Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry, I've only just come back on here and had no idea there would be so many replies - I frightened myself on Google and decided to stop looking online. Thank you all so much for your messages! I started out feeling very positive, almost superhuman, about all of this, but had a big emotional crash about two weeks ago and have been very shaky since. My microbubbles have showed no sign of cancer in the lymph nodes, which is good news, but am still anxiously waiting to hear the results of my Bone and CT scans (am of course convinced it has traveled!). I have my first chemo on Thursday and then on Friday and am losing sleep with fear of it, but am sure it will be better once I've takekn the plunge - it's the waiting that's awful, eh. I have two boys, 11 and 18, the latter about to take his A levels and I just can't bring myself to tell them (I seem to be doing a good job of looking normal, though don't feel it). I realise I may have to, very soon. I shall look on here more often, now, thanks again for all your advice. x
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