Hi Bebe, Thank you for thinking about me. My surgery was on the 5th, long 16 hours, it all went well and I stayed in the hospital for nearly a week. Was feeling horrible for few days after, but that was down to me feeling extreme nousea for few days. I had 8 drains connected to me and the last 2 were only removed the day before discharge. On the day of the discharge I noticed some lumps in my underarm but was reassured by 3 different doctors at different times that was nothing to worry about. It was incredibly painful and kept growing and came out on the other side as well, thank God went to Gp the next day and she just looked at it and said its infected and I need antibiotics as it won't go away on its own. I end up in A&E the night I was discharged as had problems breathing, they did some additional tests and all was fine so couldn't really tell me why, but possibly becouse my body was working overtime trying to recover. It took few days but it seemed to settle now. Still taking it slow and not allowed to do pretty much anything and God I miss having a shower!!! I had my results already, that was very strange and quick appointment and lasted only few minutes - I wish they would take their time to explain things properly and give us time to take things in. It is a good news tho as they said its all gone now. The cancer was a bit smaller than they thought and it was still grade 1, the lympnodes were clear, the dcis on the other side was much bigger than they thought but again all removed now. I assume all the margins were clear but they didn't mention it, just said its all gone now and I just need pills for the next 5 years. Don't need more checks etc but have another appointment in 3 months with them, not sure what will happen than. Don't know where I should get the Tamoxifen from as they didn't tell me. Have big list of questions to ask them so need to call the breast nurse. To be honest I am not sure how I feel about all this, it's been such a roller-coaster of emotions, in January I was diagnosed with cancer, we are in March and apparently it is all gone now. I know I should be relieved and happy right now but I am struggling to get my head around what's happened 😔 there is moments I feel like fraud, the whole thing only lasted just over few months, and how can they be certain I don't need other treatments, they said if there is anything left behind they couldn't see the pills will deal with it, will that be enough tho, isn't there any test they can do to make sure it is definitely all gone? I have 2 small kids I can't take chances. Few days ago also a member of the family (not imidiate family) passed away. She was bateling the cancer and was told it was gone, all good, than few months later it came back and spread everywhere. It was sad news and it just put more doubts in my head. Will I ever be able to forget about it all or will it be constant fear of worrying if it comes back.... I am sorry, I don't want to be insensitive, I know that you and many other ladies go through much more and cannot wait to hear the all clear news and must think "what on earth is she on about, she should be extremely happy right now". I think I just need more time to process it all. Its only 3 months since I was diagnosed and there was no time to get to terms with anything, appointment after appointment, shock after shock, decision making without having time to process it all. Think I just need more time.... Anyway, enough about me, how are you getting on? Did you start your treatment yet? Maybe we could meet one day, once I am aloud to drive again, at that Maggies centre? A xxx
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