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Fazza33 · ‎01-12-2020

Thanks so much Evi. I feel better just knowing that I can come here and talk about it. It helps knowing that I have an outlet somewhere. Thanks again.

Fazza33 · ‎01-12-2020

Thank you so much for replying Pandabear. You are right, I can get through it, my fear is taking over a little at the moment. I will do my best to stay in the present and not think about the what-ifs! Thanks again

Fazza33 · ‎01-12-2020

Hi all, I really don't know what I am looking for by posting, maybe just need to get things out. I was diagnosed with early stage BC in July 2018 that was succesfully treated. I am due for a mammogram tomorrow as I have one breast larger than the other. I had a mammogram in June as I was worried about it then but I was told it is a cyst. Since then it has become painful and I can't shake the feeling that it is cancer. I had papillomas in this breast too and I have such a feeling of dread. This isn't like me, I can usually rationalise but I really can't at the moment. I don't want to speak to friends/family about it as there are so many depressing things in the world at the moment and I don't want to add to it but I feel very alone. I realise now how many questions I didn't ask at the time of my original diagnosis and I don't really know about papillomas etc. Do they often turn cancerous? I can handle anything once I know what it is but I can't stand the waiting. Does anyone have any experience of cysts and/or papillomas? Good or bad stories are fine. It would help to go to my appointment tomorrow with some questions etc. Many thanks Fazza33

Fazza33 · ‎06-11-2019

No need to apologise at all, this is the place to talk and let go of how you are/aren't feeling! I was feeling like this too and it does ease up but you must be kind to yourself. Accept how you are feeling right now in the knowledge that it will pass but you must carry on as normal as much as you can (without doing any physical damage of course!). 'You' will come back, it's just that you are hiding in the background right now, waiting to emerge! You have been through so much, physically and emotionally and you are amazing. If you can face going to work for a day or so, start doing it, no matter how battered your confidence is - doing your normal everyday things are the way for you to 'come back', you will focus on other things and this alone will make you feel so much better. Explain to your family that you are struggling and that going through something like this changes someone even if they are healthy again. Look after yourself, know that you are amazing and most of all be patient with yourself xx

Fazza33 · ‎29-10-2019

Thank you so much for posting this link - just what I, and probably many others, need at the moment xx

Fazza33 · ‎29-10-2019

Hi Jan, Thanks so much for replying. Not that I want you to feel this but it makes me feel better knowing that others experience it and I'm not alone so I really appreciate you telling your story. I think, because I've only had a small scar from a lumpectomy with no nodes being removed, that I shouldn't be getting these symptoms but apparently its common with radiotherapy too which I've also had. Thank you again, this forum is great and i really appreciate your advice xx

Fazza33 · ‎28-10-2019

What a thoughtful thing for you to do, thanks so much, it is just what is needed at times xx

Fazza33 · ‎28-10-2019

Hi everyone, I am 12 months on from a lumpectomy and radiotherapy and around 3 months ago I started with really bad shoulder pain and a numb arm which my consultant said it very common. The should pain has gone now but I still have a numb arm (pins and needles) and thumb. Has anyone else experienced this? Is it as common as they say or is this just to make me feel better about it? Many thanks for anyone's reply xx

Fazza33 · ‎22-07-2019

Hi KitKat, Thanks for replying. I spoke to a BCN this afternoon and she fully agreed that the support isn't anywhere near the same as the diagnosis clinic. It is a shortfall but I need to try and be less emotional about these things! Going to try and put it put of my mind and wait for the results!! Thanks again, really appreciate you replying xx

Fazza33 · ‎22-07-2019

Hi there, I had my first post treatment mammo today and I am shocked at the process. I don't know of this is because of my emotions and the fact that I have been fearful of this appointment but it seemed so cold. I was called in, mammo was done and I was told I would get the results in the post in a week or two - that was it. Whenever I have been previously, they have done tests, told me to wait then called me back etc but this was so conveyer belt compared with how I was treated previously. I am so surprised that there was no consideration for the fact this is my first mammo after surgery and radiotherapy and that I was visibly crapping myself. I know how busy they are etc but the difference in care from 1st diagnosis is huge. Has anyone experienced this? Am I being over emotional? Thanks for reading xx

Fazza33 · ‎28-05-2019

Hi everyone, can anyone offer advice on getting back into sport and bouncing about? 🙂 I still have some pain in my lumpectomy boob that the BCN says will probably always be there due to radiotherapy damage but she does say that I can't harm myself by getting back into dance fitness and jumping about etc. The problem I have is with support, my sports bra's are good but they aren't holding it well. Has anyone used one of the M&S post-surgery bra's for a lumpectomy and do you think they are any good? Any other tips would be greatly appreciated. Thanks so much xx

Fazza33 · ‎20-05-2019

Hi all, Thanks so much for taking the time to reply, it really helped me feel a lot less lonely and lost. I had an appointment with the Specialist Breast Care Nurse last Thurs as a follow up to treatment but I won't be having my mammo until July (I thought I was having it now). I feel so much better after talking through things with her and it helped having my hubby present as he learned a lot too and when I am having a fear episode he can reiterate what she actually said! Thanks again, you really helped when I needed it xxx

Fazza33 · ‎13-05-2019

Hi all, I am having my first post-treatment appointment/scan on Thursday and I am nervous. I am a very positive person by nature but this is flooring me a little bit, I am annoyed at how negative I feel about it, I can hear them telling me bad news and it's stupid because if they do I know it gives me the best chance of beating it again. I am also still feeling pain in the breast so I'm doubly wary about it as mammograms aren't the most comfortable thing in the first place. I don't know what I am looking for in posting this, it will be what it will be but I maybe need some words of encouragement? Thanks for taking the time to read this xx

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