Hi all, Wasn’t sure where to post this but is sort of surgery related so here goes. Had 2 excisions and then full left MX with immediate permanent implant recon in June this year. Got cellulitis infection so was in hospital on IV antibiotics for a week in July. Took weeks to recover and am now left with contracture. In September my lovely (female) surgeon told me I could have the implant replaced which was a big relief as it is painful, distorted, ugly and I basically hate it. Just had 3 month consult but saw her registrar and he was very dismissive and said it ‘wasn’t urgent’, put me on Tamoxifen and told me to come back again in Feb. I know it’s not urgent, but I still feel like I’ve been kicked in the teeth. He dismissed all my fears about taking Tamoxifen and said it was for ‘my own good’. I stress about what I wear every day as my chest looks unbalanced and I basically can’t get a bra that fits and is comfortable. My implant hurts and I have to use ibuprofen gel most days. I’ve put on 1.5 stone this year, ache like hell and have had to stop taking the mini pill as my DCIS was hormone receptive. Got blood test results last week that say I’m post menopausal, which explains that maybe and the hot flushes and feeling low since I stopped the pill. I just feel a bit lost - like when you first go back to work and everyone just assumes you’re suddenly ’ok’ again. Took my first Tamoxifen tonight. If it makes me feel any worse or any more dried up and old I’ll just stop. I joined a menopause support group on FB but that seems to be all about how great HRT is (which I obvs can’t have). Not sure why I’m posting this really, just feel a bit let down and like no-one understands and needed to write it down x
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