Hiya Apologies for the silence I've been attempting to process things. I'm still unsure of everything but I have DCIS with a, grade 3 tumour, due to it being 3cm, my nodes are clear and I'm oestrogen positive. I'm awaiting further results on the 24th April and have an MRI scan this week due to some calcification being identified in the same breast. It feels weird writing this, at times I'm dissacociated and ignorant to the fact I have cancer and others I'm a bit of a weeping mess. Life at the moment feels exceptionally unfair, yet I'm completely, aware that I'm not the only one and need to be grateful for having a mere3 weeks between me finding a lump and diagnosis. I will not lie I am petrified of what lies ahead, the thought of the indignity of losing a breast then chemo taking away more of my feminity is unpleasant. I wouldn't mind I've never been vain...until last week. I'm trying not to read too many things as they scare me, too many people like to tell you when things are really bad I need positive stories about treatment, how people have blossomed, how people have braved the outside world looking different yet felt empowered by it. This is a crappy enough situation to be in anyway and I want to surround myself with positivity, life affirming, ego boosting individuals. I hope you are all out there. Sorry for the outpouring of emotions but I've avoided coming on here for almost a week and now I feel,like I can't stop. Thank you everyone, I'm almost ready to join this girl gang
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