able to feel it so easily! Caroline x
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