Lisaloo, what everyone has said here is right - once you know your treatment plan and have a start date, you'll feel a lot better emotionally (daft as that sounds) because you know then that you and your team are fighting this disease. Just take it one day at a time and use the forum as much as you can. Nobody wants to find themselves in the situation that we are in, and triple negative is rubbish. But just look to the success stories - Shi, for instance, has been an inspiration for the Oct 18 chemo ladies and myself in particular as I was TN too and am now in remission. No-one will deny that it is a hard journey, but just deal with one day at a time and try to stay positive. My husband came to every appointment with me and he took notes so I would advise you to take someone with you to every appointment with the oncologist, consultant, etc whenever possible. I couldn't always concentrate so having him there helped me mentally because I knew he could take in the information while I became a pile of jelly 😉 I know how you feel, this waiting is pants and your mind can't think of anything else other than BC and the what ifs. Have faith in yourself and in your team. Positivity really is the key. And a strong support team too, family and friends. I was in a daze for weeks, just going from scan to scan to consultant until I got into the first round of chemo, then it all becomes routine and safe. Oh, I'd also advise you to take note of your reactions to the chemo so that you know what to expect the next time, even if it's something simple as a headache, runny nose, watery eyes. I got through chemo by having post-it notes on my fridge and crossed off every day and every week - it helped me to look forward. And a jar of joy, where I'd put a note on a piece of paper of something that made me happy or smile that day. You will find your own little ways of getting through, but you will get through, a lot stronger emotionally, and we'll be there waiting for you to celebrate the end of treatment. We're all with you, Lisaloo, holding your hand. FiMIllan xx
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